The song makes it magical.
Tiana
Next night
First time in a long time, hurtin ' deeply inside. First time in a long time, hurtin' deeply.
Trust. Trust who?
Watchin' my back even when I'm in the booth
Oh, trust who?
Doin' my thing, but I'm down to come clean, not like you. I wanna make you feel the weight's off your shoulders too.
I'll take it.
Just tell me it can't be that crazy, And even if it is that crazy, baby.
I'll take it
I want you, I know you're not an angel.
"Mm." I moaned as Dom and I held onto each other tightly, making slow love.
The music blared through his speakers, muffling the sounds of all my moans and his groans. We were making up for the argument we had yesterday and I couldn't help but to think about everything we've been through together. I couldn't believe I cheated on him. It wasn't worth losing this at all. I'd put this in jeopardy for what?
"Fuck. Don't stop." I begged quietly as he slowly pushed himself in and out of me while I laid there on top of him. Taking all of his long strokes.
"I got you, baby." He groaned in my ear, breathing heavily.
"I love you." He went on, quickly putting me in my feelings more than I already was from the sex and the music combined.
A wave of emotions washed over me as I broke down. I cried in the crook of his neck as I slowly rode him, trying more than enough to keep it together.
You was everything a nigga need. You was everything to me, my love.
Why you keep that little shit from me? Left me down on bended knee.
When I scooped you in the Maybach, the only time a nigga ever made you take a backseat.
Why you do that little shit to me, shawty?
When you know that we was meant to be.
Why'd you keep those things from me, my love?
I've given you enough time..
"Don't stop." I begged, tears pouring down my face.
It was as if the song was reading all of my thoughts and I could no longer contain myself.
Thought I knew the real, then they flipped.
How many times did I ask about this, on God?
Why you let me find out like this, on God?
Houston, we got a problem, my dawg.
All my niggas love you, got us all involved.
Ain't no goin' back to how we started off.
No, no, no, no.
"Dominic." I cried out as he began to penetrate me faster.
"You good, baby?" He spoke up, noticing that something was off as I simply became weak. Letting my arms hang loosely around his neck.
"What's wrong? What I do?" He asked as I bit my lip, getting off of him.
Sighing heavily, he got up from the bed and walked over to turn the lights on. I sat there naked with my head in my knees, crying my eyes out.
I don't know why but I thought that because Connor was now out of my life that I would be able to just move on but it just didn't work that way. I still felt so guilty. Dominic loved me and this is how I repayed him. I was so dirty for this and he would never forgive me.
Turning the music off, Dom then came over to me and pull me into his arms. Naked and all. We sat there for a while before he spoke.
"Look at me, Tiana." He spoke sternly, making me look up at him with my puffy eyes.
"I hurt you?" He asked and I looked down, upset that he even thought that. He was nothing but perfect to me.
"No." I shook my head.
"Was I too rough with you or something?" He asked, obviously just trying to figure out why I was crying like this.
"I don't feel like I was rough, I was tryna take my time witcha." He went on.
"It's not that. It's not you." I shook my head, easing his mind.
"It's nothing you did at all, babe." I sniffed, wiping my eyes.
"It's me." I croaked, crying harder.
"It's all me."
I sat there crying hard as he simply watched me. I really didn't know how I was going to do this but I had to tell him. I could no longer have this on my conscious and he deserved to know.
"You wun' talk about it or.."
"..you wun' wait until tomorrow?" He asked me, trying to see what made me most comfortable and I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know. I guess we can wait until tomorrow. I really need to build up this courage first." I admitted and he nodded understandingly.
"Aight, ma. Come on, let's just go to sleep."
*
Tiana
Next morning
Slowly walking into the living room, I scrolled my phone seeing that I had no calls from any one for the first time in forever, feeling a hundred times better.
"Tiana." I heard Dej's voice, making me look up at her in the dining room.
"Hey." I spoke, making my way over to her a I slowly sat down.
"Dom still sleep?" She asked and I nodded slowly.
"Cool because we definitely need to talk."
"Woman to woman." She looked at me seriously and I nodded.
