Sean's POV
"hey guys! how are all of you?" julian asked setting up his phone to lean on the tv. i helped julian set up the live so that the comments would show on the tv in josh's living room. we decided to go live after we changed into more comfy clothes since we didn't really get to interact with our supporters much earlier because of the whole commotion. while julian, ken, and i sat on the couch to talk on live, josh b and josh p were dancing and messing around to the mellow music that ran through his bluetooth speaker in the open space of the living room.
"i'm good, thank you." julian responded with a smile. i intensely read the comments to catch any questions asked. i smiled as our supporters flooded the comment section with hearts and compliments. "are any of you doing a collab soon?" ken read. "actually, both sean and julian are doing a collab with me. we don't really know when we'll be teaching it or putting it out in general, but it is coming." ken said with a knowing grin, looking at us.
i continued to scan the comments and was about to read a question when i noticed a certain person joined the live, but i decided to ignore the person. "who's your dream collab from your generation of dance?" i read. i looked to ken then julian, not really knowing.
"ooh, i know!" julian beamed. "kida. our styles are a little different from each other's so i think it'd be really interesting to see what we'd come up with. plus, his technique is through the roof."
"oh! ian eastwood, he's in our generation, right?" i questioned with furrowed eyebrows. they both shrugged and i sighed then chuckled at the help they didn't provide. my eyes didn't fail to notice the questions about kaycee and i.
lewser.united
did anyone notice how kaycee was giving off girlfriend vibes towards sean or was it just me?
seaycee_stars
^^thought i was the only one!
lewsers.love.rice
guys they're just best friends
kayceericeofficial
❤❤
kylehanagami
miss you guys!😊
baileysokfan
that doesn't mean they can't like each other on the low
kayceericeofficial
seanie call me please!🤗
for some reason, i didn't want to reach for my phone. i think i wanted her to be fully ready to talk. my gut told me she wasn't. what she was doing right now just seemed like she felt guilty and that it was the right thing to do, but i needed an explanation for why she said what she said rather than pity.
"oh hey, kaycee!" ken greeted as he scanned the comments. i fought the urge to glare at him as he now brought to everyone's attention that kaycee is in the livestream. as i read her continuous comments for me to contact her, i felt my phone just burning in my pocket. it hurt me to even think of her pleading eyes looking at the screen watching me.
right when i rose from my seat on the couch, ken's phone started ringing. he immediately smiled at the screen. "hi, baby." he greeted. "yeah sure. sean," he called out as i walked into the kitchen. i turned to see what he wanted. "kaycee wants you." he mouthed, covering the side of his mouth so the viewers wouldn't know. i just shook my head, telling him not now. right now i needed to be alone with my thoughts.
however, it was hard to do that when my girlfriend was blowing up my phone. once again, my ringtone went off, filling the kitchen. i pulled it out to see once again it was kaycee.
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FaceTime call
i decided to just turn it on silent so that i wasn't fully aware that she didn't give up trying to talk to me. i sat at the table and closed my eyes so i could clear my head in peace. but that peace didn't last long as josh p walked in.
"hey, you seemed a little tense. everything okay?" he asked while taking a seat next to me. i bit my lip anxiously as i thought about the past two hours of my day. it was filled with hurt, frustration, and restrained communication. i just wanted it all to end!
"yeah." i lied. "i'm great." josh gave me a skeptical look. "sean, i know you. and it may be not as well but i know kaycee. something's going on between you two and whatever it is, it's fucking you up." he stated, his tone almost authoritative.
"then let it." i mumbled. josh sighed at my stubbornness. "i'm sorry. i'm just frustrated, okay?" i tried to reassure.
"thank you, captain obvious. i didn't know." josh remarked causing me to chuckle. "look, if you don't want to talk about it, just fix it, alright? your supporters are picking up on it. fast. they're blowing up the comment section as we speak."
"i'm going to." i said with a defeated sigh. "when?" he pushed, trying to get it out of me.
"i don't know. i'm not a fortune teller!" i exclaimed holding my hands out. i don't get why everyone is on my back about my relationship. it didn't make sense.
my relationship, my business.
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Kaycee's POV
it was the morning after sean and i's fight. well, fights because there were multiple. when i was getting ready for bed last night is when i saw julian went live, so i joined it. right away, i noticed that sean wasn't as smiley or cheerful.
around our friends, sean was a ball of energy and was his normal goofy self. but on the live last night, he only chuckled and he seemed to be somewhere else. it didn't take a genius to know it was because of our fight.
did i feel guilty? very. it's practically eating away at me. when nat dropped me off, i thanked her and she said she was just following orders from sean. even though we fought, he still put me first in so many ways. and i understood why he ignored all of my calls and texts. i practically told him to disappear, which i regretted as soon as it left my mouth. but stubborn me has to always let things settle, only to make it worse.
see what i meant when i said i didn't want to mess us up? now look at me. i'm waking up extra early to get a head start because i'm guilty of hurting my boyfriend's feelings.
last night before i went to bed, i called josh b to tell him my plans for tomorrow. i wanted to get up extra early and make sean his favorite breakfast foods, additional to my muffins that he loves. then, i was going to take him on our first date, but that's only if he forgives me.
i showered briskly, making sure to use the soap that sean loved. afterwards, i brushed my teeth and washed my face. not wanting to come off as too desperate, i avoided wearing his hoodie and threw on a yellow crop top and high waisted jeans along with some white adidas. on my way out i sprayed some perfume on as well as grabbed my brown hoodie because i knew josh's house was cold.
