it's been a long time my King
I've realized it's already autumn again,
autumn came suddenly, it came when I realized my summer is gone forever
It was beautiful, a light breeze of the past,
it smelled like those endless late summer nights, it was soft and warm but equally strong at the same time.
It held many memories within while blowing but at the end the breeze still left me alone in these cold autumn nights.
The light breeze blew me with him, as if those late summer nights have returned, those nights which will never return again, those nights of laughter ringing in my ear, deep in the world of dreams, laying on a soaked pillow of tears.
However, it was warm, it kept me warm and made me forget the upcoming autumn nights.
It was worth it, the days were worth these nights
How should I spend another season without you?
How can I fill my heart with memories of every upcoming season if it's already filled with you?
These tears won't dry if you don't blow again and let the spark ignite inside me,
You blew, kept me warm but forgot yourself in the cold.
How could I leave you and take this warmth from you?
I'm tired, my feet are tired
I want to sleep through four autmn seasons
I don't regret anything, I'm just not there anymore
I will never forget this last light breeze of our memories,
I promise I will keep this warmth within me,
even if a cold snow storm passes by I will stay the warmest
Because I was able to feel and witness your warmth for a last time,
I will carry it through every season, through every storm and every lifetime.
Thank you and I will forever miss you,
with every season and in every late summer nights dream.
I was staring at the steam of the hot cup of tea I was holding in my hands, watching the dawn rise upon the horizon behind mountains.
The trees were still wet from the heavy storm of last night, the weather was still foggy and the short night gown Jennie burrowed me wasn't making it any better.
I took a deep breath, breathing in the fresh morning air yet my breath was shaking and the sweat was resting on my forehead as I rewinded last nights memories over and over again in my head.
He is here, he is breathing, his heart is beating, his eyes are open. He is sleeping in the same house I couldn't fall asleep, the doors to the dreamland were kept shut along with the yearn to dream you again.
We are supposed to live for love but I died with love, a love which is still beating in the rhythm of his heartbeats,
but this time the rhythm of his heart beats differently, it beats in a different pace with a different sound.
How can we ride down the same road if there isn't a place for me anymore?
My body aches for his warmth, for his strong arms around my shaking body, for his soft hands stroking my hair and telling me "Everything will pass as long as your eyes look at me with the love you carry inside your heart", but it's not passing because your eyes are empty, your eyes don't look at me with the same warmth that kept my heart alive.
What should I do?
What can I do?
Flashback
I turned around and gasped when I saw the dark and high cliff I could fall off if he didn't pulled me back.
He stared at me through his wet dark bangs while my chest heaved up and down.
"Open your damn eyes the next time you decide to take a walk!" With this he let me go and turned his back to me to walk away, I wanted to run after him but I hesitated at first until I remembered myself that I had to use every given opportunity to make him remember if there is any hope left.
"Taehyung lives within him" Hoseok's words were the last string of motivation and hope that kept me going
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and started running towards him, as soon as I reached him I grabbed his wrist while the heavy rain was pouring on us.
He stopped moving and all of a sudden I flinched when something invisible and painful stung into my skin.
He turned his head and glared at my hand around his wrist before slowly lifting his eyes and meeting mine before my heart dropped and my legs were ready to give in.
Hug me and tell me that it's okay
Hug me and tell me that you are here by my side
Hug me and tell me that you are mine Taehyung
Don't leave me in this heavy and suddenly painful rain
"Did I stutter?" His eyes fell on my shaking hand around his arm and he didn't hesitate to push my hand away.
I frown, a cold shiver ran down my spine, I couldn't feel my heartbeats anymore, the falling rain drops were stinging into my skin when he glanced at me for a last time before turning around and leaving me behind in the darkness.
Don't go
Don't leave me here
Hold onto me
"Don't leave me Taehyung.." I whispered the plead of my heart out loud
Turn around
Don't leave me here
They might look identical but it's their heart which beats different rhythms .
End of flashback
"You're already awake?" Jin's voice pulled me out of my thoughts, I glanced at him and nodded while sighing.
