Belle Fawn
The next day I didn't see Liam, nor did I the next day and neither the one after that. I was worried all over again which was so annoying. It was embarrassing that I cared so much even after what he did. Liam clouded my judgment and no matter how much I tried to forget him and I tried to push him out. It didn't work, it would never work because, I can't stop the way I feel about him.
No matter how I felt about Nathan, it didn't matter when I already felt so much for Liam.
So I regretfully went against my better judgement and took Gracie's car to his house. It was only when I got there did I realize what a stupid mistake I had made. I was already here though and I just couldn't bring myself to leave. My eyes bore holes into the big double doors, specifically one that was left open.
With a deep breath, I walked up to the open door and pushed it open some more, a strong scent of alcohol hitting my nose. When I looked at the floor, shatters of glass and red liquid were staining it. My first instincts told me to check the kitchen but, I was wrong. For that kitchen wasn't even recognizable anymore. The once beautiful black furnished place was destroyed, cabinets broken, counters cracked and utensils everywhere.
My heart started to pound as I worried more about Liam stupidly, "What are you doing here?" I jumped at the sound of his sudden low detached voice.
I tried to gain a grip over my emotions before turning around to lock eyes with him. His hazel orbs were narrowed and dark bags hung below them. A stubble had clearly grown in since these past couple weeks. His body was missing a t-shirt and his hair was unruly, all of this and he was still the most gorgeous man I've ever laid eyes on. It was like my words were caught in my throat as his orbs bore into mine for an answer.
After clearing my throat I finally spoke, "I-I was worried about you." I let my eyes connect to the messy floor below.
He scoffed and my eyes drifted back up to him, specifically the bottle of bourbon he was holding. I watched him take a big drink before answering.
"Worried about me?" he restated derisively, lifting his arms outwards, the liquid in the bottle making a swishing sound as he did so, "Don't you have other things to be worried about." he tilted his head, a slight humorless smile on his lips, "Like your boyfriend?"
He was clearly upset, his eyes drilling into my body tauntingly. They were dark, his hard stare fixated on me with so many things that I knew nothing of. I bit my lip out of anxiousness. Why couldn't he just for once see that even if I'm with Nathan and he cheated on me with Mads, I'm still here. I'm still here because, I care about him.
Swallowing the lump in my throat I caught his eyes as he caught mine, "Fine, sorry for worrying about you." I spit out in frustration before brushing past him out of the kitchen, only to have him follow right after me.
"No one asked you too!" he raised his voice as he replied with the same hint of frustration in his tone.
He was such an asshole, I turned around, glaring at his form, "You know what, I wish I never even said yes to this whole thing with you!" I yelled with every bit of irritation ever bubbled up by him.
He shook his head, a humorless laugh falling from his lips, "Then why the hell did you?" he shouted harshly, tossing the now empty bottle of bourbon to the side while prominent anger simmered off of him.
It crashed hard against the tiled floor, pieces scattering everywhere and I jumped at the sudden action. It only only fueled me with more anger, why did he have to be so hotheaded.
"For you, you asshole!" I shouted back, feeling myself breathing heavily from how angry I was.
I was angry at myself for even saying yes knowing how much I liked him. I was angry at him for ruining what we had. I was angry because, I wanted him still I wanted him more than anything. Despite what he did to me, that's what I was more angry about. I had no self respect to just leave him.
His eyebrows drew together, "I did it for you." I said once more quietly before ultimately turning around to leave.
"Belle." he called after me but, I kept walking to get to the front door.
"No that's it Liam we're done, I'm done." I stated loud enough for him to hear, reaching the open door with the mess in front of it.
Just as I went to leave, it slammed shut and I flinched at the loud sound it made. I could feel my heart racing and my breathing coming out harsh. My eyes trailed upwards to see his ring clad hand against the now closed door, his body heat consuming my back side.
"I'm not." he whispered lowly, I sighed at his words still not having the power to turn around.
If I did, how pathetic would I be, "Liam just let me go." I stated, eyeing his hand that was still against the door.
