My eyes flutter open and I stare at the ceiling for a moment so I can wake up. Once I feel woken I sit up, rub my eyes, and check my phone. There were a bunch of notifications from tiktok, messages, and Instagram.
I decided to scroll through me insta feed and saw that a bunch of fan accounts had followed me. Wow. The thought of a having people who looked up to you and adored you was exciting. I continued scrolling through my insta feed when I saw yer another post from tiktok room. This time it was a screenshot of Ryland and The tiktoks we made together then on the side a cropped screenshot of a comment Ryland made saying "cute" with a reply from Quinton saying "you got to be kidding me."
I read the caption: tea 🍵 👀
I went through the comments and read negative comments about me and then some positive one. A bunch of people weren't sure what my relation was to Quinton which made since. Other were shipping Ryland and I, others were shipping Quinton and I.
Once I had observed every last detail to the post I exited out of insta and went to my messages. They were once again all from Quinton.
come on now Avy!!
i know I fucked up but RYLAND
the girls I kissed meant nothing
AVERY!!
text meeeee!!
im sorry i was just drunk
will you please just answer
fine.
don't answer, you're probably with Ryland anyway
avvvvyyyyyy
I stared at the messages and felt bad but he should feel worse he was the one who lead me on. I decided to leave the messages on read.
I then decided to open the tiktok app and saw that I had gained a little over half a million more followers. I was pleased. I looked through my posts and saw the comments tiktokroom screenshotted. Wow. Who knew I'd be featured on some tea type media.
While scrolling through the comments I remembered I had a Shein package that I still hadn't got out of my mail box. I dropped my phone on the bed and ran to through the hall, to the kitchen, and out the door to the mailbox. I grabbed the package which was bigger then expected and ran back to my room.
I decided I was going to do a try on haul on tiktok so I went to my vanity and put on mascara and lip balm then I took a brow brush and brushed through my naturally thick filled brows. I usually didn't wear makeup but since I just woke up I looked dead.
I then opened the Shein box and looked through everything I ordered it all looked so pretty.
I pulled out my phone once again and went to tiktok. I pressed the plus sign to creat video and put it on 60 seconds.
I recorded me saying "hey guys! I'm going to be doing a Shein try on haul... so yeah."
I quickly changed into the first shirt then showed it to the camera doing a little spin.
I wrote in a text box: 4/10 bc it's a bit risky and shorter then expected~ I would never wear this
Skirt: 10/10 I love this skirt I will be wearing it sometime soon...
I then changed into the next item which was a see through top and skirt.
Top: 8/10 I love the shirt but I'd rarely wear it and if I did it would probably wear it on a date
Skirt: 10/10 I will be wearing this one day probably not any time soon but yeah if I wear it will be with the top.
Top: 10/10 will be wearing quite frequently
Skirt: 8/10 the skirt is super soft , the material is just a tad bit thing BUT it is not see through
Swimsuit: 10/10 it's not to tight but it doesn't feel saggy yk?
Swimsuit: 8/10 I love the pattern I just don't like the fact that there is a wire in the bra but I know that is a key factor to the style of it tho so don't come at me
Swimsuit: 100/10 I love the color and design, it's not saggy and most importantly it's comfortable
.
Outfit: 10/10 catch me wearing this fit together
Shirt: 7/10 idk I feel like bandana shirts are just a risky game
Skirt: 6/10 it's a bit short...
Once I got all the clothes and text boxes I added in "okay guys thanks for watching and if you want me to do another haul comment the brand you want to see next" I said in a James Charles speed.
Once done I added the g6 filter and bling then posted.
About 10 minutes after I got a message from both Quinton and Ryland at the same time.
I checked Quintons first and read "please talk to me... I can't fix this if you don't allow me too."
I gave in and messaged back "okay I'll talk..."
I waited for him to call in the process of responding to Ryland who said "I had fun yesterday hope we can go surfing together again sometime soon."
I responded back with "most definitely I had so much fun as well :)"
Seconds later Quintons face popped up on the screen to face time me. I let it ring for a second just because then I answered.
When his face appeared he look tired and drained- probably from kissing all those girls and partying I thought to myself.
"I'm so glad you picked up baby." He said gripping his hair and staring at the screen.
I felt nauseous because of the word baby, "Please don't call me that..." I say looking down.
"Look I know I messed up Avy. I know. I don't know what I was thinking, I was drunk and they came on to me and in the moment it felt right I guess."
I didn't had a clue of what to say so I just went on with "Did you know that studies show that alcohol frees the tongue and mind to do and say what is at heart?"
"Avy-" he said before I cut him off.
"I didn't until I saw teatok and decided to do a tad bit of research."
"I'm telling you I didn't want to do it Avy, I- I love you." He said stuttering.
The words took me by shock and honestly made me not know what to feel. "You don't mean that." I laugh "You're just saying that so I won't be mad at you..." I said quickly then hung up.
One I hanged up I through the phone to the side of the bed and laid back listing to my phone buzz. It was probably Quinton making up bs about why he's not lying. I wasn't going to respond today, but I knew I would have to tomorrow since he was coming back.
I decided to look at my phone again so I spread my arm out and grabbed it and of course I was right most of them were from Quinton and one was from Ryland in response to my message.
I know you're probably busy but do you want to like um hangout or something
not like a date unless you want it to be a date
orrr yeah
?
I couldn't stop laughing at how awkward the messages were coming off I responded with "for sure, it'll be fun!" I had no potential romantic feelings for Ryland but I felt bad because of how nervous he sounded and not to mention he was really nice and someone I would most definitely wanna keep around.
As I was in thought I received a message saying "great! How about tomorrow? I can pick you up at noon?" I responded back with "sounds like a plan" then my address. He messaged back something along the lines of can't wait.
I didn't respond back because I didn't know what to say honestly. I went back to doing boring things such as watching tv here and there then making a tiktok or randomly eating snacks although I wasn't hungry.
The day went by quickly. It was now 10 p.m. and I got a face time call from Quinton. For a split second I forgot I was angry at him and answered then propping the phone on my side table sleepishly.
"You picked up?" he said surprised.
"Yup." I say in a blank tone almost fallen asleep while laying my head on my pillow.
"I do love you." he said while staring at me through the camera.
"Sure ya do." I say half way in between sleep and reality.
"I do." was the last thing I heard before I was completely asleep.