"Never fell asleep to begin with" I said while catching a tear from the corner of my eye, the memories of yesterday's night were all I could think of.
"There is a storm coming" He said deeply after silence filled the grand balcony.
Curious I turned my head to look at him while he was staring at the landscape in front of us, his arms resting on the glass balcony railing.
"What do you mean?" I asked hoarsely, he turned his neck and looked right into my eyes and I gulped.
"It's Taehyung, isn't it?" The hot cup suddenly slipped out of my hands and shattered into million pieces with a loud sound.
I flinched while my heart started beating in fear, I kneeled down to pick up the glass pieces and avoid his gaze, I didn't even know what I was doing, I started panicking while picking up the shattered glasses.
"It's Okay Y/n, step back I will take care of it" He said but I wasn't listening until he grabbed my arm and grabbed the glass pieces from my hand.
"Listen Y/n" He said deeply while taking the other glass pieces from me.
"Do you see these shattered glass pieces? That's exactly what's going on inside him, it's torturing him, it hurts him but he can't put these pieces together. He is lost and unpredictable just like the silence before a storm."
I slowly lifted my eyes, not realizing that the other broken piece of the glass was digging into my flesh.
"Y/n! You are bleeding!" He carefully opened my hand and it was then when I realized it was me who was digging the glass piece into my flesh
"It doesn't hurt" I said in trance while he pulled out the broken glass piece from my flesh.
He furrowed his eyebrows as he lifted his head to look at me.
"What have you gone through that physical pain is nothing to you anymore?" He asked, his eyes saddened suddenly and I gulped while pressing my lips together and looking away.
"That something you called Love yesterday" I said before looking him into the eyes and crack a little smile.
"Can you cure this pain too, Doctor?" I asked, a blissful smile resting on my lips.
He smiled warmly while putting the glass pieces back on the ground.
"I'm sorry to disappoint you miss Y/n but that's the only pain a Doctor can't cure, only the person who ignited this fire inside you can tame the storm of your pain dear." He explained softly while looking into my eyes.
Kim Seokjin, the Doctor who suggested us to stay a little longer in Daegu, the man who absorbed and analysed the tiniest details before coming to a conclusion was someone I just got to know, but the calmness his soul radiates made it able for me to feel comfortable around him, as if he understands the tiniest problems of his patients he will try to find a way to make you feel better.
"If you see through him, he will be able to see through you" He said before standing up.
"Don't move, I will be right back" He quickly left the balcony as I was preceding everything he just said to me.
If I see through him, he will be able to see through me?
How should I do that if has he turned into the same cold ass hearted guy again?
Can my love tame the storm inside him? Will he let me see through him?
I stood up while glancing at the glass door, gulping nervously while fiddling with my fingers.
What can I do as long as he has a girlfriend by his side?
Can you let me in for a second time Taehyung?
"Ouch!" I shut my eyes when I realized that I stepped on a broken glass piece, I could feel the glas digging into my flesh and making the blood drip out my body.
I started cursing under my breath when the pain started to spread through my foot.
I heard the balcony door opening, heavy footsteps walked towards me, the shattered glass pieces got smashed with every step he took.
"Please pull it out fast please!" I shut my eyes even tighter when he lifted my foot to grab the glass piece.
"Don't stand there like a corpse and help me with this,Taehyung!" My eyes shot open and I almost fell on my butt when I saw a sleepy yet dangerous looking Taehyung standing at the doorframe and taking in the glass deeply digged into my flesh.
His dark curles were messy, simple black shorts around his hips and a white shirt covering his upper body.
My body heaved up at the sight of the modern day and sleepy Taehyung.
Almost the total contraire to the proper King of 1819, not even a single strand of his hair would peek out of his perfectly combed hair after he woke up, not once was he able to wear these light clothes he is wearing now. He always hat to wear his heavy garnments from which he always got tensed shoulders at the end of the day when he took off the heavy coat from his shoulders.
What is wrong with me? Why am I again about to tear up?
He licked over his lips before stepping on the balcony, my eyes fell immediately his feet and frown when I realized that he also was barefooted.