"What's going on?" I asked, wiping my sweaty hands.
"Getting down to the real shit, I know you're cheating on Dom." She blurted out and my heart dropped.
"Huh?" I asked guiltily and she simply nodded.
"You left your phone in the bathroom and I went through your messages."
Feeling caught, I broke down into tears as she simply watched me with no remorse.
"Don't cry now." She shook her head.
"..because you knew the risk." She spoke sternly to me and I couldn't even say that she was wrong but I was just so scared. I couldn't tell him.
"I've done it before too but I had to own up to my shit and realize that it might be fucked forever. All because of one fuck up. All because I wanted to cheat, you know?"
Biting my bottom lip, I knew she was right and I knew that I would most likely lose him but I wasn't ready for it. I wasn't ready at all.
"Just answer this." She went onto say.
"Why did you do it, T?" She asked and I sighed deeply, deciding to tell her everything. From my mother paying for my school all the way to her forcing me onto Connor's awkward ass.
"I just didn't know what to do." I wiped my tears away. Hoping this information would get me out of this in some way.
"So why didn't you just tell him?"
"Oh yeah...tell your brother that my mom wanted me to be with someone else so I'm going to go and do that.." I spoke sarcastically.
"That's not what I mean, Tiana. Why not just tell him what's going on. You're stringing two men around, one who loves the fuck out you and doing who knows what with the both of them. Not only is that foul but it's unsanitary."
"No. No. Wait." I shook my head.
"I would never have sex with anybody else but Dom." I went on to tell her, though that didn't make the situation any better. It was essential information.
"It's not just about the sex and you know that, put yourself in his shoes. Would you be okay with what you've done, if he did it?"
Thinking about it for a moment, I couldn't help but to break down crying again.
"There's feelings involved, one stronger than the other. One going on six years soon." She explained, making me feel even more horrible.
"Man, you just need to talk to him."
"It's not just going to disappear, T." She explained and I nodded, knowing she was right.
"And the longer you wait, the worst is going to be." She explained, standing to her feet.
"You know how Dom is." She expressed, walking away.
I sat there, thinking hard and trying to collect my words as I built up the courage to say anything. Though I knew it was going to be hard, I was telling him today, no more secrets.
*
Dom
10 minutes later
"Yo, Dom." Dej came up the stairs, peeping into my room.
"What's up? Where T?" I asked, clearing my throat as I threw a shirt on.
"She downstairs, waiting on you.." She trailed and I raised an eyebrow, nodding.
"Aight. Coo." I told her as she was about to walk out.
"Matter fact, come back." I called her and she stopped in her tracks, coming back into the room.
"What's up?" She asked as I turned around with the small box in my hand.
"What's that?"
"A ring, nigga." I told her, making her eyes go wide.
"That's for T?" She asked and I closed the door, just in case she could hear.
"Yeah.."
"Whatchu think?"
"What do I think?" She joked, jolting her head back.
"I think that shit look expensive as fuck. Whatchu stole it?" She asked, making me laugh.
"Shit, I should've." I told her, chuckling to myself.
"Na' I grabbed this with straight cash though. You know our anniversary coming up next month."
"I want it to be special.."
"Hm." She said, looking down at the ring again then back up at me.
"It's nice, bro." She nodded slowly, placing her hand on my shoulder.
"But all I'm going to say is take your time. You never know what could happen."
"What that mean?" I furrowed my eyebrows.
"I'm just saying.." She went on, walking off slowly.
"You could know somebody for years and still not really know them at all. You know?"
"Na'. What that mean?" I asked, licking my lips. I felt like she was tryna tell me something but she just ain't want to say it.
"Exactly what I said, man. But it's your move after you get the information." She put her hands up, walking out.
As she did, she had me second guessing myself and I ended up closing the box. I didn't know what she meant by her words but that shit was definitely rubbing me the wrong way.
I just wanted to get to the bottom of this bullshit and for some reason, I figured it all started with T.
"Damn." I stressed.
*
Cried writing this, I'm scared for her y'all. 😣