*Dan POV*
“Why the fuck did you have to bring up prom night Dan?” Evie shouted at me, tears streaming down her cheeks
“She brought it up. I didn’t want her to know as much as you did.”
“Why didn’t you just change the subject? To I don’t know…anything else?” Luke replied
“Don’t start Luke, I never meant for it to come out okay. I just need to go find her.” I reply walking out the kitchen.
“She is never going to forgive me for this.” Evie cried into Luke
“Why didn’t you’s just tell her years ago when it happened?” Luke asked and I turned to face them both
“It just happened that one night. I was upset about Liv and James and Evie comforted me. You know the rest Luke.”
“Yes I know. You told me but why didn’t you just tell her? Why tell her it was Shanice?”
“How was I meant to tell my sister I slept with her best friend? Our best friend?” Evie mumbled, now sitting on the sofa.
“Or how was I meant to tell her, that I had feeling for her, but ended up having my first time with her twin sister?”
“Who does she think you slept with that night Evie?”
“Ryan. Well he was my boyfriend and was my first weren’t he so she never thought anything of it.”
“This is so fucked up.” Luke sighed pulling Evie into him.
“We’d just sorted us out as well.” I sighed
“Just go find her please Dan, its getting dark.” Evie cried
“If she’ll come back with me.”
“Just talk to her please, I can’t have her mad at me. I just can’t.”
“I’ll try and do my best.”
“You have any idea where she is?” Luke asked and I shook my head.
“I have a few places in mind but I duno.” I reply slipping my hoody over my head
“I’ll try ringing her.” Luke says picking up his phone but I could hear her phone ringing upstairs.
“She’s left it here.” I reply opening the front door. “I’m not coming back till I find her.”
I grab my keys off the side and jump in my car. The first place I head for is the park, I know she’s been coming here when she’s upset. I park up and jump out, locking it as I run into the park. As I get nearer the tree I see someone.
“Liv?” I shout but get no reply.
I get closer to them “Liv?” I say touching her shoulder when they turn around but it wasn’t her
“Oh sorry, thought you were someone else.”
“No problem.” She smiled then walked off
I looked around the park wondering where she could be.
I got back into my car and drove around, thinking of random places she could have gone to. Eventually I pulled up by the park again but at a difference entrance. This was where I brought her on our date night. I got out the car, noticing someone stood at the top of the hill, in the ‘magic hut.’
I didnt call out her name incase it wasn’t her or I’d scare her. So I slowly walked up to them, the closer I got the bigger the butterflies got in my stomach.
It was her.
She was stood there in her trackie bottoms and a vest top, she must be bloody freezing its Autumn now.
I took my hoody off and stood behind her. I slipped it over her head and she put her arms through the sleeves. She didn’t even turn around to look at who I was, but I guess she must know it was me.
*Liv's POV*
I ran out the house and down the road as fast as I could. My heart was falling to pieces around me. I avoided going to 'our tree' it held so many special memories but I also knew that they'd look here for me first. Especially Dan. I got to the park and walked straight through and up to the view point. I couldn't speak to them, look at them. How could they do that to me? My best friend and my sister. My boyfriend and my twin. I rummaged through my pockets for my phone but it wasn't there. Shit, I'd left it at home. I needed to ring one of the girls, see if I could stay with them for a couple of days. I didn't want to see them or speak to them. I needed time to think.
But the more I thought about it the less angry I got. It wasn't the fact that they'd slept together that was bothering me as much as thought it would. It was the fact that they lied about it all this time. I hated the thought of Dan and Evie, kissing...touching...being intimate like me and Dan are. I mean it’s my boyfriend and my twin sister. The thought did rip me apart but I wasn't with Dan when they slept together. I never fancied Dan when they slept together. And I certainly didn't think we would have been together in the future when they slept together.
We were sixteen, not twenty one. I was acting like Dan and Evie had slept together recently when they hadn't, it was five years ago. I could hear someone shouting in the distance. I turned around and saw him. I knew Dan’s voice a mile off. I watched him run across the park and over to our tree calling out my name before stopping a girl. I watched as he walked back out the park and to his car.
I turned back around and looked out at the view. I'd ran out in such a rush I'd not grabbed a jacket as well as my phone. I rubbed my hands over my arms to try cause some friction, make me warm up.
It must have been about half an hour later I heard the sound of a familiar engine pull up at the bottom of the hill, then I smelt Dan behind me, that boy always smelt amazing. His hoody went over my head and I slipped my arms in.
*Dan POV*
“How could you?” she whispered
“I’m so sorry.”
“I didn’t ask if you were sorry Dan, I asked how could you sleep with my twin sister?” she snapped turning to look at me
“It just happened.”
“Bollocks, so what...you were just talking, your clothes fell off and you ended up on top of her.”
“No. We were drunk and...”
“Just fuck off Dan I don’t want to hear it.”
“No you have to listen to me.” I say grabbing onto her arms
“I don’t have to do anything now get off me.”
I let go of her arms and looked at her, there was a coldness to her eyes and her sparkle that I loved so much…had disappeared.
“I need you to listen to me Tink.” I whispered, my emotions taking over me as tears spilled down my cheeks
“Why? Why should I? You all lied to me. You all knew. For five years you all kept it from me.”
“How was I meant to tell you? Just casually drop it into conversation? Oh Liv by the way I really like you, more than just my best friend but on prom night I drunkenly slept with your sister.”
“YES.” She shouted at me, her voice cracking as her emotions got the better of her and tears left her beautiful green eyes
“I couldn’t hurt you like that.”
“Well you have. You know I would find out eventually. Luke knew, why not me?”
“Luke was my best friend; I had to confide my guilt in someone. Someone i could trust.”