He noticed my look and took another step towards the glass pieces, dodging a piece with his toe, I held my breath in fear and immediately looked away.
I wouldn't be able to comprehend if something hurt him
"Jin Hyung, can you please come to the kitchen? Need your help!" Jimin voice voice sounded and I froze.
Jin sighed but I still noticed the little smirk on his lips when he lifted his eyes to look at me.
"I have to go Y/n, but except me he is the only one who knows how to treat wounds" I could feel my stomach twisting and my fingers tremble at thought of us, here, together alone.
"Take good care of her" Jin stood up and pushed the glass pieces aside, before giving Taehyung who was still standing at the doorway a squeeze on his shoulder.
With this Jin left the balcony and closed the glass door behind himself before giving me a little smile and disappearing into the villa.
I took a sharp breath when the cold breeze hit against the open wound on my foot, I clenched my teeth together as the pain started increasing but as soon as I realized he was here with me, I felt the pain all of a sudden getting numbed.
I gasped in fear with every step he took while dodging the glasses.
He slowly kneeled down in front of me, wind hitting against his hair and revealing his forehead almost in slow motion.
I couldn't think straight when he was this close to me, my heart was racing, I was sweating but freezing at the same time.
He was so close that I was at the verge of not believing that this was actually reality
"Didn't I told you to open your damn eyes?" His hoarse morning voice sounded, my heart skipped a beat and I couldn't help but bite on my lower lips, I felt shy.
His warm fingers took hold of my foot which he slowly placed on his leg, while I was standing there with the night gown Jennie has burrowed me, freezing but burning from the inside at the same time.
I wanted to open my mouth to say something, talk to him, but there wasn't a single tone leaving my dry mouth.
The breeze played with his curles I badly wanted to dig my fingers into,
The whole situation wasn't easy, having someone who looked like the love of your life standing this close to you but you weren't allowed to touch him or even look at him the way you used to look at him was a suffocating feeling I wouldn't even wish for my biggest enemy to witness.
"It might hurt" He mumbled while holding my ankle, my eyes softened while digging my nails into the burgundy night dress.
But he suddenly froze at the spot while looking at my ankle, his slender fingers left my ankle and he slowly lifted his head, little by little until his dark eyes met mine.
I frown, did I do something wrong?
What was the look in his eyes which I've never seen before? My heartbeats accelerated dangerously while digging my nails deeper into the fabric of the night gown.
It was at this moment when my eyes caught the anklet around my ankle which Taehyung has given me.
My eyes widened, chest heaving up, heart racing
Is he remembering something..?
Do something Y/n, say something!
"It was a present!" I gulped, my voice was trembling and I saw him noticing it when something shifted in his eyes as he was staring at the anklet.
I kept quiet and waited for a reaction, something, anything
Please Taehyung
This anklet united us Taehyung
It engraved my steps into the past
He suddenly grabbed the glass piece and pulled it out of my wounded flesh, I bit on my lower lip to hold myself back from making any sound while shutting my eyes and breathing out, my legs started shaking and I was about to fall again when he immediately stood up and held my waist before throwing the glass piece from the balcony.
"Careful" It was more of a deep whisper, the scent of his perfume invided my nose and made the familiar fuzzy feeling grow inside of my stomach.
Without anything he kneeled down again and started sanitizing the wound, I whimpered but bit on my lip and tried to look at him, hoping a glance at him would relieve my pain.
"It's antique.." He confirmed while being busy with taking care of my wound.
My eyes widened, lips parted in shock as an excited feeling rushed through my veins that I almost forgot my wound.
"H-How do you know?" I whispered while taking a deep breath.
He stayed silent while opening a bandage package from the first aid kit.
"Experience" He said and I froze while he bandaged my foot without blinking.
My chest heaved up and I held my breath as he was bandaging my wound.
What could he possibly mean by experience?!
I flinched at his touch while he slowly put my foot down.
He started picking up all the broken glass pieces while I couldn't even move an inch from the spot I was standing on the whole time.
