A/N: Listened to Hamilton while I wrote this, so there's a reference.
Imagine: Last Christmas
The One Where Bakugo Broke Your Heart But Shinsou Is There To Pick You Up.
•••
Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears. I'll give it to someone special. Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears. I'll give it to someone special.
•••
December, 25th, 2019.
You smiled as you sat in the little cozy cafe where you were supposed to meet your boyfriend, Katsuki Bakugo.
You looked up from your spot to see one of your beat friends, Hitoshi Shinsou. He picked up your mug to take it back for another refill. He worked part-time at the cafe, sometimes he would give you free pastries.
"Looks like little BakuHoe is late."
You scowl at Hitoshi to which he scowls back at you. This was your third refill since you came in, Bakugo was in fact late. Hitoshi was never very supportive of your relationship. He felt you could do better than Katsuki, and that Katsuki could treat you better. He took every opportunity he had to put Katsuki down.
"Leave him alone Hitoshi. He makes me happy, shouldn't that be enough?"
Hitoshi's face softens as he sits down next to you. He grabs your hands from across the table.
"I want you to be happy, I just don't trust Katsuki... You're important to me, okay?"
The door dings signifying someone just walked in. Hitoshi pushes his hands away and glares at Katsuki as he walks past him and towards the kitchen to refill your mug.
"Hey."
"Hey, you're late but since it's Christmas it's okay. I know you had your reasons, besides refills are free."
"We should talk."
You blushed as thought about why he would wanna talk. Yesterday you spent the night together. Your first intimate night together. You woke up and he was gone, but you figured he had things to do, it is Christmas after all. Christmas is the busiest day of the year.
"Okay, we probably should."
"I wanna break up."
"What? Why would you..."
"We're graduating next spring. I have to think about my career, I can't be serious and move up the ranks with you distracting me. We're adults now and you're holding me back."
You ball your hands up into fists to stop them from shaking.
"I'm just a distraction that holds you back? Did last night mean anything to you? Anything at all?"
Katsuki hesitates before answering you. The hesitation gave you hope for a good answer only for your hopes to be shot down.
"Last night was a mistake. We never should have gotten intimate. We're still in fucking high school."
"You wanna break up because we're adults, but it was a mistake because we're still kids? You're contradicting yourself. God Katsuki, you're not making any sense."
The tears stream down your face as Katsuki walks away. Away from you and away from your relationship. You grab his wrist stopping him before he does.
"Just tell me how to fix this Katsuki. Whatever I did... I'll fix it. I'll change it. I love you."
Katsuki bites his lip as you walk closer to him. Your hands begin to fiddle with his scarf. When you're stressed or upset you liked to fix things. You wished you didn't.
As you fixed his scarf you noticed his skin was discolored. You move the scarf away to see a hickey. You were fairly certain you hadn't given him any hickies last night.
"This why you were late isn't it?"
"Fuck, [Y/N]..."
"Last night wasn't a mistake... It was just a mistake to do it with me. I'm the mistake."
Tears fell down harder. You wiped your nose and eyes dry with the back of your hand. It didn't help as they were just replaced by more years.
"[Y/N], you weren't the fucking mistake."
You kept taking steps away from him as he walked closer to you. Why was he doing this? He cheated and broke up with you, he can't comfort you. He can't be there for you. He's not yours, he's hers.
Hitoshi steps in and pushes Katsuki away from you.
"Don't you think you've done enough. Leave before I call the cops. You're no longer welcomed in this cafe."
Katsuki leaves the cafe but not before he looks back at you. With regret in his eyes, he watches as Hitoshi comforts you while you cry. You gave him your heart, but he broke it. He broke the best Christmas gift that he ever received.
•••
Once bitten and twice shy. I keep my distance. But you still catch my eye. Tell me, baby. Do you recognize me? Well, it's been a year. It doesn't surprise me. (Merry Christmas!) I wrapped it up and sent it. With a note saying, "I love you," I meant it. Now, I know what a fool I've been. But if you kissed me now. I know you'd fool me again.
•••
December, 25th, 2020.
You pulled your bag close to you as you opened the door to the Aizawa household. You close the door shut quickly to escape the brisk cold and turn to your Uncle Shouta Aizawa.
"Merry Christmas, Shouta."
"Merry Christmas to my favorite niece."
