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"Yes..." I moaned as my eyes flutter. Ganito ba talaga ang proposal. Hindi naman ganito ang napapanood ko sa TV or sa movie o ang mga nababasa ko sa mga pocketbooks.
But... I cannot think straight. Not when he's on top of me nibbling my lip as if it was the yummiest breakfast. As if kulang ang breakfast na kinain niya kanina kaya nagpapakasawa siya ngayon sa labi ko.
"Alexis.."
"Hmmm?" I heard him say but I don't know if he's answering me or he's moaning dahil hindi niya tinitigilan ang paghalik sa leeg ko. Napapasinghap tuloy ako.
Pero teka nga! Mapapalampas ko ba ang pagkakataon? Baka mamaya pagkatapos ng lahat makalimutan na niya na nagpropose pala siya sa akin. Aba mahirap na. Mas mabuti na bago magkalimutan, magkaliwanagan muna kami.
"Are you serious?"
"As serious as hell." At ipinasok niya ang dalawang kamay niya sa shirt ko ang cupped both my breast under my bra. Napasinghap ako.
"Pero..oww." He pinched my nipples. Okay! Enough with talking. Pero kung kelan naman nakapag decide na ako na ititigil na ang pag uusap, saka naman siya tumigil sa paghalik sa leeg ko at tumingin sa akin. Pero hindi pa din niya inaalis ang kamay niya sa dibdib ko.
"Amanda, at this point, buts and doubts can't stop me, and whatever it is are no longer significant. I have never felt this determined, I have never felt this way towards any woman and I don't wanna let go of this feeling." Ay talaga naman. Talaga namang hindi mo pa naramdaman ito sa ibang babae. Bakla ka kaya dati!
"I love you Amanda." He said while looking straight in to my eyes. I can see his sincerity and his love for me and I feel like crying.
"I love you too Alexis." And when a couple exchange I love you's when they're both on top of a bed, alam na ang mangyayari.
Kaya naman nung hinalikan niya ako, I kissed him back without inhibition. Pero kelan ba ako nagkaroon ng inhibition pagdating sa kanya? Kelan ba ako nagdalawang isip? For a skeptic like me, who'd never had any boyfriend, it was so strange that I was able to trust him completely. Kahit nung unang beses na may nangyari sa amin, hindi ako kinabahan, hindi ako nagsisi. It's as if my heart knows him and had put my full trust on him eventhough I don't have any idea who he is.
Nung nalaman kong bading siya, instead na lumayo ako sa kanya, I felt this urge to prove to him and to myself na hindi siya ganun. Kasi una pa lang hindi na naniniwala ang puso ko na bakla siya. At hindi ako nagkamali.
He tugged at my shirt and I raised my arms to help him get rid of it pagkatapos itinapon na lang niya kung saan. At ayaw kong nadedehado, so I started unbuttoning his top.
Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko na haplusin ang dibdib niya nung mahubad ko na ang damit niya. It earned a gasp from him and his lips travelled from my neck back to my lips and he gave me a deep searing kiss before he withdraw.
Nagtaka ako nung tumigil siya sa paghalik sa akin kaya napadilat ako and I saw him intently looking at me.
"Mandy..."
"What?" Nalulunod ako sa klase ng tawag niya. It's as if his voice is touching my soul.
"Do you have any idea of your effect on me Amanda?" He said before he gently kissed me on my lips. It was so slow that I feel like he's not kissing me but my very soul. And I feel like crying. I didn't know that making love could make anyone cry.
"You drive me insane." I closed my eyes as I felt him kissed my forehead then my eyes and I whimper as I felt the sensations his hands brought into my body.
"You make me do things I don't normally do."
Hindi ako makapagsalita. Kunsabagay, ano ba ang dapat sabihin when a guy's wooing your body and soul?
I felt a tear drop from my eye because of what he's doing. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang pag iingat sa mga galaw niya. It's as if I'm a crystal that might break if he handled me harshly. It touched me immensely knowing that it is not even my first time.
"Alexis..."I touched his cheeks, looked at his eyes and I drowned. That moment, I know that I can no longer pull myself together. I am so deeply in love with this guy.
"I love you Amanda, And I am willing to sell my soul to the devil just so you would stay with me." He said before he captured my lips.
