My fingers drag up his back up to his hair pulling on the roots, a moan escapes his mouth into mine. My body is on top of his rocking on his hips.
"Harry?" I ask.
"Mm... yeah." He says as I pull back from a kiss. His eyes daze onto mine, in a slow persist way.
"I want to." I say and he looks confused so I clarify. "I want to do it." I said and his face expression goes from confused to surprised.
"Really? Are you sure, I thought you were waiting till you got married?" He asks but I can see that he is happy I want to.
"Harry, I've never been so sure. I love you." I say and kiss his neck. It's true thought i don't want to wait until my marriage night. I want to do this with Harry, I love him way to much to not, it will be a new experience, for me individually and for me and Harry as one.
"Are you sure?" He asks again. "This is a big thing, are you positive your ready?" He asks again as I start getting frustrated.
"Yes Harry, I want to do this." I say and he smiles before kissing me again. Im nervous for this, Ive never had sex before let alone really thinking about doing it. I always thought it would be with Dylan on our wedding night. Not in my dorm with Harry. I'm sure about doing this with Harry, I love him. If I regret this later, I'll just think back to how happy I am with him. I want to lose my virginity to Harry, I want to lose it to Harry, I love him more than anything.
He lays me down and keeps kissing my lips. "Do you have... a condom?" I ask him feeling anxious but nervous for how its going to feel.
"Yeah, cant forget that." He says lightening the mood noticing Im a little nervous.
He grabs his jeans on the floor and takes out a little packet. I watch as he opens it slowly. He slides it on him, looking at me the whole time. I never seen a condom before, except at school in sex ed. I would have never thought in a million years I would be doing this right now. I didn't even think about it until now, and Im sure I made the right decision. I never thought I wouldn't be so happy with someone, I thought I was happy with Dylan. I was way off, I liked him. But he was no Harry, Harry lights me up. He's the match that lite me, and I burn. I burn like gasoline, fast and bright. I've never had someone in my life that has made such an impact on me as he does. No one has ever made my mind race as much as him, my stomach get butterfly's, my stomach twist and feel like a knife just got stapled in my gut. My heart beat out of my chest, my heart get ripped out of me in the most painfulest way then get pieced back together. No one has ever made me want to sit in a quiet room with them, nor yell at them either like the way he does. He angers me in ways no one else has. He doesn't even have to do much either. No one has ever made me think about someone, have them take up all my thoughts so much. No one has ever done so much for me. No one like him has cared for me in the way he does. He understands me, in ways no one else can.
"I love you, I have need been in love with someone so dearly as I do you." He says and kisses my nose and I smile.
Here let's get this off you." He says referring to my shorts I have on I do what he said and pull them down my legs along with my panties. I lift my shirt over my head and here Harry curse under his breath. I un-hook my hot pink bra that has lace on the sides. "I couldn't decide if I wanted that on or off, off is better off though." He smiles a gorgeous smile before pulling my legs toward him. My back is is laying fat on my bed with my legs separated for Harry.
I feel the cold silky condom brush up against me. "I'm going to take this slow. It's going to hurt baby, if it hurts to bad tell me to stop. I'm being serious too." He says not breaking eyes contact.
"Okay." I say and give him a nod letting him go. I feel him push into me, the pain is there. Its not a pain I really like either. I heard losing your virginity hurts but I never expected it to be like this. He pumps out of me and asks if I'm okay. I nod saying yes and he pumps back in slowly, my eyes screw shut from the pain. He leans forward as he pumps in and out of me, he kisses my lips making me not focus on the pain so much, his lips go to my neck sucking on my soft skin. His lips make there way to my boobs as he sucks on my delicate skin.
"Are you okay still, do you need me to stop?" He asks again.
"I'm good." Is all I say.
My hands are on Harry's arm squeezing from the pain, tears have formed on the rim of my eye. he keeps pumping in and out and the pain dissolves a little. Not much, it still is very painful. He stays at a constant pace of going slow. I bite my bottom lip, the tension in my stomach keeps building. Harry's eyes roll to the back of his head. "Oh god I'm so close." He curses. He picks up the pace a little bit, he bends over and kisses me again. "I love you, I love you so fucking much." He says before pulling himself out, cum fills the condom and he kisses my breast.
"How was it, are you okay?" He comes back to his concerned self at the moment.
"Yeah I'm good." I say nodding.
"How was it?" He asks kneeling on the bed. He slide the used condom off him and places it back into the wrapper.
