...... SHAME !
Yes ! You heard well ! Shame . I feel shame towards him. Let me explain.
Before 1 year there was a rumor going around that Niel wanted a solo career and was gonna leave the band. Me and many others- oh so called fans , believed those rumors. We were so freaking mad. Who does he think he is ? I was telling to myself .
That fish wants to abandon the rest of the members? My Chunji will be on the uknown ?
Back then Niel had an instagram account and he was posting all the time ,communicating with his fans. I can say he was the only one of the Teen Top members who used to reply back. But ''fans'' started sending hate because they thought he would leave the group.
As much as its hard to admit , i was one of them...
..........
I sent hate to him......I regret it big time.
Cos later we found out that the rumors where just made up.
I felt so bad. He deleted his account. He looked so sad in his interviews and i was part of his misery. Thats why i couldnt approach him in the meet and greet.. So i convinced my self i dont like him so i can feel better...
Back at our scenery now , outside the building
I wanted to pretend i didnt see him when :
Niel :'' Hey . ''
Me : oh no. what am i saying now?'' Hi.''
Niel : ''Are ya lost ?''
Me : why is he looking at me like that ? He is creepy. ''umm. yes. i mean no...Im here for the Teen Top meet & greet at 5pm. ''
Niel : ''But its 3 pm now. And Im Niel from Teen Top in case you didnt notice hehe.You are not a stalker right?''
Me :'' EH ?'' did he just call me a stalker ? ''i just thought..maybe i confused the hours. Im sorry. '
I couldnt even speak proper english
Niel :'' So are you our fan ?''
Me :'' Yeah of course! ''
Niel : ''yayy ''
Niel :'' Have we met before ?''
Me : '' yes i came at your concert and at a meet and greet. '' i came at your concert? came ? this sounds like im a perv
Niel :'' I dont remember you.. I see lots of fans every day but you have a ..hmm unique face i would remember''
Me : the fuck? Unique face ? did he mean ugly ? yes you dont remember bro cos i skipped you muahahah , i said inside me . '' em its okay that you dont remember.. i had different hairstyle and makeup ..can i ask you something ?''
It was so....i dont know the feeling..i was standing there with my least favorite member...well even if i didnt feel shame ,he would still be my least favorite, and having a NORMAL conversation. WOW!
Niel : ''Go ahead ''
Me :'' Have you ever thought of leaving the group ?''
Niel :'' oh......about that. It was just rumors. I wont leave the group. These guys are my brothers ''
*phone rings
Niel seemed serious .
Niel on phone : ''I told ya Chunji ....''
wait...Hold on..Chunji ? He was talking with Chunji ? With MY Chunji boi? aaaaa omg
gimme gimme the phone!
Niel :'' Sorry ,Chunji sometimes is a pain in the ass but i do love him ''
eh? He loves Chunji ? I mean i knew he is gay but i didnt know he would be my rival .No sir.. Chunji is mine and only mine!
Me :'' Can i ask something more ?''
Niel :'' Of course ''
Me :'' I know..i mean...well...Does Chunji have a girlfriend? ''
Niel :
(to be continued)