My absolute favorite song
In the whole world blasts
From the speaker on my bedside table
I laugh as I jump
And dance around my empty room
Here I am the greatest performer to have ever lived
Here is a world untouched by you
Here is where I remembered what it felt like
To be carefree and unburdened
By the weight of your problems
Here is where I cried myself to sleep
And licked my wounds better without you
Here is where I dyed my hair pink
With my best friends
Because I wanted to -
And because you didn't want me to
In my room is where I practiced smiling
At my reflection
Until I felt that it was real
In my room is where I found out that
My smile had gotten bigger since you left
Here is where I regained my youth
That thing you tried to take from me
With empty promises
And sweet words
Here is where I realized
Being mature for my age is a good thing
In small doses
Because I don't want to miss out
On what I have while it's right in front of me
And sure, here is where I laid in my bed
And I remembered the way you hugged me
Arms wrapped so tightly around my waist
I couldn't breathe in the best way
And I cried when I laughed at the ghosts
Of your fingertips tickling me
In the middle of the night
But here is where I realized
I like me better when you're not around
I didn't know the me that existed
When she was with you
She changed when she was out there with you
But here?
She came back
And lived
I am truly alive because I am here
With my favorite song in the whole world
Playing on the speaker
Dancing around like no one is watching
Waving my pink hair from side to side
I am living unapologetically here
And my glow is so bright now
Maybe even you could bask in it
But you'll have to stay over there