post #3/3 of the day
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dismiss
your suspicions
about him
because they
cannot be true
he cannot be
who you think
he is
quiet
your cries
because it's not
fair
to him to
accuse him of
something
he has not done
and yet
he might have
he could have
that night
when the door
opened softly
and he stepped
inside
you can imagine
where he'd been
he was too
flustered
to explain fully
and he was gone
early
the next morning
but in the end
you decided
to trust him
because
you owed him
that much
tell yourself
that you could
forgive him
if it turned out
to be true
even though
you know you
couldn't
because it would
break you down
seep into the
marrow
of your bones
and settle
steaming
like poison
and it would
escape
into your blood
pumping
straight to your
heart
and you would
cry
even though
he doesn't deserve
your tears
but that's hypothetical
that's a what if
because he didn't
because the lipstick
stain
on his cheek
was really just paint
and his hair was
mussed
from the wind
you have to believe it
because if you
consider
the possibility
that he did
what he did not do
you will crack