"I'm your only niece Shouta."
Your uncle takes your bags from you to take them to your bedroom. You lived with your uncle before you graduated from UA. After you graduated you moved out of the city with your best friend Hitoshi to get a jump start on your career.
"Hitoshi is coming for the holidays too, right?"
"Hitoshi got slightly delayed at the office but he's still coming. He hasn't shut up about how much he missed his mentor. I swear, it's like he's dating you instead of me– Shit."
"You're dating him now?"
Shouta sets your bags down on your bed and crosses his arms in a fatherly way. Shouta did raise you, it made sense for him to get protective.
"Whoops. Hitoshi and I were gonna tell you together, but yeah, we're dating now. Is that okay with you?"
"I suppose he is a lot better than some of your other exes... But I'm not letting you share a room now."
You roll your eyes at your uncle's behavior. You knew inside he was actually very happy about you and Hitoshi. Shouta loved Hitoshi like a son.
"You know me and Hitoshi live together, you helped us move into our apartment. If we wanted to have sex we would have already."
"Okay, but you know the walls are thin. If I hear so much as a thump, I'm running in."
"Okay, we'll be sure to wait until you're asleep."
Shouta smiled knowing you were just teasing him. You knew better than to have sex under his roof. He would kill Hitoshi, apprentice or not. Shouta's smile dropped into a thin line.
"I didn't tell you over the phone because I knew you wouldn't come... I invited some of my old students from your class over for Christmas dinner."
You scowl at the ground. He invited your ex-boyfriend, Katsuki Bakugo. It was exactly one year ago that you gave him your heart. One year since you gave him your innocent, and purity. One year since he shattered you.
You hear his rough voice ring through the house. It felt like forever since you heard his voice.
"Oi! The fucking door was unlocked, I brought wine!"
You exit your room to face your ex, Katsuki bakugo, destroyer of love, hope, and dreams. Maybe you were being dramatic, but he did cheat. That was the sad reality. He cheated, he was the bad guy and you were allowed to hold a grudge.
"Hey, Bakugo."
"[Y/N]..."
Shouta left the room leaving you alone with Bakugo. The jerk really left you alone with the guy who cheated on you. Why would he invite him in the first place? So much for being a father figure.
"I didn't know you'd be here."
"Me either. I mean, I should've fucking knew. You are related to Shouta. I guess a year will make you forget."
"Yeah."
You both look at the ground to avoid making eye contact with each other. You never wanted to see him again, yet here he was. On the other hand, Katsuki did not forget your relations with Shouta at all. He was hoping he'd get to see you again. Truthfully he really missed you.
Katsuki walked closer to you and tucked a piece of hair behind your ear. He brought your face up to meet his eyes by cupping your cheeks.
"I really missed you [Y/N]... I really fucking regret last Christmas."
The closeness and the history between you both made you yearn for his touch. You hated yourself for it, he hurt you, you shouldn't be letting him cup your cheeks.
You have a boyfriend. You have a boyfriend who loves you. He adores you, he supports you, he is loyal to you. You weren't dumb. If you gave into Katsuki you would ruin what you had with Hitoshi only for Katsuki to hurt you again.
Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me.
"Katsuki... I have a boyfriend."
You pulled yourself away from Katsuki just as another one of your old classmates walks in the house. You saw the familiar black-orange eyes and pink skin of a former friend come towards you with a smile on their face.
Mina Ashido, your former friend slips her hand into one of Katsuki Bakugo's. It seems you were not the only one with a boyfriend.
"[Y/N], it's been too long!"
"Being ranked as one of the top ten heroes makes you busy."
"Right, you're the 9th hero."
"9th, and ranking up."
You give Mina the fakest smile as you eye her and Katsuki's hands. He really missed you for sure. As they say, once a cheater always a cheater.
Hitoshi walks in the house, his purple hair messed up from the wind with small specks of snow falling around him.
"Sorry I'm late, I had to turn in some paperwork."
Hitoshi walks over to you and kisses your temple. He wraps his arms around your waist and holds you as he takes in who you're talking too.
Hitoshi smiled as he saw Mina holding Katsuki's hand. Unlike you, he was warned by Shouta on the phone that Katsuki would be here.
