Ever since I came back in the Anbu black ops organization, my missions were nothing but blood spilling on my hands.
Working under Danzo made me think about a lot of things, either if these sacrifices were for the sake of the leaf village or just the complete opposite. The sake for himself thinking it is the right thing to do.
Under his control, Danzo placed a curse seal including myself, ever since Kakashi Hatake betrayed his loyalty and trust. Now with no given choice, Danzo is able to use his jutsu on us to not move or speak if we try to disappoint him.
" Today's mission was tiring, I hope it's the last thing from our bingo book for today" Tenzo said taking off all his gear and equipment away in his locker
As I was about to take my gear off, I noticed to heard footsteps coming my way. An Anbu member with a fox mask on, handed me a letter rolled and tied up. I looked at the person confused as I accepted the letter out of his hands and quickly opened it.
" what is it?" Tenzo said as he tried to look at the letter all curiosity
" This can't be" I said surprised rolling the letter back up quickly" I'll be back" walking away quickly as I felt my body boiling up with anger.
He can't make me take this mission I refuse. Doing his dirty work? He must have lost his mind if he thinks he can just press my buttons whenever he wants to.
Heading my way to his office I opened the door quickly with my two hands entering and showing off a cold anger face
" Lady Uchiha " he said as he slowly stood up from his chair " I see you receive my letter?"
" yes, but what is this? You can't make me do something I clearly can't do!" walking further into his office, I threw the paper on his desk "This is betrayal to my own friend! He was my comrade, my team, and you are making me take something from him?"
" Amaya, you already know you can't refuse my order. You chose to serve me, and now you are disobeying?" He looked at me angrily
He was somewhat right but I had no choice at the same time, he only wanted me here because of my skill but I was also an Uchiha. He only saw me as a replacement of Itachi.
" He may not be an Uchiha and he may had betrayed you, giving information about your plans but that doesn't mean he can be just be a target"
The silence came between the us two and his eyes filled with anger, I stood patiently waiting for him to say something but noticed his hand forming a sign
" So very disappointing Uchiha, maybe everybody is right who you are. " feeling something unpleasant over my whole body I took off my black gloves and gave out a surprised hesitate look. A trail spreading the palm of my hands slowly unable to move at all
what is this? Is this the curse seal I've been put in?
" Uchiha this is an order as the head of Anbu, give me Hatake Kakashi Sharingan's eye as a replacement for my eye" he pulled his bandage to see his eye color fading " or I will have Uchiha Sasuke killed"
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Take out his sharigan's eye?
Outside of the Hidden Village, I went to visit Itachi's old grave, standing alone reminded me the Jutsu Danzo put me on a while ago. I was unable to move but inside I was feeling a bit frighten since in a long while. I haven't felt this way since..
clenching my fist tightly I looked down at the ground in front of his grave, Itachi resting peacefully. Remembering back when the both of us were running around through the trees as little kids. My smile and and the laugh I showed, being lost in his soft eyes was the only thing I felt safe in.
If only..
If only..
"There you are" a voice from afar behind me give me a surprise feeling as I continue to hear his footsteps coming closer " I've been looking for you" turning to see Tenzo next to me "I was worried that you didn't come back in the locker room"
" Sorry, I was bit of a hurry" I said with an excuse " I just have a lot of things on my mind"
" You still come here every often?" He asked me as I looked at him and nodded a bit " you know, I never lost anyone before. I was a lonely kid with no memory but a given name I chose for myself" hearing him sigh made me feel worst, explaining bit about himself " But somehow, I want to willing feel to protect someone"
" protect someone?"
" like I would for you, If you let me" surprised I heard those words, I looked down with a regret feeling " you shouldn't bother protecting someone like me" I said to him " You saw it yourself, I don't even know who I am, just a person accused for murdering people's life's "
Quickly as he did, he put his hands on my shoulders with a serious look " but you aren't the one who killed your clan! Amaya if only people knew how beautiful and strong you are" he said feeling his rough hand on my left cheek as the both of us looked at each other in our pupils deeply. He reached closer to me about to touch my lips with his but gently I pushed away " I'm sorry.. " I said softly " I have a mission to do" quickly I walked passed him I could feel the guilt building in me
I can't..