“I was your best friend, I am your best friend or at least I thought I was.”
“Liv...” I sighed taking her hands in mine
“I am so sorry I never told you about what happened. But you have to believe me that it never meant anything to me it is mine and Evie’s biggest regret.”
“She was my sister Dan, why her? Why not any of the other girls at prom?”
I sighed and squeezed her hand tightly. “I was so gutted when I saw you with James. Prom was meant to be the night that I showed you how much you meant to me, for me to tell you how I felt but Shanice got in the way then James did. I found a bottle of vodka and well I sat in the corner of the party. I watched you dance with him, laugh, enjoying yourself.”
“So what’s that got to do with Evie?”
“She found me feeling sorry for myself and I poured my heart out to her about you. Then she saw Ryan cheating on her with Emma so we shared the Vodka. You know what happened next.”
“I can’t get my head around it.” She sighed pulling away from me “I need time to think.”
“About what? Us?”
“Everything.”
***
She began walking down the hill as I followed quickly behind her.
“Where are you going?” I ask as we reach my car
“I don’t know. One of the girls’ houses.” She shrugs
“Just come home...please. We can sort this out.”
“I can’t...you don’t realise how much you all have hurt me. Lied to me.”
“I’m sorry for what happened. I can’t say it any clearer than that. Just please come back with me.”
“I can’t. Dan it’s not the fact that you’ve slept with my sister anymore..although that is bad enough. It happened five years ago, before we were together. Before anything had happened...well apart from our kiss, so I can’t stay upset about that forever. It wasn’t like I was meant to be your first...”
“But you were.” I say interrupting her
“What?”
“I wanted it to be you. To be fair I had plenty of opportunities to lose my virginity, with all the attention I got from the school sluts. Call me corny but I wanted it to mean something. I wanted it to be with a girl I cared for; who I knew cared about me.”
“Well you got that.” She says sarcastically
“No I never. Yea Evie cared for me and I did for her...but we were friends. I was never attracted to her that way.”
“Dan we’re identical twins. How could you like me and not her?”
“You and I both know how different you’s are, even when you’re the same.”
“Yea I guess. You and Luke have only ever been the ones to tell us apart. Even without looking at us.” she smiled slightly
“Exactly. But yea Liv, I did want you as my first. I understand that you may not have seen me in that way...nothing more than a friend. But I was going to tell you how I felt.”
“Well you should have. You should have pulled me away from James or took me to one side and told me.”
“I know but...”
“But you were too busy shagging my sister.”
“Stop it. It just happened okay. It wasn’t meant to.”
“What was it then...can’t have Liv so go for her twin?”
“You honestly think that little of me?”
“Yes…No, no of course not...I don’t even think that’s what making me so mad.”
“What?”
She sighed before pealing her eyes away from the floor. “Can we get in your car, I’m cold?”
“Sure.”
I unlocked my car and we got inside. I started up the engine and turned up the heating. Within a couple of minutes it was like a sauna.
“You were saying?” I ask trying to sort this situation out.
“I don’t think it’s the fact that you slept with Evie that’s making me so angry. Yes it’s a huge shock and I hate to think of you’s together...being intimate like we are...”
“Then don’t.” I say interrupting her “Don’t think about it. I certainly don’t and I know neither does Evie.”
“Why do you’s talk about it?”
“No.”
“Anyway...I knew you slept with someone that night and I knew you regretted it. You told me that much. It’s the fact you lied to me, you all lied to me for five years. That’s what hurts. My three best friends in the world could keep something this big from me. What else have you lied to me about?”
“Nothing. You know everything about me. Every small detail.”
“But do I Dan? I thought I knew you...I thought I knew my sister. Turns out I was wrong.”
“Yes you do. You know everything about me. My loves, my hates. My fears, my hopes, my dreams. My secrets”
“Didn’t know about this little secret though did I?”
“I didn’t want to hurt you. Neither did Evie. When we woke up the next morning...”
“Spare me the details will you.”
I sighed before continuing “Once we woke up and realised what had happened...what we’d done. We agreed to keep it between us. Not to tell anyone.”
“Then why did you tell Luke?”
“Because I was feeling so guilty. You werent happy about what happened with James so I was looking after you; all I wanted to do was pull you close and call you mine. I had to tell someone, it was either him or you.”
“I wish you had told me.”
“Me too Tink.” I whispered looking into her gorgeous eyes
“There’s another thing that’s bugging me.”
“What?”
“Why did you get Shanice to lie to me...about what happened?”
“Well she saw me leaving the room and then meet up with you. But what I didn’t know is that she also saw Evie leave a while later as well.”
“So?”
“She threatened to tell you.”
“So what you do to shut her up and make her say it was her?”
“I agreed to go on a date with her. I asked her to please keep it quiet as neither me nor Evie wanted to hurt you. So she agreed to let me tell you it was her. She knew you wouldn’t question it as she’s slept with I duno how many lads before.”
“Oh.”
It was silent for a few minutes. Neither one of us speaking.
“Are you okay?” I whisper and she shook her head
“Not really. Today’s been so emotional.”
Thinking back a lot had happened today.
“Yea I know, a lot has happened....So where do we go from here?”
“I’m not coming home, I can’t...not yet.”
“Okay.” I sigh looking at her “Where am I taking you?”
“Well I need to go back...get my stuff. Then text one of the girls...see if I can crash with them for a few days.”
“Just come home...please?”
“I’m getting my stuff then I’m going. Don’t push it Dan. I need time to get my head straight.”
“So what about us?”
“What about us?” she asks
“What are we?”
She sighed and shrugged her shoulders. “I guess we’re mid-way right about now.”
“I love you. Never forget that.”
“I love you too Dan...but sometimes love isn’t always enough.”