"It was good, different from what I expected. Painful but good." I say as he grabs my hand, his eyes skim down my body, making sure i'm alright. I've never seen Harry like this, seeing concern on his face. Almost like making sure i'm not broken or something. Like he doesn't know what to do.
"I hope it wasn't to painful, I went slow so it wouldn't be so bad. I didn't really know Iv'e never been whit a virgin." He says and I'm surprised, I never thought about if Harry has ever been with a virgin but I always guessed he has.
"I'm your first virgin, I'm surprised." I say honestly.
"Don't be and I'm happy that you went slow. We can pick up the pace next time." I say and he laughs, he leans down to me and kisses me softly.
" I should probably throw these sheets out there all bloody." I say to him looking at the dirty sheets.
"I'll go run out and throw it in the dumpster if you want. I don't think you want them in your dorm trash can." He says.
"Would you really that would be so nice." I say with a smile.
"I'll grab you a trash bag too so you don't look like a murderer walking out with bloody sheets." I comment and he smiles.
"Good we wouldn't want that." He says standing up, he walks over to his clothes on the floor. He lifts his shirt over his head, he pulls his briefs and skinny jeans on before asking me. "Is their a trash bag in your closet?"
"Yeah, their on the shelf." I answer him as he disappears in the closet. He walks out with a black trash bag. "Here I'll get up I'm just kinda scared to move." I say honestly.
"Here." He offers his hand and I grab it in mine. I stand up slowly, my body's sore and in pain from Harry.
I walk slowly to the mirror still naked. I see my face, my lips are swollen and my eyes are bloodshot. Their are red marks all over my neck and down my chest from Harry. The image of Harry hovering over me a making love to me flashes back into my mind, my stomach clenches from the experience.
"Look at my lips, there huge." I say to Harry not leaving my eyes on myself.
He walks over to me looking at my puffy lips with a smile. "They look gorgeous, you look gorgeous. Different too you look more fresh, glowing really." He says complimenting me. He looks different too, no one else would be able to notice it but I do. He pushes his hair out of his face and smiles. "What?" I ask as he laughs a little.
"Nothing, I.. was just thinking about how much I love you. I have never seen you like that, Iv'e always wondered what it would look like pumping in and out of you like that. It was way better, unimaginable than I ever thought it would be." He says and my stomach flutters
I don't have anything to say, but I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss his lips. "I better throw these away." He says and ties the bag tight after throwing the condom in. "I'm going to go shower so you know were i'll be when you come back." I tell him walking into my closet.
"Wait for me, I can use a shower." He smirks before heading out the door. I shake my head laughing and tie my robe. I grab my toiletries and two towels for the two of us.
Harry walks in minutes later, he undresses and wraps the white towel around his waist showing all his priciest ink designs on his torso. We walk out of my dorm, some girls walk past us giggling. Staring at Harry, obviously finding him attractive especially with only a towel wrapped around his waist. I look down not wanting to watch them look at Harry. Harry's fingers intertwine with mine and those girls shut up. I smile at Harry and he gives me a wink.
No one is here in the showers, which doesn't surprise me for a Friday night everyone is out at a party or with there friends. I open the shower curtain and Harry comes in too before I invite him in. Even though I wanted to take a shower by myself I like it a little better with Harry.
. . .
"Harry come on we have been in here for way to long, the water is turning cold." I laugh to him, we have been in this shower way to long, people probably think were the weirdest couple but I don't care what they think.
"Okay, Okay." He groans with a sarcastic voice. I pull my towel off the hook outside as Harry does the same.
We finally get out of the showers and walk back into my dorm. I change into some shorts and a tank top. I lay on my bed and let out a big puff of air.
"What?" Harry asks confused as he stands there with just boxers on.
"I have no sheets." I say stating the obvious. Thankfully my bed wasn't made so it wasn't my converter.
"We will have to buy a new one tomorrow." He says, it's uncomfortable without them but it will have to do for tonight. Harry walks over with my laptop, and lays down in bed with me.
"Movie?" I ask.
"Yeah." He says and I log on making sure he doesn't watch me put my password in.
We end up watching a comedy, which I fall asleep in toward the end. I was just so tired and had such a long day.
. . .
I wake up from a pounding on the door. Who could be here this early. I check my phone and see numerous calls from both my parents. My parents! My parents are here, I totally forgot. They can't meet Harry, at least not like this.
"Harry, wake up." I say shaking him gently.
"Yeah babe?" He asks with a thick raspy voice.
"My parents are here, like now. You need to hide in my closet." I say trying to keep my voice down so they don't hear me.
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