I had a life. I'm learning I've had many. But none so beautiful or perfect as the life I had with him. It was easier when I didn't remember. Better, when all I knew of him was the evil thing He is today.But to remember a time when he was all my heart longed for, is a torture I'm not sure I can bare. Yes... I remember now the love we shared. But it wont keep me from my mission. If anything knowing what he used to be, what we used to be has made it more important to me than ever to stop him. No,there's no going back. There is only today. And today is the day I kill kylo Ren.