Bring me Hatake Kakashi sharigan's eye or I will have Sasuke Uchiha killed, those words he said was the only thing I had on my mind. I knew that this wasn't a bluff but a serious threat that will effect me and my life.
If only there was another way.. but there are always choices to be made
Heading back quickly to the hidden leaf village, all I could think of was the choices I had to make for myself, either way there will always be blood shedding.
" Mom.. where's my mom" hearing a little boy in front of me wore round shape glasses, brown hair split, and his nose running as he was trying to wipe them. It reminded me back then when I was alone, no one offering to help as they all passed by.
" Hey it's okay" I came up to him bending the same level as him, wiping his tears I offered a smile " I'm sure mom will be here soon"
" Udon! I nearly lost you!" hearing a young women behind me running up to him quickly, taking his hand and away from me " stay away from her, she's dangerous"
" Miss, for someone who couldn't watch a child, I think it is best that you apologize" looking up surprisingly to see Kakashi standing next to me as he was reading a book
" Kakashi.." I said softly as I watch the lady bow down to me and walked off with her kid
" I was alright on my own " I said as I slowly stood up of the ground noticing him hold a bag
" oh ah, I was on my way home to make some Nitsuke, Kakashi style!" he said giving out a smile as I look at him how full of joy he always shows on his face.
Hearing the noise coming from the villagers the both of us got quiet for a second " why not come over, it's been a while.." he was rubbing his head nervously " just you and me.." he said
At first all I thought about was myself and the mission but seeing Kakashi made me forget a lot of things off my mind. Was it because were similar in some ways or because he acted just like Itachi? It was because he was my one friend who reached out to me even when I don't ask him to.
" Sure Kakashi" I said to him " I'm sure it sounds like fun"
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In his Apartment home, it was somewhat basic you can say with just silence filling in the air. It was the first time coming into his home, taking off my shoes I followed him in the kitchen.
" You can wait in the Dinning room while I prepare some Nitsuke" he said to me as he put the bag he carried, filled with fishes on the kitchen table. He took off his gloves, turning on the water from the kitchen sink and washed his hands with soap.
I walked my way besides him taking off my gloves and washed my hands with him, seeing him a little surprised " I may be a guest in this home but it would be rude for me to not offer to help" I said and dried my hands, taking out the ingredients he showed me where as we both helped prepared the meals
Somehow I kinda felt a little better in forgetting something that was happening in my head, the smell of the sliced fish being cooked and the green onions being chopped with my hands.
" Have you tried to reconsidered in quitting the Anbu organization" hearing kakashi say to me made me stop cutting the onions
" Why made you say that?" I said to him
" It's just I don't like seeing you this way, you become so cold hearted when you are on missions but when you trained Sakura or even go to places with the students you become a different person who smiles and cares"
if only you understood that I don't have a choice..
"I just want to support you and not go to the wrong path" he sigh continuing to cook the fish
" Kakashi.." I sigh as silent filed and the food was ready
setting the food down on the table we both pray our hands saying thank you for the meal
" whoa!" I said " this is good" taking a bite of the fish
" yeah see! its been a long while since I had eaten here with anyone" he said taking off his mask and grabbing a bite of the food we made
so he never had visitors.. he was alone maybe I don't really know him after all
" Why are you telling me all this?" I said
" because I trust you" my eyes widened as he said those words, feeling guilty and regret I didn't want to complete this mission
" Kakashi.. I can't right now I-" " I know you are on a mission to take my eye Amaya" he said made me froze not knowing what to do
he knew?
" oh yeah then how come you aren't doing anything?" I said to him
" because I know you don't have the guts to do at a person you deeply care about" he said to me serious " I know you Amaya, we use to work together
" Shut up" I said grabbing my kunai knife
" Amaya"
" I said Shut up!!" I yelled causing the food and table to fall as I was aiming for an attack on him
on the floor we both were, I was on top of him holding my kunai knife with my both hands near his eye.
He didn't do anything, like he wanted me to do knowing I can't of how much I care for him
" why can't you fight me! I'm taking that is important to you!" I said to him
" because I know you find another way to fulfill this mission without killing me. Leave the organization Amaya please"
" You think it's easy! I can't because I'm being targeted! I need to protect him even if he hates me" I started tearing as he hugged me tightly " Then let me help you, find a way to get you out Amaya please"
" Kakashi.."
You idiot... you can't help me..