He wasn't threatened by Katsuki, but he was worried about you. You and Katsuki had a bad history. One where Katsuki hurt you. It was easy for feelings to resurface. Hitoshi was worried feelings of hurt would resurface.
"Mina, Katsuki, you remember Hitoshi. He's my boyfriend now."
Katsuki would be lying if he said he wasn't inferior to Hitoshi. Katsuki wanted you back, but Hitoshi had you. If he was going to compete with Hitoshi it would be hard. How was he going to compete with the top tenth hero when he was the top twelfth?
"I heard rumors that Ms. 9th hero and Mr. 10th hero were dating, but you know how liable rumors are. I myself, and Katsuki are going on a little over a year."
A year? That meant Mina was the girl he cheated on you with. Confirmation straight from the horse's mouth.
He said he missed you yet he was still with the girl he cheated on you with. He didn't deserve to be by your side. He didn't deserve you hearing him out. He was trying to do the unimaginable, but he couldn't.
"A whole year? Wow. I and Hitoshi have only been together for a few months but he's the best boyfriend I could ask for. He's the most loyal guy you'll ever meet."
Loyalty, a word that apparently got left out of Katsuki Bakugo's dictionary.
•••
Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special. A crowded room, friends with tired eyes. I'm hiding from you, and your soul of ice. My god, I thought you were someone to rely on Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on. A face on a lover with a fire in his heart. A man undercover but you tore me apart.
•••
December, 25th, 2021.
You smiled as you walked hand and hand with Hitoshi up to your uncle's house. The ring on your hand glinted in the sun reminding you how precious and pretty it was.
"Let's tell him together this time."
"I swear last time it was an accident, but this time my lips are sealed."
Like the gentleman he is, Hitoshi opened the door for you. He even took your hat and hung it up on a peg with your coat.
"You're here!"
Your second uncle, Shouta's husband found you once you entered the house. You loved Hizashi like a father. He helped Shouta raise you and boy did he rip Shouta a new one for inviting Katsuki to Christmas last year.
Hizashi's eyes widen and he gasps as he sees your hand. The engagement ring was huge and shiny, of course, he couldn't have missed it. You slipped the ring off of your finger and put it in your pocket.
"IS THAT A WEDD–"
"Hizashi, be quiet! We haven't told Shouta yet."
Over the past year, you began to love Hitoshi. He would never hurt you. In fact, you don't think he even had a malicious bone in his body. Obviously, when he got on his knee to pop the question you said yes.
"You should tell him soon before the guests arrive."
"Guests?"
"Shouta invited Bakugo and some other old students again."
You bit your lip as you thought about him. The thought of Bakugo being there again was distasteful, but oddly you didn't feel as hateful as you did last year.
You didn't feel as hurt as you did, maybe your recent engagement to Hitoshi had to do with that. You were happy and in love. You wanted to get married to Hitoshi, you wanted to have kids and a family with him. Your relationship with Katsuki felt like a thing of the past now.
Shouta walks into the room to see you three talking. He smiles and goes to give you and Hitoshi a hug. Hitoshi might be your boyfriend, but he was Shouta's beloved apprentice too.
"My favorite niece is here."
"Well Uncle, I might be your only niece... But you're about to gain a nephew."
"No– He didn't."
"He did!"
Shouta rolls his sleeves up and turns to glare at your fiance.
"You knocked my fucking niece up!"
"What? No! God, I married an idiot. He proposed to her!"
"Oh. In that case, congratulations are needed. Where's the ring? When's the wedding going to be?"
You slip your ring back on and show it to Shouta with a beaming smile on your face.
"We want to have a spring wedding. We want Eri to be a flower girl, and Hizashi will DJ. Oh! And of course, you're going to walk me down the aisle."
"You're getting married?"
You turned to see Katsuki Bakugo in the doorway. Maybe if you hadn't been so happy and lovesick you would have noticed the anguish and hurt displayed upon his face.
"Hitoshi proposed! The weddings in march, you're invited. I was actually hoping your parents could help design my dress. Oh God, just look at the ring."
Katsuki planned to get you back this Christmas. He broke up with Mina, he hasn't been with another woman since. He was doing it right. But he was too late, you were truly Hitoshi's now.
What else was there to do? Crash the wedding? Cause you more anguish? No, Katsuki couldn't do that.
