Freddie and Anita, I love that pic.
25th November 1979
Freddies POV
One of the last shows of the Europe leg. Finally.
I've really enjoyed the time with Lil, but I do feel bad for making her come with me. It does help me that she is here with me though. Phoebe will probably come for the next leg.
Lil and I were currently backstage and the people were already screaming our names The lights slowly went out and I prepared for the fast version of 'We will rock you'.
"Fifth last show,gimmie a kiss." I said as she gave me a peck. The lights went out and I waited for Lil to send me out.
"Go then." She said giving my a smack onto my arse.
I'll revenge later.
The beat started and the crowd was already doing the stomp-stomp-calp rhythm. As soon as my vocals started the lights went on and they were cheering.
Let's go then.
All the songs went smooth and we were really in a good mood tonight. We just launched into the opera part of Bohemian Rhapsody and I just ran of stage with the boys.
Lil threw a towel at me and I cleaned myself up while she gave me a glas of water. She checked my hands and wiped away a bit of the black eyeliner which landed on my cheeks. We were ready to go.
"Don't stumble over Deakys cable." Lil mumbled and I nodded.
"Go off then." She mumbled as I gave her a smack onto her arse. I could see her smirk at me from the corner of my eye but the rock section already started.
It's good to have her.
She is the one person I trust the most.
She's my best friend.
Lillianes POV
"Oh ok come on." I said as I swung one arm around Freddies shoulder and walked to his dressing room with him. He as usual sat down on the couch and took a heavy breath
"Great show." I said as he smirked.
"Thank you darling." He said with a silly high voice.
"Oh no problem." I mumbled.
"My wife is actually being nice." He said.
"Oh and my husband is as usual being a diva." I laughed.
"I can be the way I am on stage at home if you want." He said.
"No Freddo." I smirked. "There will be enough drama in London when this tour is over." I said.
"Talking of London! I ah- found a fabulous house right in Kensington." He said.
"In Kensington?" I asked and he nodded.
"As I said we are gonna deal with it after this, or in another break." I said and he nodded.
"Just lemme say that the house will go on my costs, I'll pay." He said.
"Oh no no no,you know me, I won't let you." I said. "Especially with you, you'd build a rollercoaster if you could." I said.
"Well that's actually a good idea...." He mumbled.
"Shut up!" I said as he laughed. "I'll pay half and it'll go on both our names." I said.
"It would've gone on both names anyways." He said. "But I'll win this one, I won't let you win."
"I'll always win." I said.
"Yeah you are right about that, because you are woman." He grumbled.
"Pffft I'd win either way." I shrugged.
"If you say so." He said.
"Yeah I do." I mumbled.
"Yeah okay." He replied.
"Stop agreeing." I said.
"I will never stop annoying you." He laughed.
"Fool." I grumbled when suddently the brick phone in my pocket made a sound.
James gave it to me.
It must be him.
I picked up while Freddie was changing.
"James?" I asked.
"Yeah hello Lil!" He said kinda stressed.
"Is something with the kids, are you fine?" I asked and at that Freddie looked over to me.
"No the kids are fine, you have to come to Norfolk now, catch the next flight you get." He said as I shrugged.
"Why?" I asked.
"George and Clarie are in hospital." He said.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
"They've been sick the past few days and I wanted them to go to the doctor but they refused and today they were coughing so bad, to the point they couldn't breathe." He said in panic.
"Where are you?" I asked while I was packing my stuff quickly and Freddie out of reaction quickly took his stuff to.
"Hospital, Lil it doesn't look good, hurry. Me and the kids are here." He said.
"Can you pass the phone to Dad?" I asked with a shaky voice.
"Okay the Doctor just left their room. I can give it a try." He said as I heard a door open.
"Dad?" I asked.
"Oh Lil, hello my angel." He said and it felt painfull to hear his weak voice.
"Hi Dad." I said sadly. "How are you?" I asked.
"Great." He said and after that he broke into a cough.
"Dad I am coming to Norfolk." I said.
"Why that?" He asked.
"You know why." I said. "Dad I love you, I need you." I said.
"Lil I love you, forever and forever, you are my most precious. You are my Champion, my joy in life. You were my hope when everything was gone. That boy better takes good care of you. I love you." He said.
Was that a goodbye?!
I could hear little sniff noises from my Dad as the phone was passed on.
Is he crying?
I never saw him cry since my mothers death.
Oh dear God.
"Lilliane?" I heard Claires voice.
"Hey Clarie." I said struggling not to cry and at that point, Freddie was confused.
"Hi Lil, I-I love you,just wanted you to know that. I love you as if you are my own. Your father loves you so much, know that." She said.
This can't be it.
They are saying those words without context but it really sounds like a goodbye.
I can't without them.
It'll be fine.
"I love you too, I- I have to catch a flight, sorry . I'll be right there. Love you." I said with a shaky voice as I hang up. It was so painfull.
"Lil?" Freddie asked carefully.
"Dad and Clarie are in hospital." I said.
"Fuck." Freddie grumbled.
"I am going to Norfolk, I'll catch the next flight, If they ask, tell them I had to go for personal reasons." I said as I walked out of his dressing room with him.
"Should I come with you?" He asked as I shook my head.
"You continue, here. I'll get my stuff from the hotel. Freddie I'm so sorry." I said as we walked torwards the back exit.
