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Bonnie
I told Freddy I needed my bow tie to act better somehow. He told me it wasn't necessary at all, but I convinced him that it was, and he also agreed with me and went off to his room to fetch his clothes; it was not much what we wore though: just a red bow tie, rock gloves and sometimes a black tank top for me, and for Freddy those white cuffs, a black bow tie, and a top hat. He also put two buttons in the middle of his chest to make it look like a suit. He looked pretty good, even though he wasn't wearing one.
I didn't know if Freddy had realized by now that I was not feeling like myself today, I couldn't stop thinking about that picture and what I felt. It was like I needed to puke my stomach or going to bed and never come out again, or to drink from the toilet just so my mind could have another business to attend to.
I left my room and could see that Freddy wasn't ready yet. Chica and Foxy wasn't on sight. According to her, they both were going to clean his cove up; I didn't think it would be exactly for that though; it might have been due to something more personal, so I had no desire of nuzzling into something that was not of my business. His purple curtains were close, so it sure was a wise decision to not slide them open just to prevent myself from the most awkward scene ever.
While spacing out in the stage, I heard Freddy finally coming out of his bedroom.
"Ready?" Freddy walked up.
"Sure, let's begin."
Freddy had brought, aside from his clothes, a yellow file with papers in it. Shit! Wasn't that the file where I found that picture? It seemed those papers were actually sheets music. Hopefully he hadn't realized about that. That f-how awful.
"Ok, Bonnie, here you go," he said handing me a sheet music. "These are the most common songs for Christmas; I think you can use a guitar for those. I hope you can read them."
Of course I could read them: while I worked in MoonLight, I learned how to read them in my free time.
"Oh, yeah, yeah, I do," I said while studying them.
"Ok, we'll start with this one, ok?" Freddy said pointing one in particular.
"Ok."
Freddy headed toward the center of the stage to start singing since this one had to start off with the vocalist and then followed by the guitar. As soon as his voice sounded in the stereos, I actually couldn't stop but stare at him while he kept going on. He was doing great! My sight couldn't read the sheets music and follow the rhythm. Freddy looked back at me puzzled. The song stopped in a sudden.
"Are you ok?" he asked.
"What are you talking about?" I was looking at nowhere.
"No, forget it," he said after hesitating. "You're ready now?"
"Yeah, I am now," I said pulling a forced grin.
Freddy hit it again, and now I had to focus. I did pay my whole attention in my sheet music as I played all of my parts.
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So far the rehearsal was going good. Freddy sang wonderfully, and I haven't made any mistake by playing. I hoped this could be enough for him to forget my gloomy behavior today in breakfast.
"Let's take a break," Freddy said while putting back his microphone in its stand.
"Ok," I said not tired at all.
"I'm gonna get a glass of water, you want something?"
"Could you bring me a yogurt?" I asked blushed.
"Yeah, sure!" he replied amused.
Why was I still blushing when talking with him? It was nothing whenever I did it with Chica of Foxy; I already left behind that anxiousness of knowing new people. Now it was like they were old pals of mine, who I could hang out and have a good time with, but yet I had no idea what it kept happening to me with him. Was this feeling for him real? I actually thought this was ever going to happen if a beautiful girl showed up, not in front of my own boss. Was I nuts!? I could feel it growing inside of me. It mattered not how hard I tried to bury it, it kept coming out. Freddy was coming back.
"There you go." Freddy tossed the yogurt onto my paws.
I couldn't stop thinking either. I just wanted to keep Freddy from worrying about me, because he had to attend to every single demand this restaurant happened to have, not for my childish complains. Although what I thought was worse was to have a delicious apple yogurt without a spoon.
Freddy was fixing something in his microphone as my inner shouting grew. I'd trade it all away if I could just ask him, but I was afraid of him getting mad for stealing or me thinking about him this way. I couldn't picture the scenario where he knew the truth. As my mind kept busy itself, I suddenly felt Freddy's big paw on my shoulder.
"Hey, Bon!" he said smiling a little.
I got a little scared of that, however, I answered with a fake, reddish grin.
"Yes?" It came out from nowhere.
"I just wanted to tell you that you've been playing absolutely well today." He kept up his cute grin.
He was so close to me. His smile was so wide and bright, I felt so nervous, and I couldn't make up my mind. Say thank you, come on. This may only happen once, I thought. Should I kiss him? No way! It was wrong to think about him this way, but... I wanted to kiss him, he was right here! I have a seizing and pleasant feeling; I found no words to describe this thrilling, exciting and brief moment. Did I dare to do it?
"Thanks, Fred!" I said as I... hugged him.
After a few seconds, suddenly my body reacted to what was going on, and what I must have done instead of this. I pushed him softly away breaking the hug and ran away toward the kitchen. I didn't look back at his reaction: I just closed my eyes, hugged him, and push him away without a glance.
"Bonnie, wait!" he shouted as it sounded farther.
I reached the kitchen's door and slammed it closed behind me. I knew my vicious thought were gonna pay off now. I didn't even know why I did it, wasn't that Freddy supposed to be the one I saw in that picture? I supposed I just got carried away by a malicious voice hinting me to do so. Being so close and in front of me. I'd never felt such a feeling before. Now I knew Freddy had a wide back because when I hugged him, I barely could clasp my paws together behind him. He had a pretty warm shoulder too. Anyway, there were countless feelings I found during that moment. Why it couldn't happen again? I heard someone knocking on the door.
"Bonnie, what happened? Are you ok?" Freddy asked.
The first time I didn't answer. He insisted.
"Bonnie? Please, speak to me, what happened? Is something wrong?"
I feel so ashamed for what I just did that I thought I wasn't going to be able to see Freddy without blushing and almost losing myself. Now I had no idea how to hold an orthodox attitude before him.
"Bonnie, it's ok, don't worry. But please, come out here to talk about it, or let me in, Bonnie. Please."
I wanted to be stuck in this kitchen forever. Tears started flowing down from my eyes onto my cheeks. I wouldn't dream of anybody seeing me like this, I just wouldn't.
"Bonnie," he regretfully said.
After more times Freddy knocked on the door, he finally gave up; I supposed he was already gone. Why did they have to move me from MoonLight? If I were still there, nothing of this would have happened. I wouldn't be so scared of speaking in front of Freddy; I would be with Frog and Hippo playing whatever they wanted. Why everything turned into this? I wanted to go back! There was no way to wipe this weeping off me.
It was just me, sitting down on the floor against the door with the only one who had come along with me all this time: loneliness.
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