"That's a big fucking rock. Sadly I can't stay, Mina and I are heading to my parent's house this year. Last-minute fucking decision, but I figured I'd drop off some wine considering I already said I'd come here."
What a lie. Katsuki wasn't even seeing Mina anymore. Katsuki left the house to return to his lonely apartment and spend Christmas alone feeling conflicted.
You were happy, how could he ruin that for you? He couldn't just confess he still loved you, not after he shattered your heart. Not now that you're moving on. It wasn't fair that he had bad timing.
He needed to let go of your shared past and let you move on with your future.
•••
Now, I've found a real love you'll never fool me again. Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special. A face on a lover with a fire in his heart. A man undercover but you tore him apart. Maybe next year I'll give it to someone. I'll give it to someone special.
•••
December, 25th, 2022.
You moaned as you laid back on Shouta's couch. Your feet were propped up on your husband, Hitoshi Shinsou's lap as he massaged them.
You were currently approaching the fifth month of your pregnancy. You were starting a family with Hitoshi. Some part of you was worried about how you'd manage being a pro hero and a mother but Hitoshi was going to be there every step of the way.
"God, you're so good at this."
"I know. That's how we got here in the first place."
Katsuki Bakigo sat down on the couch across from you. Lately, he'd been working with the hero agency you and Hitoshi work for. Although you were put on leave for your pregnancy, Katsuki had been spending time with Hitoshi for work purposes.
Sometimes Katsuki would stay at your house for dinner, you could say he and Hitoshi might even be friends. You were at a place where you were happy with Katsuki. You no longer felt pain from him, but rather focused on the love you had for Hitoshi.
"Hitoshi, when is dinner gonna be done. I'm really hungry."
"You're always hungry."
Before you knew it the tears started to roll down. You knew he wasn't saying to be mean, but these pregnancy mood swings were making you so emotional all the time.
"You're mean!"
"Hey, hey, hey, Don't cry I was just joking– Look I'll go to the kitchen and check on dinner, I'll even snag you a roll."
"Okay, I'm sorry for being a pain in the ass."
You wipe your tears away with the back of your hand while Hitoshi hands you a tissue. It seemed you were always crying lately.
"It's okay, you're just going through mood swings, it's normal. Just wait til' [Y/N] Jr. comes out, our bundle of joy will be worth it."
"With how much I've been sleeping and how grumpy I've been its definitely a Hitoshi Jr."
Hitoshi leaves the room to sneak you a roll or some type of other food from the kitchen to soothe your hunger.
"So you're going on five months?"
"Yeah, month five has turned me into a pain in Hitoshi's ass. I'm sore, I'm whiny, I'm angry, and always fucking hungry. I can't do basic things like getting dressed."
"How's Hitoshi been treating you, he seems tired whenever he comes into work."
"Hitoshi has been great. I have been pissing him off with late-night cravings for spaghetti sandwiches, but he gets up without complaint. Truthfully, we both can't wait to be parents."
Your hands fly to your stomach as you grunt from pain in your stomach. You swore this baby was going to kill you. Katsuki rushes over to you in a panic to help you.
"What's wrong? Are you in fucking labor?!"
"No, it's too early. He's just kicking. Here, feel."
You guide Katsuki's hand to your baby bump so he could feel. He smiles as he feels the baby kick. Once upon a time, he would have liked for that baby to be his. He still would have liked for that but he knew you were no longer his.
"So you happy then? With Hitoshi, and the baby?"
"He makes me really happy. He randomly surprises me with flowers, and he cooks for me. Nothing in our relationship is one-sided. He's perfect."
You miss the sadness in katsuki's eyes as he speaks to you.
"Then I'm really fucking happy for you."
He really was, he just wished he was the one you were happy with.
"Hitoshi and I were actually wondering if you would be the godfather?"
"You want me to be the godfather?"
Hitoshi comes back in the room. He gives you a stolen bread roll from the kitchen and he kisses the top of your head.
"Well, Shouta was the first contender but he's getting too old, so we went with the next best thing."
"I'll do it. I'll be your fucking godfather."
If he couldn't be the man that protected and provided for you then he damn well would be the man that could protect and provide for your child should anything happen to you.
"I'll be the best fucking godfather ever."
•••
Edited: 12-24-19
Tip Jar:
https://www.paypal.com/paypalme2/IzzyJJ13?locale.x=en_US
•••