"Don't be sorry, I'll come to the hotel with you." He said as I nodded and we took a cab. I tried to tell myself that it would be fine, otherwise I would've broken down in tears.
"Lil, Can I do anything?" He asked.
"No, you know you can't." I mumbled as I leant back in the carseat.
"It'll be all fine. We are here...." He said.
"You don't get it. It won't be fine." I grumbled as he tensed up.
"Lil I know it's hard." He mumbled and our conversation was luckily unnoticed by the driver.
"I don't want to get you into that mess, it's my buisness, that I have to handle now. I'm sorry Freddie." I said.
"You are my buisness and your buisness is my buisness too." Freddie said.
"We are here." The driver said as I quickly payed and we got out. We hurried through the paparazzi into the hotel.
We'll need to go through a backdoor, I don't have nerves for the press asking why I am leaving.
We hurried to our room and Freddie helped me to pack my stuff. It was silence and I tried to keep my emotions to me. When I had all my stuff I ran to the door but I felt Freddie holding me back. He immediatly pulled me into a tight hug and I hugged back.
"It'll be fine." He said. "When the leg is over I'll come over as fast as possible." He said and I nodded as I pulled back.
"Love you." I said.
"Love you too." He replied and our paths splitted. On my way out I bumped into the other Queen boys.
"Lil are you alright?" Rog asked as I nodded.
"Yeah, I have to leave a bit sooner, I'll tell you guys later,I'm late. Goodbye." I said as I walked into the lift.
Shit shit shit.
I quickly hurried to a back exit amd caught the next cab I got and drove to the Airport.
This is shit.
After an hour ride I payed the guy and rushed into the airport. I quickly rushed to the last minute plane tickets.
"A flight to Norfolk please." I said.
"Oh Lilliane Jones-" The employee started but quickly looked up when she saw that I was in a hurry. "Yeah,you are lucky that Norfolk flights aren't that packed. Your flight will go off in 5 hours, the last one went off an hour ago." She said.
5 hours?!
"Alright, if that's the fastest way, I'll take it." I said putting some money onto the counter. She quickly pulled out the ticket and took the money.
"Keep the Change." In said as I walked off to the waiting area.
"But those are 500 to many." She said after me but I was gone.
Damn.
Damn Damn Damn.
I waited there for the next hours completly hyperactive. People to my luck didn't really notice me with my sunglasses and my coat.
This can't be true.
"Flight to Norwich, the gates open now." A voice said as I rushed off through the security checks. I soon sat in the plane and waited for at least 2 hours for the damn plane to start. Soon we took off and the flight would be 2 hours and the cab from Norwich to Kings Lynn hospital would be at least an hour.
It'll be fine.
We landed and I was the first person to leave that plane. I quickly went through the security gates and jumped into the next cab.
"Where to go?" The guy asked.
"Kings Lynn Hospital." I said as he nodded and started to drive. The whole ride I couldn't hold still and was nervous, more worried.
After an hour I arrived at the hospital and threw money at the guy and ran away. I stormed into the hospital and saw James in the Lobby. He looked up at me and that was when I saw my Godfather Neil. I quickly rushed over to them.
"Where are they?" I asked as they both looked at me and slowly shook their heads.
"Lil, you are too late." Neil said.
"No, no. For sure you guys are joking." I said as I tried to go past them but James came into my way.
"Why would I joke now?" He asked.
"James, it can't be." I said. "Where is he?" But James shook his head.
"It'll be more painfull." He said but I wasn't to stop.
"Excuse me do you know where George and Clarie Jones are?" I asked as the Doctor nodded.
"Who are you?" He asked.
"Daughter." I said and he walked off with me. We walked down the hall a was and he opened the door to the last room. I went inside and he closed the door.
I saw Clarie and Dad laying in a bed beside each other very skinny and weak. The sight of the two shut me completly up.
"Dad?" I asked, but there was no answer.
Am I too late?
No.
"Clarie?" I asked but again I recived no answer. I walked over to my Dad and touched his hand. It was cold. "Dad, I need you." I whined. "Don't leave me here." I said as tears rolled dowm my cheek.
"Dad! wake up." I said as I lightly shook his body. "Please! Clarie!!" I whined and that was Neil walked in.
"Lil come with me, come on." He said but I shook my head.
"They can't be gone, not now Neil." I said as I put my head onto my Dads chest, but I couldn't hear a heartbeat. I stormed over to Clarie but it was the same. "Don't go! I whined. Don't!!!" I cried as Neil swung a arm around me and forcefully walked me out.
"I don't wanna leave!" I cried.
"Lil, it's for the best if you go home." Neil said with a shaky voice as he carried me into the hospitals hallway. To my luck the hospital was almost empty so nobody would see me like this.
"Neil, I'll take her. You have it hard too, better go home." James said as Neil nodded. We walked outside and James sat me into the car and put the luggage in. I turned around to see my three peas sleeping in their seats.
They don't know what's going on.
They can be glad.
I turned to the front again and burried my face in my palms. James sighed and sat in beside me.
"Come here." He said as he wanted to hug me but I shrugged away.
"No!" I said as he let be me amd we drove home. James brought the children inside for me and at last I went inside.
"Do you want water?" He asked but I shook my head and stormed up to the room where Freddie and I used to sleep in a few months ago.
This can't be real.
This can't be it.
Is the real life?
Is this just Fantasy?