This number really came in a wrong time.
My self blame went down a bit and I am not thinking about what happened much and I haven't cried today! I am not thinking about hurting myself, I am proud but I still kind of hate myself.
Third person p.o.v:
Yoongi turned around, to see Namjoon standing there, hands in his pants, a cap on his a head and a weird look on his face.
"So., your answer?" Namjoon asked again, as Yoongi stared at him with a blank expression not saying anything.
"I am going." Yoongi said, not giving much explanation, just three words with a straight face.
"Where? And why are taking your bags with you? Didn't you say you have to write some songs for a new album?" Namjoon said, fully knowing that Yoongi wouldn't be out for no reason, considering how much he values his time, especially the times he spends on his music.
"I am going somewhere else, I need to be alone for awhile." Yoongi
"For how long? A day? Two? A week?" Namjoon
"A few months, I am going to Daegu for awhile, don't tell anyone." Yoongi
"But why? What about your career? What about us? You don't want to be with us?" Namjoon
"I can still work from Daegu, I am going to ask for a break. And it's not that I don't want to be with you guys, I need time to change, I need to better myself and I don't think I will be able to do it while being with you guys, you make me feel perfect as I am, which is not the case right now." Yoongi
"Is it because of the killing?" Namjoon
"Yes." Yoongi
"Then I should go with you, I killed people and I need to change as well." Namjoon
"It's not the same Namjoon." Yoongi
"It is, as much guilty you are, I am as well, I not letting you go alone, we are in this together." Namjoon
"But Namjoon...." Yoongi
"No buts, I am not letting you go alone Yoongi, it's either I come with you or I am going to carry you inside and do bad sh*t to you." Namjoon
"Are you going to r*pe me?" Yoongi
"What? No! I was going to make you watch cat videos until you explode from the cuteness." Namjoon
"You are not that smart after all." Yoongi
"Excuse me? My iq is 148, I am a genius." Namjoon
"Yeah, keep telling yourself that." Yoongi
"You are changing the subject, what is it that is going to be?" Namjoon
"I guess I could use some company." Yoongi
"Great, we could take my black jeep." Namjoon
"Okay, where are the car keys?" Yoongi
"Here." Namjoon
"Why do you have them on you?" Yoongi
"I was going for a ride." Namjoon answered, then went inside the house, to get what he needs, while Yoongi got his stuff inside the black jeep, wondering if he should take off on his own; but before he could decide, Namjoon came back and got his stuff in as well.
"Are you sure about this?" Namjoon asked, staring at Yoongi straight in the eyes, while they are standing behind the car, by the trunk.
"Never been more uncertain in my life." Yoongi responded with honesty, knowing that this is be the best choice he ever made in his life or the worst.
"Wow thanks for the reassurance." Namjoon said with sarcasm, still not sure about the whole thing and how will it turn out when the others know, especially Jin.
"You are welcome, let's go." Yoongi said, as they took the first step the the front seat, while someone came behind him.
"Where are you going?"
"This is getting old, can't you just let a man leave with his dignity and not explain to everyone." Yoongi said in frustration not recognizing the voice, being done with the interruption, because if it continues, he is going to go back and decide not leave.
"It's Jungkook." Namjoon whispered to Jungkook as he turned around to look who was it, since their backs were facing him.
"It's who....oh Jungkook, hey baby bun. Why are up so late?" Yoongi said, trying to act as normal as possible.
"It's 4 am, I usually wake up at this time to meditate and look at uplifting things but this is not the time for that, where are you two going?" Jungkook was suspicious of everything happening.
"For a ride to the sky." Namjoon said, trying to be artistic and give Jungkook a nice pretty lie but the omega didn't take it well.
"Oh my god, you want to throw yourselves from a cliff? Why would you do that?" Jungkook was horrified and couldn't believe that Yoongi and Namjoon were willing to do this to themselves.
"Huh? How did you translate that to that?" Namjoon
"The thing is we are leaving, to another place far away from here, for a couple of months." Yoongi
"Why? Is there something bothering you? Is it me? I know I was being too annoying these past few days but please don't leave." Jungkook
"It's because of you, bun bun, it's us, we are the problem." Namjoon
"We need to fix ourselves, to be better and not let our anger get the best of us." Yoongi
"I don't want you to leave." Jungkook
"We don't either but we have to, it's for best, for everyone, if we want to be with you, we gotta deserve that." Namjoon
"I....I understand, but can you give a last memory before you go?" Jungkook
"What is it bun bun?" Namjoon
"Ask whatever you like baby bun, we are going to make it true." Yoongi
"Can...can........we......do.......something........like.........have the thing that starts with s and ends x." Jungkook
Yoongi and Namjoon looked at each other shocked, not expecting Jungkook to say that, or even think about something similar, but it happened before their eyes.
"Are...are you comfortable enough to do that with us?" Namjoon
"Yes." Jungkook
"Are you okay with us touching you, everywhere?" Yoongi
"Yes, I want fo feel your warmth and presence before you both go." Jungkook told them, making them have a smile on their face, but they didn't know is that there was another reason for this.
Bye 🌸💜.
The book is getting too many reads, I am going to stop uploading personal things and focus on updates.
Sorry if there is any mistakes.