"Take good care of it" He said before standing up after a last glance at my ankle making my stomach twist nervously.
My eyes widened and my heart almost fell into my stomach "T-The anklet?" I asked in shock.
"Your wound." The corner of his lips suddenly went up a bit before turning around and leaving me breathlessly back on the balcony.
"Taehyung?" I whispered along with a little tear rolling down my cheeks when suddenly a delicate breeze hit against my face, it was soft, almost a forbidden touch and when I opened my eyes it was gone.
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"I've been curious the whole time to see how the city actually looks like and I can proudly say it's just the way I've imagined it" Lisa nodded proudly, google maps app opened on her phone, eyes squinted at the light late summer, autumn sun light.
"It's a beautiful city" Rosé said while smiling happily and remembering all the summer holidays she spent with her family in Daegu.
"I was born here Unnie I can show you around" Jugyeong said while holding Jimin's hand as we were walking around the city.
I arched an eyebrow and listened carefully
"Oh really? Why did you move away?" Jisoo asked her and I gulped
"I don't know you have to ask my Oppa..where is he Jiminie Oppa?" My heart skipped a beat when she raised her head to look at Jimin who was whistling for himself and looking around the street.
"Your Oppa? He-" He started saying but got cut off
"I'm here baby" He suddenly appeared from behind me and lifted Jugyeong up.
She giggled while holding onto him as he was swinging her petite body in his arms.
My heart almost melted at the sight of them in front of me and I couldn't help but think about the words Jugyeong told me about Taehyung back in 1819.
The same Jugyeong who was now a toddler inside the arms of her brother, the brother who loved her unconditionally.
"Unnie? Why are you crying?" Jugyeong pointed at me and everyone turned their head to look at me while I was staring at Jugyeong and Taehyung, not realizing a tear has escaped my eye.
My eyes widened while lifting my hand and patting my indeed wet cheek. I immediately wiped my tear away and put on a smile.
This time I wasn't crying because I was sad,
on the contrary I was grateful, grateful to see these siblings together in a peaceful environment far from the blood shedding, far away from war and pain.
"I'm just happy" I said while smiling and tickling her stomach, making her giggle and hid her face inside the crook of Taehyung's neck.
"Women.." I heard him whispering while shaking his head, I couldn't help but bite on my lower lip to hide my grin.
"Where is four eyes? " Jimin took off his sun glasses while walking next to Taehyung
"Who is four eyes?" Jisoo asked with a frown while we were patiently waiting for Jimin to answer.
"Ara, that's the nickname I gave her, she has some big ass glasses she wears sometimes" The girl's bursted into laughter, mostly Jugyeong who was almost tearing up because she couldn't stop laughing
"You loved that, didn't you angel?" Jimin cupped her face and kissed her temple while Taehyung ruffled her hair and when Jugyeong moved her head my eyes fell on a smiling Taehyung.
I tilted my head to the side while watching the smile in peace, my heart clenched, it was a weird feeling, seeing them being happy while physically being close to them but not internally.
"She is at a hair salon getting ready for tonight's dinner at her aunt's in Daegu." He explained and my smile dropped immediately.
"Oh Jesus! I told her it's a friend's trip why the fuck do you have to go with her?!" Jimin lifted his hands in disbelief
"Jimin I'm sure Taehyung knows what he is doing, after all it's not easy to refuse on an invitation. Have fun there Tae, Jimin will get over it" He winked at Jugyeong who was carefully listening to their conversation.
"Hyung!" He unbelievably stared at Namjoon who avoided his glare
"Let's enjoy the time as long he is with us" Namjoon suggested Jimin who acted offended and put his sun glasses back on his nose.
Let's enjoy the time as long as he is with us
"Jungkook when is our appointment at the park?" Namjoon asked Jungkook and I lifted my head.
"Yayy!" Jugyeong started clapping her hands while the girl's turned around and stared at me with the same confused look as I had on my face.
"Which park?" Lisa asked curiously while glancing at Namjoon who was busy trying to
repair his sun glasses he just broke.