O my God! Bakit ganito siya? Bakit sa bawat salita niya, mas lalo akong nahuhulog. Hindi ba niya alam na kahit wala siyang gagawin ibibigay ko ang lahat sa kanya? At kahit hindi niya sabihin, talagang sa tabi lang niya ako.
But I wasn't able to voice out my thoughts because he is starting to rain gentle kisses on my face. From my jaw to my neck down to my chest before his lips captured one of my nipples. I cried out in pleasure and arched my body towards him.
His other hand is busy touching my body and I am busy feeling the sensations his touches brought me. Hindi ko pa namalayan na wala na kaming mga damit kung hindi ko naramdaman ang mga labi niya na hinahalikan ang tyan ko.
And from my stomach he went town to my toes and kissed each toenails and I found it highly erotic.
He worshipped me from my toes to my hair with his kisses taking his time na pakiramdam ko hindi ko na kakayanin ang nararamdaman ko.
"I want to totally own you Amanda. Body and Soul. And I've never been this possessive my whole life." He whispered in my ear before he licked it with his tongue. I whimpered and I seek his mouth.
"Alexis, are you trying to kill me?"
"I am making love to you." He gave me a peak on my lips before he captured one of my nipples and gently sucked on it. Then his hands expertly touched my core. Hindi ko na alam kung saan ko ibabaling ang ulo ko. I clutched on his back and arched my body as I felt myself build up and shattered under him just by his touch.
Pero hindi siya tumigil, I was still convulsing due to the intensity of my release when his lips joined his adept hands.
I shouted his name as my pleasure intensified and I wanted him to stop dahil pakiramdam ko mamamatay ako but he didn't until I felt another pleasure build up inside me as my body arched for another release.
"Alexis! Shit!" Was all I managed to say habang nakasabunot ako sa buhok niya. Then I felt him stop and positioned himself on top of me and in one swift movement, he's inside me.
I closed my eyes tighter as he filled me completely. And my breathing hitched everytime he moved on inside of me.
I felt a tear escape my eyes and I don't know why I feel so emotional today. Hindi naman ako ganito tuwing nag gaganito kami pero iba ang pakiramdam ko ngayon. Pakiramdam ko hindi lang katawan namin ang naging isa, it's as if our souls have their own union. And today we are not merely making love, we are sealing our hearts together. I find it utterly touching.
He moved slowly on top of me, taking his time and savoring our every move.
"Look at me Mandy." My eyes fluttered and I opened it to look at him. I saw tenderness and desire in his eyes. He kissed my forehead.
"Remember that I love you so much and I will never hurt you deliberately. If there will come a time that you'll doubt my love, sought me and I'll prove to you over and over again just how much you mean to me." He said before he kissed the tip of my nose. Langyang tong lalaki to. Halos papatayin na nga niya ako dahil sa ginagawa niya, papatayin din ba niya ako dahil sa kilig?
"Alexis?"
"Hmmm?"
"Your words are putting me on edge. Can we talk later when you're no longer inside me?" I said panting.
"I'm just practicing my wedding vow." Nakangiting sabi niya at the same time he moved and surge deeper into me. Napasinghap ako.
"Practicing your wedding vow while you're on top of me..ohh?" He moved again. Why the hell are we even talking?
"On top and inside of you." I laughed hard but I wasn't able to prolong my laughter because he suddenly moved faster and soon the sound of my laughter was replaced by moans that I am not even aware I'm capable of.
After a while, we found ourselves cuddled on the bed and catching our breath.
Nakaunan ako sa braso niya while he's combing my hair with his fingers at napapapikit ako dahil pagod na pagod ako at gusto ko nang matulog.
I was already dozing off when I felt him kiss my forehead and whispered in my ears.
"Mandy, we'll get married at sunset."
"Hmmm...?" Yan lang ang naging sagot ko.
"I said we'll get married at sunset." His words barely registered in my foggy mind.
"Owww...I'm so tired." I snuggled at him tighter.
"Gigisingin na lang kita mamaya.Sleep now." I heard him say before he kissed my hair.
I draped my arms around him and sighed contentedly as I inhale his scent and nozzled my face on the crook of his neck. Hinila niya ako lalo para mas lalong kaming magkalapit.
I smiled contentedly as I drifted off to sleep.