"No, you have to know that Mads and I didn't have sex." he blurted out making my eyes widen at the sudden piece of information.
"What?" I questioned bewildered, my eyes set on the wall before me, not at all wanting to turn around.
"We didn't have sex, we might have kissed but, that's it." I took in his words as I turned around slowly, "I said that because, I was so fucking mad at you for kissing Nathan, I wanted to hurt you." his bloodshot eyes met mine and his other arm caged me in on one side, "Like you hurt me."
I breathed in slowly, trying to process the fact that he was really saying this. If they only kissed, how many times? When did they? So many new questions were swirling through my head now. He said he wanted to hurt me like I hurt him but, I don't understand how I could have. If he clearly doesn't care about me, all he's wanted this whole time was pleasure.
Which is why his claim doesn't even matter, we're done either way. Despite how much I wanted him, needed him. I can't be with someone who doesn't even want me like that. And I can't be with someone who still cheated on me without a care in the world.
"No." I mumbled, tearing my eyes away, "T-this doesn't change anything." I stated.
His other hand banged against the wall beside my head, "Yes it does." I backed myself against the door but, that was still not enough to escape his intoxicating scent, "I know that you like me you told me the day we broke things off, I wasn't listening then but, I am now."
My orbs connected to the marble floor, eyeing the red liquid. Everything he was saying was just pulling me in and I couldn't let him. One of his hands came up to my chin, he tilted it up and I couldn't help but, to let my eyes gaze into his.
"Why, why all of a sudden do you care now?" I asked, in such a defeated tone.
He closed his eyes squeezing them shut in frustration, "I care because." he sighed and his orbs opened in irritation, "I care about you and I want you, I know that now." his hand grabbed a fistfull of my blouse to tug me forward until we were nose to nose.
My heart clenched and I could feel how heavy I was breathing. I shook my head, trying to push away my feelings for him. He didn't want me he wanted the pleasure he got from the bdsm.
"No you don't, you want my body." I stated, his grip on my shirt tightened and his hazel orbs narrowed, "Not me."
"That's not true." he growled out, "That's just a really fucking good plus." his other hand cupped the side of my cheek, "I want you Belle, I know you want me too." he brushed his nose against mine, stroking my cheek with his thumb.
I could feel the butterflies making themselves known in my gut. The nervous ache in my heart expanding as my eyes spared a glance to his lips. He was so close and it was so consuming. And for the first time ever he was telling me he wanted me that he actually wanted me. But, I didn't want to be naive and believe him so fast.
Not to mention another obvious factor, Nathan, he'd be so crushed if I went back to Liam after all the time we've spent together. I'd hurt him and I don't want too, he's been nothing but, amazing to me.
I just can't help how I feel.
"Tell me you want me baby." he whispered, digging his hand into my hair, his lips ever so lightly brushing against mine.
Our breath mingled together as I leaned forward, his hand sliding across to grip my hip. I felt lightheaded from his close proximity that I've longed for since we ended things. I couldn't though, this felt so wrong knowing I'm basically with Nathan at this point.
"I can't, I'm with Nathan." I breathed, trying to regain some sense of that stability I needed right about now.
He gripped me harder, "Like hell you are." he pushed me back against the wall, grabbing my chin tightly, "You're fucking mine."
I whimpered feeling so helpless in his arms but, safe he had no idea how much I wanted to leap into his arms. I was just so scared that he wouldn't catch me. I was scared that I was making a terrible mistake by choosing him over Nathan.
"No I'm Nathan's." I whispered breathlessly against his lips as I tried yet again to gain some reason.
A gasp left my lips when his hands fell to the back of my thighs to lift me up. His arms wrapped around my waist, catching me effortlessly and my legs hooked around his torso to steady myself. I let my arms instinctively loop around his neck and his orbs gazed into mine with a sense of authority.
"Prove it."
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Hey everyone I hope you enjoyed this chapter and you're enjoying the book so far. I really appreciate all of the support I've been getting on this book it truly means a lot to me! I know this chapter is some what short as well, my bad. I'm really excited to see what you all are thinking right about now.
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