"We have booked a few Hanbok's at the Gyeongsang-gamyeong Park because it's Jugyeong's birthday tomorrow. The Hanbok's were all booked tomorrow that's why we had to book them for today so she could wear Hanbok's with you guys."
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"No I want this one!" I was sitting in a corner watching them argue over the colorful Hanbok's.
"A Queen Dowager Hanbok?!" Lisa held up the Hanbok while glancing at us as we were in one of the fitting rooms the owner's of the Hanbok renting section provided us.
We bursted into laughter when she started wiggling her eyebrows at me.
"This was made for you Y/n, move that pretty ass over here" I started shaking my head at her
"Why was this Hanbok made for Y/n?" Jennie asked in confusion as Lisa playfully arched an eyebrow at me before turning her head and glancing at the confused Jennie.
"She just radiates that kind of an energy" Lisa explained jokingly while holding her laughter back as I couldn't help but grin before grabbing the Hanbok from her.
After I finished braiding Jugyeong's hair I just smiled while watching her twirl happily around in her petite princess Hanbok.
"Little princess do you want to walk around and pick flowers for your hair?" I asked while holding out my hand for her to grab it.
"Can we do that?" She asked while flattering with her long lashes and innocently looking at me with her doe eyes.
"Of course we can, let's go" I smiled at her and she nodded immediately while the others were still busy putting on the rented Hanbok's.
I took a deep breath while glancing down by body, A Queen Dowager
I smiled while shaking my head, the gratitude I was living and feeling because I could put on a Hanbok with my friends by my side, seeing them in those traditional Hanbok's while a guy who looked exactly like Taehyung was waiting outside.
What kind of a destiny was this?
"What is your favorite flower, Unnie?" Jugyeong asked me as we stepped out of the fitting room to the beautiful and historical park of Daegu.
At the question my heart jumped for a second, I gulped quickly while looking at all the beautiful gardens around us.
"Roses, blue roses" I said firmly and she frown in confusion while lifting her head to look at me.
"Blue roses? But there are no blue roses Unnie.." She blinked, waiting for an answer as I smiled while nodding in agreement.
"They don't exist but we can make the impossible possible" I said to her as we were walking through the park.
"How?" She asked while jumping over a stone.
"By imagining it with your whole heart until it works and suddenly these white roses will turn into blue roses" I pointed at all the white roses in front of us while kneeling down and picking up a white rose petal
"Can you open your hand little princess?" I asked her and she giggled while opening her right hand and holding it in front of me.
I placed the white rose petal in her little palm and lifted my head to look at her.
"Now close your eyes and imagine with your whole heart that this white rose petal will turn blue" I calmly explained to her before she nodded and closed her beautiful dark doe eyes.
As soon as she closed her eyes I lifted my Hanbok and pulled out the blue rose petal from my pocket which I carried with myself since the exhibition.
At the sight of the blue rose petal my heart clenched painfully, I quickly changed the petals and placed the blue one instead in her palm.
"Have you imagined it?" I asked while smiling at her peaceful face.
The beautiful princess Jugyeong,
you will grow up into a beautiful woman,
with your brother by your side you will be able to face every obstacle in your life,
you will fall in love and be able to marry the guy you love,
you won't get forced married with someone you don't know
You will live princess, you will live...
"Yes" she nodded and I started grinning, "Then open your eyes" I told her and waited for her to open her eyes.
As soon as she flattered her eyes open her jaw dropped, her eyes widened and she started stuttering.
"U-Unnie i-it's b-blue..!" She blinked while looking between me and the blue rose petal.
"Should I tell you the secret why it worked for you so fast?" I tilted my head to the side as she nodded rapidly
"Because you're a real life princess" I whispered into her ear before standing up and smiling at her.
"Really Unnie?!" She almost screamed in excitement and making me laugh happily.
"Of course, if you doubt it go and ask your Jimin Oppa" I smiled while caressing her hair.
"Thank you Unnie!" She smiled and nodded nodded as reply to her.
"And one and two and three! Hips Rosé H-I-P-S!" Jugyeong and I both turned around as the others were walking towards us and bursted into laughter at the sight of Rosé walking down the bridge as if she was walking on a catwalk.
