Tiana
Sitting at the edge of the bed, I looked around the huge hotel room, feeling worse and worse by the second.
It'd been a little over a couple hours since Dominic and I got into it. He'd ending up apologizing to my mother on the way over here while I continued to feel bad about my choice of words. I knew I shouldn't have gone that far with him.
"Your water ready, T." He said coming out of the bathroom before plopping down onto the bed.
I sat there a while as he scrolled his phone and I couldn't help but to apologize again for the hundredth time.
"Babe, I'm sorry." I went on to say.
"I didn't mean it the way that I said it."
"Aight, T." Was all he said as he continued to scroll his phone. He was pretending as if this wasn't even affecting him but I knew my boyfriend, he was so hurt on the inside.
"Gon' head and get in the bubble bath before it get cold." He told me, making me look toward the bathroom.
"Can you get in with me?" I asked and he shook his head.
"Na'.." He trailed off, making me sigh.
"Please, babe?"
"Na' ma. I'm good." He went on, rejecting my offer.
Saying nothing else, I slowly stood to my feet and limped toward the bathroom. The bathroom wasn't far but it was far enough for my leg to begin to ache.
"I need this." I said, looking down at the bubble bath he'd just prepared for me.
Standing there, I began to slowly remove my clothes, the best way that I could. I didn't want to bother Dom anymore tonight with my problems and my annoyance so I was trying my best.
Finally getting everything off, I placed one foot instantly feeling relief.
"Mm." I moaned, getting all the way in and relaxing my muscles. The water was boiling hot, just the way I liked it.
Sitting there for a while, I couldn't take my mind off of Dom. I just wanted to so badly make him feel better.
"Babe." I called softly from the tub, hoping he'd hear me.
"Babe!" I called again before the door opened and he walked in with a blunt in between his fingers.
"What's up?" He spoke in an unenthusiastic tone.
"Can you sit in here with me, please? You don't have to get in, I just want to talk." I admitted and he sighed deeply.
"Aight, T." He finally gave in and I couldn't help but to get excited inside.
"Let me finish smokin' then I'a be in here." He said and I nodded slowly, watching as he left back out and closed the door behind him.
I waited patiently for him, getting my thoughts and words together. I needed to explain myself so he could know where I was coming from and make sure he knew that I loved him. I would never intentionally hurt his feelings.
After about ten minutes, like promised, he came back into the bathroom and closed the door behind him. He didn't say anything as he sat down on top of the toilet, scrolling his phone.
"Baby." I called and he slowly looked up from his phone.
"Can you put your phone down for a second? I need to talk to you." I spoke softly, trying to keep my tone in check, I needed him to know that I was being sincere.
I watched as he did as told, shoving his phone into his pocket. When he did, he didn't say anything, he just waited for me to speak.
"Okay.." I trailed off as I sat up from the bubbles so that I could look him in the eyes.
"I just want to start off by saying, I was completely wrong for what I said to you. None of what I said was okay because had roles been reversed, I probably would've broken up with you and never talked to you again." I started as he listened intently.
"You do nothing but love me and all I want to do is return the same energy to you. I never meant to hurt your feelings the way that I did."
"It should've never came out that way and I promise to never say anything like that to you again." I continued, putting my pride aside.
"What I meant when I said it was you've hadn't had to deal with the obstacles and crazy points I've had to go through when it comes to my mom. Like yes, she can be annoying and manipulative at times but she apologized and we moved on."
"When it comes her, I can't just say fuck you, bitch and keep going because there's a different type of feeling I have for her. She's my mother, you know?" I went on and he nodded.
"And with your mom not being around, you have never had to experience what I went through. Maybe with Deja but it's just different, babe." I expressed to him, correcting all of my wrongs words as a whole.
He needed to know what I really meant.
"But I never meant to be insensitive or hurt your feelings even though you pretend you don't hurt." I smiled small and he just looked at me with a blank face.
"I apologize and I vow to never say anything like that to you ever again. I'll just leave before I decide to hurt you with fucked up words."
"Because at the end of the day, it's not worth losing you." I continued on.
"That's all I wanted to say." I ended, relaxing back into the water as he sat there quietly. Though I didn't know if we were in the clear or not, it felt 100% better to know that I got what I really meant to say out and off of my chest. He needed to know this.
About 15 minutes went by before he broke the silence and spoke.
"Thank you, ma." Was all he said as he stood to his feet and walked out of the door. And though those words were simple, they made me feel relieved.
He'd taken what I said and accepted it. That's all I needed. Now, we both just needed time to cool off and give each other some well needed space.
*
2 hours later
I limped out of the bathroom, seeing that it was completely dark in the room. I furrowed my eyebrows, making my way over to the small desk in the corner and turned on the desk lamp.
When I did, I saw Dominic knockedout in bed as I glanced over at the time, 12am.
"Oh my god, it's midnight." I stressed to myself, dropping my towel and grabbing a T-shirt from his packed bag.
It didn't even feel as if it was midnight, I didn't even think I was in the bathroom for that long but I'd taken my pills about an hour ago and they had me a bit woozy so I guess that's why.
Wow. Was all I could think, putting on his T-shirt and then putting deodorant on afterwards. Once I was finished, I slowly made my way over towards the beds and I debated if I should get into bed with him or get into the one directly across for him.
I figured we were still giving each other space and I knew he didn't want to be bothered with me, so I decided I'd just sleep alone for the night.
Limping my way back over the desk, I cut the lamp off and then walked back over to the beds. Sitting down onto the lonely one, I mentally stressed myself the entire time, wanting to get in bed with Dominic.
I hated sleeping without him.
"Babe." I poked my lip out.
"Come here, Tiana." He spoke sternly, surprising me since I'd thought he was asleep and I slowly stood to my feet.
I couldn't see him but I could feel him as he grabbed my hand, pulling me into bed with him. It took a while but once I got comfortable, I laid my head in his chest and inhaled his manly scent.
"I love you." We spoke in unison, making my heart smile.
"I love you too." I told him, lifting my head up to his face and pecking his lips.
"Aight. Go to sleep, T."
*
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