"How can you possibly say that you're holding everything together when you're not even home!?"
The fights, the yells, the arguments...
"Let me go!!"
The pain it left...
"Sangwoo!"
Looking up once again to see a sight of the unfolded.
"Sangwoo!!"
It's so real I can almost hear it...
"Sangwoo!"
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[Oh Sangwoo]
"Sangwoo!"
I jolted up from my bed, woken up from the sudden shout into my ear drums.
"What the fu-"
"It's fucking twelve in the fucking evening!"
I rubbed my eyes. "Wha-"
I felt a tug on my shoulder. "Sangwoo, wake up. This is no time to sleep!"
I regained vision to see Jae-beom grasping my shoulder. I removed his hand and rubbed my face. "What are you doing here?"
"You wouldn't answer you phone, so I decided to take matters to my own hands. That's besides the point, we have to get you ready for your date!"
I plopped back. "What date..."
Jae-beom turns around. "What do you mean, 'WhAt DaTe?'. Your date with Jin dumbass!"
I shot up. "Shit!"
I leaned out of bed and headed toward my closet and checked myself in the mirror. "I didn't even shave!"
"Exactly! So why the fuck are you still in bed!?"
I let out an irritated sigh. "Jin doesn't care whether I have a scruff or not, right?"
"I don't know!? He's a model so why don't you ask him!?"
I freeze. "A model?"
"Yea, you didn't know?"
I pause, letting the information sink in. "What does he model for?"
Jae pauses. "I think he pairs up with UNIQUE magazine. But I've seen only, like, two issues covering him."
I glance in the mirror at myself and at my closet. "I have to wear something presentable."
Jae walks over to my closet. "It's... black."
"Yea, perfect color to reflect my emotions."
Jae sighs. "Compared to Jin's personality, your like a black hole threatening to devour him."
I smirked. "I do want to devour him."
He gives me the most displeasing look. "What the hell?"
I brush it off and look into my closet. "I only brought suits and blazers. I never thought of going somewhere so casual."
"I have a few casual clothing at my place, maybe you can wear those," Jae-beom suggested.
"That'd be unnecessary. Your place is almost three miles away. I'm not going out for such a stupid reason."
Jae shrugs. "Suit yourself." He then snorts. "Haha, suit yourself."
I slapped him on the back and went back into finding an outfit.
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[Kim Jinsoo]
Today is the day!
I glanced at myself in the mirror. I struck random poses, exposing areas of my body I couldn't see. I wore something fairly simple. W-well, something I've worn almost everyday for the past few years.
I pat down my jeans and straightened my sweatshirt. I adjusted my glasses and puffed out my hair, which somehow managed to get brighter?
I shrugged it off and glanced at the clock. 1:47.
I grabbed my keys and a small backpack to carry my necessities. I also carried cash that I've gain from giving my finished painting to my client who I'm dear friends with.
I opened the door to my studio and walked out to the elevators and rode it down to the lobby. The museum wasn't far, maybe a five minute walk, but I hope I see Sangwoo already there waiting for me.
After a quick walk and a few fan interactions, I made it to my destination. My museum.
I look at it in awe, proud that I have my own place to put all my works. Glancing at the time, it seems to have reached two already.
I turned my head around to see any signs of Sangwoo. After a quick look, I managed to find a tall man in a suit heading my direction.
"Sangwoo! Over here!"
As the man got closer, I realized it wasn't Sangwoo. This caused me to blush in embarrassment.
After fifteen minutes, I texted him.
'Hey, are you here yet?'
I put my phone down and took a seat on one of the front benches.
Thirty minutes past and still no signs of Sangwoo. It was getting hotter, but not too unbearable. At this point, I was starting to lose hope into this date. I am thinking her has just left me.
I stood up and walked up the stairs to my museum. But suddenly, in the corner of my eyes, I saw a man walking down the street with a woman.
"Sangwoo?" I whispered slightly.
The woman dragged him onto the other block where the fancy restaurant stood. I know it had to be Sangwoo.
Swiftly, I ran down the steps and followed the same path they went. As I turned, I saw them chatting on the outside of the building.
"Listen, my parents are in there. If you say something you shouldn't you know what happens."
"Oh yes honey, I will defiantly listen to you," Sangwoo relies in an oddly sweet voice. I peaked to see them hold hands and enter the restaurant. Quickly, I peaked through the window to see Sangwoo take a seat with the woman and her supposed parents.
I was suddenly hit with a familiar feeling of pain as I saw the woman and Sangwoo laugh as the parents laugh.
Before I could realize it, there were tears in my eyes already.
I wiped them with my sleeve and quickly ran out of the block to the safety of my studio complex.
I was greeted, but I ignored all call from workers and or fans.
As the elevator rose, I couldn't hell but let out a sob. The elevator dings and opens to reveal the empty hallway. I got out and began to walk towards my room.
"Jin?"
I turn around slightly to see my neighbor, Byungwoo exit his room. "Why are you crying?"
I sniffed. "O-oh it's nothing. I-I just saw...a cat get hurt."
His face softens. "Really? That's sad. Anyway, I was going to put my trash into the shoot so could you wait a bit?"
I nodded. "Y-yes, I can wait."
Byungwoo comes over often whenever I feel sad. We met each other after I moved in. He actually was one of the people who helped me move in.
I run into him often and go on dinners with him occasionally. Recently though, my mind has been on Sangwoo that I totally forgot about him.
"So how's it going? Where've you been?"
"I've just been busy that's all," I said, wiping my eyes. "C-can we talk in my room? Since were in the hallway..."
He nods, "yea, sure."
I sat on the couch, wiping my eyes with the tenth tissue.
"I-I'm sorry I wasted your time..."
"No no no! It's fine. Actually, I needed some time out of my apartment, haha."
