that fear of a little bit too much
numbers crawling higher
towering over me
peaking through the clouds
unable to see the top
never knowing i had a fear of heights
it's what skins me alive
and makes me feel like dying
bleeds me out, inside out
rushing out of me
unable to feel a single thing
never knowing i had a fear of blood
and all i can do is stare and weep
weep quietly into noone's arms
can this even end?
it's a chain wrapped around my throat
when speaking only pushing tighter
never knowing i had a fear of death
ripping me apart
i think i'm going to explode
and cold november winds nag on me
singing devilish songs
pitch reminding of screams
never knowing i had a fear of cries
all that's left of me
break these bones
and whisper nocturnal nothings
engulfing me
it's an uncomfortable hug
never knowing i had a fear of touch
until i lose the upside down
and tumble down upside
broken and unfixed
stumbling pieces
no sense of a structure
never knowing i had a fear of the chaos
make me a fairy, whatever it takes
and just like her tale, my dream was a scam
you waited smiling for this.
not all are free that can bemock their fetters.