I didn't know what it was. I wasn't sure if it was the fact that we loved too much or if we felt like we only had each other. All I know is that I felt like I only had him. I loved him so much that it hurt to breath. I loved him so much that I was mad that I lost my emotions and I couldn't feel the love he felt for me and I him. He gave me happiness that I didn't even know I had while I hurt him and continued to hurt him through the relationship we had. And I'm so sorry that I put you through so much, and I'm so sorry that I caused everything bad that happened to you, and I wish I could say that I wish we never got involved with each other but I'm too selfish and I don't wish it because I love you and I still love you and I want you to come back to me, but no matter what you can't. But thank you for showing me what love really is. I love you Harry - August ❤️