"good morning. you're up early." my mom said in surprise. i smiled then kissed her on the cheek affectionately. "yeah, i'm surprising sean." i said putting my hands on the island.
my mom laughed. "as if you're not already attached at the hip?" she teased, clearly amused. i couldn't fight the small blush arising on my cheeks. "he seemed a little tense after rehearsal yesterday so i wanted to surprise him with something that makes him happy." i lied.
the smile on my mom's face only widened. "aw, young love. reminds me of your father and i. but have fun! i hope he smiles his heart out." she said while pinching my cheek playfully. i gave her a playful glare.
"i also plan to take him out on a date. is that okay with you? i'd be home by 8." i asked, trying to hide my excitement. my mom gasped loudly then squealed. "really? can i help?" she asked excitedly causing me to laugh.
"mom, i'm not doing something big. he doesn't like extravagant things." i said with a soft smile. she gave me a doubtful look. "did you forget that this is the guy that planned a whole day for your birthday and made you what resembled to a wedding cake by himself?"
i opened and closed my mouth as she was right. "i'm behind. i gotta go. i'll be at josh's. love you!" i said while grabbing my keys and going out the door. "love you too! good luck!" she shouted after me.
i locked my front door behind me then started the short walk to josh's house in the sunrise. i crossed the street cautiously and walked up to josh's door. i dialed his number and after a couple rings, he picked up. "hello?" he answered tiredly.
"i'm outside. come let me in. hurry, i'm already behind." i notified him. he mumbled an okay then hung up. almost immediately, the door opened. "you know, when you said you were coming over early, i didn't think you meant the crack of dawn." he said grumpily.
"good morning to you too." i replied, welcoming myself in. i immediately went to the kitchen and started grabbing the ingredients i told josh to buy. "what are you doing?" he asked sitting down in front of me at the island.
"cooking breakfast. are you helping?" i asked as i got bowls and cooking utensils. "kayc, you can't cook." he said as if he was stating the obvious.
"but i can bake and i can make an omelet. that's enough for my goal today." i said determined. "but this could be faster if there were four hands.." i trailed off while putting flour into a bowl.
josh groaned then gave in causing me to cheer. "i'll make the omelets." he declared. "what are we putting in them?"
"everything over there that i pulled out. sean likes egg whites!" i exclaimed strictly. josh hummed in response then got to work on the food. for the next hour, all that was heard in the kitchen was the clatter of utensils hitting bowls or pans.
we heard someone enter the kitchen. startled, i looked up to see ken. a sigh of relief left my mouth as it wasn't sean. "oh hey, kayc. why are you here so early?" he yawned.
"don't have time to talk. i have to make sure everything is perfect." i said frantically as i glanced at the clock hanging on josh’s wall. i grabbed the oven mitt before taking both the muffins and breakfast hand pies out of the oven. i helped my mom make them a couple weeks ago for fun and i thought why not have sean try them now.
"well if it helps, sean was staying up playing piano so he shouldn't be up anytime soon. and the food smells amazing." ken said, trying to calm me, but it only heightened my nerves. he was playing piano.
sean only plays piano when he's frustrated or upset with himself. serris said so. what if-
"kaycee!" josh said waving his hand in front of my face. i was quickly pulled from my thoughts and turned my head to josh. "yeah?" i asked quickly.
"we're done. stop panicking." he said, placing his hand on my shoulder comfortingly. "how about you just plate everything while ken and i go get everyone?" i nodded quickly and started stacking the now warm muffins on a plate, the pastries on another.
after a couple minutes, everyone came downstairs with tired faces, except from sean who was nowhere in the room. "where's sean?" i asked them anxiously.
"i don't know. i woke him up fir-" ken said, pointing behind him. he was cut off as everyone turned to the door as it opened. a tired looking sean walked through the door only to lock eyes with my own.
the clatter of dishes and chatter died as he entered, the tension between us sensed instantly. i examined sean further when i noticed that he had slight bags underneath his eyes. the thick strands of his bangs, partially covered his eyes. i felt myself start to shake in my shoes. deciding to break the silence, i spoke up.
"hi." i said softly, my fear setting in. i was met with his silence. determined, i just proceeded to talk. "um, i knew you'd be extremely exhausted after yesterday so i made your favorite, an egg white omelet with loads of mushroom and i think spinach. josh helped. he didn't want me to burn your breakfast. and- and some pastries that my mom and i made once.." i met his eyes again and i couldn't read them for the life of me.
"oh! the muffins! can't forget the muffins. i made you these because i remember you loving them when i woke you up the day after we kissed for the first time. i thought this would be a start, you know? because of yesterday. i was being dumb and so rude to you because you're really sweet for always being here for me. i shouldn't have yelled at you," i rambled on while putting the plate in his hand. "but i know this doesn't make up for it. i'm going to make it up to you because i'm really sorry, sean."
i watched nervously as sean placed the plate down on the table. he bit his lip as he slowly stalked closer to me. my hands instinctively wrung together at the nerves that were building up inside. i've never experienced this look before. not just from sean, but from anybody. once he stood in front of me, toe to toe, a nervous sigh left my lips.
"can you guys give us a sec?" sean asked.