This is weird.
I definitely do not like this feeling. This feeling like... I'm mad, upset, possessive and in love all at once.
Jealousy.
Yeah ok... So I'm a little jealous of a certain someone who's way too big for his age and has disgusting green-blue eyes with short brown hair...
Dammit.
This is not fair. He's mine. We've established this haven't we? I've kept quiet about it but... It's hard. Because I love him more than I thought I ever could.
Dammit Rin. Of course he had to go and make a best friend. Is our love-hate, sexual frustrated relationship not enough?
It's never enough for Rin, apparently. Yamazaki had to go and screw everything up.
Maybe I don't tell him I love him enough. Actually I haven't told him at all...
Maybe we don't have enough sex.
Maybe I don't cook enough for him?
Maybe I cook the wrong things for him?
Rin knows I want to make him happy, so why the hell is he playing games?
My heart can't take this.
Sousuke tells me of all people to stay away from Rin. Does he know who he's talking to?
Probably not. All that's up there is Rin and swimming.
This is stupid. I'm probably just overreacting. He's... Good for Rin. Rin needs someone as a best friend/brother figure.
Ugh.
I just need to stop thinking about it. It's affected my sleep, my dreams, my school work, and most importantly, my swimming.
Only Rin could do this to me. What if I just talk to him about it? No... Because then he will get mad and cry then I'll feel bad and then apologize for something I don't need to apologize for.
Fuck it.
"Hey Rin? Are you awake?"
He turned over to look at me. We were currently in my bed about to go to sleep for the night. He decided to stay over tonight after we had a couple rounds of unbelievable sex.
Just looking at him makes my heart melt. I love him so much.
"I'm awake... What do you need?"
Here it comes... I hope he won't get too upset.
"I... What exactly is going on with you and Sousuke?"
He looked at me and made a face. A cute face only Rin could make.
"He's my best friend, Haru..."
"But..."
"Haru, you're jealous."
He smirked at me. Don't look at me like that.
"I am not... Just... Making sure who's the friend and who's the boyfriend..."
His face softened a bit.
"You're my boyfriend... Don't be an idiot."
He rolled back over and pulled the covers closer to his face. I got a little closer to him and put my head on his shoulder.
"Rin... I um... I love you..."
He didn't look at me. Or say anything. For the longest time, it seemed like he was asleep.
Then I heard him laughing. He rolled onto his back and pulled me down and kissed me.
I love his kisses.
He pushed me away and smiled at me.
I love his smile.
"More than water?"
"What?"
"Do you love me more than water, Haru?"
Idiot.
"Of course I do. Don't be stupid."
He laughed more.
I love his laugh.
I love him.
Even more than water.
And definitely way more than Sousuke.