"I'm sorry Ocean. I'm so incredibly sorry.
I wish I never sat next to her.
I wish I never invited her.
I wish I never answered the phone.
I wish I never met her.
When you came back, I was so undeniably happy. Sitting at home, I had nothing else to think about except the possible look on your face if you ever found out.
It hurt. I know it hurt you more. But knowing I was going to put you through pain whenever you found out killed me with guilt.
To keep me from witnessing and causing pain, I decided not to tell you.
I didn't want her to kiss me, I swear it.
When she kissed me, I pushed her away immediately. I got up and opened the door for her to leave.
But it still happened."
I don't want to hear any more of this.
Even seeing his face reddened and stained with tears brings me no mercy. Nash should've known better. I should have known better.
He never really cared.
He's just full of lies.