I look up at him. He's very... attractive. B-but, I see him as just a friend and nothing more. Right?
"Jin?"
I can't believe Sangwoo would just leave me like that...
"Jin, someone's here."
My mind flew back to reality as the knocks on the door went on. "O-oh, let me get it."
I stood up, but was dragged back down by Byungwoo. "Let me, it's better if someone is trying to hurt you of any sort."
I fidgeted as he approached the door, unlocking the locks. He sung it open, blocking my vision of who was standing at the door.
"Who are you?" Asks the voice on the other side. I knew instantly that is was no other than Oh Sangwoo.
"I should be asking you that," Byungwoo says, crossing his arms.
"I'm a friend of Jin's. Now, who the hell are you?" Sangwoo says, obviously losing his patience.
"I guess I'm just a friend t-
"Byungwoo! Who's at the door?" I called out to break the tension between the two.
"This...guy," Byungwoo says reluctantly.
I walked over to the door to see Sangwoo dressed in the same suit from earlier. "S-sangwoo?"
"O-oh Jin, sorry about earlier. I had something very important to attend to. But I'm here now, so maybe we can head ove-"
"Not gonna happen buddy," Byungwoo says, unfolding his arms. "I'm assuming you're Sangwoo. Jin has been through a heck because of you. So I best you leave right now or I'll make you."
My mouth was left open. "B-Byungwoo! Sorry Sangwoo, don't mind his behavior."
I opened the door wider, "p-please. Come in."
I sat on the couch awkwardly, seeing as both Sangwoo and Byungwoo stare at each other. Obviously they were trying to scare one another but it didn't seem to be working.
Suddenly, Sangwoo broke the tension. "I'm taking Jin out. So if you were to excuse m-"
"He's going nowhere," Byungwoo says dangerously. "Didn't you have that chance earlier?"
Sangwoo sighs. "Yes, I did. But something very important came up suddenly. I want to make it up by taking out for dinner."
I sat there, uncomfortable.
"Would you mind explaining the reason?" Byungwoo asks. My eyes widen. I looked up at Sangwoo, hoping to hear the truth.
He looks at me.
"I had to do business work. With some colleagues of mine," he says finally. I let out a sigh, disappointment rushing through my heart.
"What? That's not what Jin sa-"
"It's fine, Byungwoo."
I stood up from the couch. "Sangwoo, I-I think it's best for you to l-leave."
"But, our dinner..."
I look up at him, eyes slightly watered. "Just leave..."
He takes in a cold breath, shoves his hands inside his pockets. He looks awake and thins his lips. "Okay...I'll see you...later..."
He proceeds to walk out, shutting the door with some extra force, causing a loud slam.
I turn to Byungwoo who, the whole time, had his arms crossed. "I-I think you should go home too."
He nods. "I'll be one my way. If he tries anything, I'll be a door down."
He ruffles my hair and walks out with a slight wave.
I sat on the couch and took in a deep breath.
It hurts to realize it but...after what Sangwoo just did, I couldn't help but love him.
I can't get my mind off him despite all the red flags I see. I'm colorblind in the colors of love.
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[Oh Sangwoo]
I marched out of the complex and straight to my hotel room.
I opened my door violently and shut it with much force. I walked into the bathroom and began to take off my suit when I glanced at myself in the mirror.
I saw a tired man. Messy, not knowing what to do with his love life. I don't know what came over me, but I began to cry. I laughed slightly at myself.
I was weak, I let him go too easily. I should've kept fighting for him. Now he's with another man...
I laughed again, tears slowly falling down my face as I sat on my bathroom floor. I kept thinking about how much I missed him and how much I lost.
I ended up just sobbing.
"Sangwoo?"
I heard the door close with Jae's voice outside the door. However I didn't even try to stop sobbing. I just keep going.
"Sangwoo? Where are you?"
I see him walk over and stand in the doorway looking at my pathetic body.
"Sangwoo!"
He rushes over and kneels down.
"What's wrong! Did something happen? Oh my gosh your a crying mess!"
I took my coat off and threw it behind him. "He... he found another..."
I sobbed and used my sleeve to wipe my eyes. "He told me to leave him! He was going to be alone with another guy! Oh my god..."
I couldn't believe it but I felt jealous, upset, and disturbed at the fact that Jin was with another guy.
"Sangwoo, you're not making sense here. What happened?"
I told up and grabbed a paper towel. "I ended up going with Ji-Jae to the restaurant..."
Jae gawked. "Why the fuck would you do that!?"
I willed my eyes. "She threatened to shut down my dad's business. With that power she could've hurt Jin's museum. I don't want to be the reason why he falls."
Jae sighs, "you're so stupid."
I glare at him. "Watch your mouth fucker."
He groans. "See what I mean? Jin makes you different. You're Oh Sangwoo. You wouldn't give a fuck about anyone's business let alone care about yours. Haven't you though about quitting your dads business for a awhile?"
I let the information sink in slowly. "...yes.."
"And how's that working for you? You chose to go with Ji-Jae to protect what Jin built. But look, that choice only made things worse. Do you think Jin would honestly care about his museum if you were by his side to rebuild it. That's what love is Sangwoo. You just seem to be blinded."
I let out a sigh.
"How can I make it up to him?"
Jae puts his thumb and finger on his chin.
"I have an idea."
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A/n
SORRY IM A WEEK LATE,
I was a my grandpas memorial this Sunday causing my posting schedule to be a bit messed up. But do not worry! Things will go back to normal.
Unfortunately, school is a thing.
But it's okay. I love going the extra mile to satisfy my readers. ALSO!!! The second part to "Birhday Special" will be released next week!
I've been holding it back, but I think it's time for you to see the alternate meeting situationsss!!!
B.B.