"Unnies!! Look here!" Jugyeong ran towards them and showed them the blue rose petal.
"Oh my god where do you found it?" Lisa lifted her eyes and gave me little knowing wink, I tilted my head while feeling a smile making its way to my lips as I was watching them.
"I wished for it" She giggled when Lisa picked her up and squeezed her full cheeks.
"You look great" Jisoo suddenly said as I adverted my eyes from Lisa and Jugyeong while we started walking towards the boys so that they could pictures with Jugyeong.
"Thank you" I felt the heat rushing through my cheeks while scratching the back of my neck.
"He has to see you in this, maybe it will help" She crossed her arms in front of her chest while nodding in approval as her eyes scanned down my body, making me clear my throat in embarrassment.
"Oh honey trust me it will help! She looks like a hot ass milf!" Lisa bursted into laughter before starting a race with Jugyeong.
"YAH!" I shouted, ready to throw my shoe at her head making Jisoo and Rosé holding their stomach's because they couldn't stop laughing.
"What will help?" Jennie asked again confused and I almost felt sorry because she wasn't aware of anything but it was for the best.
"Getting old grandpas to fall for our Queen Dowager" Rosé said before speeding up and joining the others.
"YAH PARK CHAEYOUNG DO YOU WANT TO DIE?!" I yelled but she just send me kisses from afar making me shake my head in disbelief.
"We still need to find out the reason why they visited the exhibition" Jisoo quietly whispered to me before we could reach the others.
I nodded in agreement but frown "I would be glad if we could find an opportunity to ask them" I answered before nibbling on my lower lip.
"There is" Jisoo smiled confidently, making me stop as she walked towards the others.
"When?" I asked loudly but she just shrugged and walked further.
I sighed before running a hand through my hair and shaking my head in disbelief at the girl's.
"Come on sexy mama, get them ahjussis" Jennie chuckled before giving me a light slap on the butt and walking into the arms of Kai, leaving me speechless with widened eyes on the spot.
I gulped when I noticed Taehyung kneeling in front of Jugyeong as she opened her hand and showed him the petal I gave her.
He looked at the petal and frown, lifting his head and saying something to her I couldn't hear from afar.
Jugyeong smiled and all of her sudden she pointed with her index at me, my eyes widened in shock, my chest heaved up and I held my breath.
Almost slow motion he turned his neck and his dark brown eyes met mine.
My fingers tugged the fabric of the Hanbok I was wearing as he slowly stood up, his dark eyes not leaving mine.
He suddenly shut his eyes, Jugyeong grabbed his arm and started shaking it, I wanted to take a step but I couldn't, my feet were glued on the spot I was standing on.
He mouthed something to Jugyeong before his eyes slowly flattered open again and he slowly lifted his eyes and met my shocked expression.
My knees began to shake, my heart accelerated rapidly when our eyes met each other because his gaze wasn't the one I was seeing the past days since I met the Taehyung of 2019, this gaze was alluring, playful and forbiddenly breathtaking.
"Why is Y/n's Hanbok different from the others?" I heard Jin asking but I couldn't look away from Taehyung's intense gaze as if he was slowly nourishing my soul with the familiar look into his eyes.
"It's a Hanbok made for a Queen Dowager, so she lost her King" Lisa joked and I could hear Jisoo murmuring something to her.
"May he rest in peace your highness" My heart started throbbing as I reluctantly looked over at Jungkook who jokingly bowed at me and made the others chuckle and crack a smile.
My chest heaved up again and I took a deep breath because when I looked back at Taehyung, this time the smirk on his lips was noticeably visible...
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Hey my royal babes!
Finally a new chapter! I really hope you enjoyed this one because it was very light and the first step into the new real world of Y/n
What do you think of Taehyung? Does he know/remember something or is it all simply a coincidence?
I'm really excited for the next chapters as the weather gets colder and the home's cozier and...☺️
What do you think will happen next while they are in Daegu together?
Drop your thoughts in the comments
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