Faasla Itna Ke Usko Dekh
Bhi Nahi Sakta,
Qurbatein Itni Ki Wo Rag Rag Mein Rehta Hai....
THIRD PERSON'S POV
Maria never came out of her room for the whole day. Osama wanted to confront her and talk with her, but dado stopped him asking him to give her sometime.
Many days passed like that but they never saw Maria coming out of her room. Now, she used to have food inside her room and never allowed anyone from her family to enter her room. She now confined her life inside the four walls of her room. Her room was her safe sanctuary now.
Mustafa tried many times to enter her room to talk with her, but she never allowed him to enter. But he made sure she ate properly. In the initial days of her isolation she used to return her food and was neglecting her health but he managed to convince her to eat through Rafia. Rafia was the only one she interacted or listened to.
After two weeks of her isolation, dado decided to talk with her. So, she went towards her room and knocked on the door and called her name.
Maria opened her door listening her dado's voice. She didn't want to talk with anyone but she couldn't say no to dado so, she allowed her to enter her room.
She knew that she can't run from her life anymore and now is the time to face everything.
Dado entered her room and her eyes immediately met with her granddaughter's. Her eyes were red from the sleepless nights she went through. Her face which always had a bright smile on it now looked lifeless and her cheeks which glowed red from the natural blush were now pale. She had dark circles around her eyes. All in all she resembled a zombie.
Dado sat on her bed and patted her lap smiling sadly at Maria asking her to lay her head on her lap. She obliged and went towards her dado and layed her head on her lap and closed her eyes.
Dado was caressing her head when she suddenly felt something wet on her cheeks. Maria opened her eyes only to see her grandmother crying. So she quickly got up and wiped her tears and hugged her tight. Now they both were crying hugging each other.
"Mera bacha, Hume maaf Kar diye humari wajah se aapki Zindagi kharab ho gayi. Humaari zid ki wajah se, aapne is Shaadi ke liye haan kaha tha, Hume aisa nahi karna chahiye tha. Hume laga tha ke Mustafa aapko bahut khush rakhenge, aapki pyaari si aakhon mein kabhi aansu nahi aane denge par Hume kya pata tha ke wahi aapke aansuon ki wajah ban jaaenge. Hume maaf kar diye meri jaan, aapki dado bahut sharminda hai, itna ke hum aapse nazarein nahi mila paa rahe hai."
Dado said with tears in her eyes.
(kiddo, forgive me cause I am the reason of your destroyed life. You said yes to this relation because of me, I shouldn't have done that. I thought Mustafa will keep you happy and he will not let your beautiful eyes filled with tears but I didn't knew that he will be the cause of your tears. Forgive me my life, I am so ashamed of myself that I am unable to meet your eyes.)
Maria was sad seeing her grandmother so vulnerable and so weak. She immediately holded her hands and said
"Dado aapko maafi maangne ki koi zaroorat nahi hai. Isme aapki koi galti nahi hai. Mujhe pata hai ke aap mujhse bahut mohabbat karti hai aur aap kabhi bhi aisa kuch nahi karengi jisse mujhe takleef ho. Aapne ye faisla hum dono ki khushi ke liye Kiya tha. Aapka koi kusoor nahi hai. Ye sab mere qadr mein likha tha , ise hone se koi bhi nahi rok sakta tha, Allah ki marzi thi isme."
(You don't have to apologise dado. It's not your fault. I know you love me and you won't take any decision which will hurt me. You took this decision for both our happiness. You have no fault in anything which has occurred. It was all written in my destiny, no one could have prevented it from happening as it was all predestined by Allah.)
"Beta Hume aapki bahut chinta ho rahi hai. Aapki halat humse Dekhi nahi jati. Hume bataiye ki ab aap iss rishte se Kya chahti hai ? Aapko ye rishta kayam rakhna hai ya nahi ? Aap Jo bhi faisla lengi usme aapki dado aapke saath hai. Ab hum bas aapki khushi chahte hai aur kuch nahi. Apna faisla aap soch samajh ke liyega. Ab aapko koi kisi cheez ke liye force nahi karega."
(My child I am worried about you. I can't see you like this. Tell me what do you want to do with this relation now ? Do you want to continue it or end everything ? Whatever decision you make I am with you. Now only your happiness matters to me. Think about it wisely. Now no one will force you for anything.)
She nodded her head but she was lost in the thoughts of what happened earlier in the morning......
Flashback...
Maria Mustafa Ahwaan's POV
My sleep was disturbed with someone knocking on my door. Thinking it was Rafia, I opened the door but I saw my husband standing there looking at me with longing in his eyes.
I don't know why I was relieved seeing him after so long. seeing him again made me remember the beautiful memories we created together. I want to hug him tight and never let him go, but what he did is unforgivable.He hurt me to the extent that I am unable to forgive him.
I should hate him for all the awful things he said, but I don't hate him. I can't hate him even if I want to, because I love him. Yes, I have fallen in love with a man who broke me.
It hurts me to be away from him, but my self respect won't allow me to be with a man who questioned my character. Even when that person is the man I have fallen in love with. I can't forget that horrible night even if want to. It is etched in my memory forever.
I wish, I really wish, I wouldn't have gone to that party, I wish I won't had met Zaid.
I wish everything was right between us both. I wish I could go back in time and change everything.
My train of thoughts was broken with him, entering my room. And now, I was back on my angry mode seeing him.
How dare he enter my room without my permission? I was about to shout at him when he said
"Mujhe maaf Kar diye main aapke room mein bina pooche aa gaya, par mujhe aapse bahut zaroori baat karni hai."
(I am sorry for entering your room without your consent but I really want to talk with you about something important.)
"Par mujhe aapse koi baat nahi karni. Ab aap yaha se jaa sakte hai."
(But I don't want to talk with you. Now you can leave.)
"Main apni baat Puri Kare bina yaha se nahi jaunga. Aapko Meri baat Sunni padegi. Please, ek baar Meri baat sun liye, us ke baad mein chup chaap yaha se chala jaunga."
(I will not go before I tell you what I came here for. You have to listen to me. Please, for once listen to me, I promise I'll leave after that.)
He helplessly said while looking into my eyes. So I nodded and told him
"Theek hai, par aapke paas sirf das minute hai. Uske baad main aapki ek nahi sunne wali."
(Okay, but you have only ten minutes. After that I am not going to listen to you.)
He nodded and said
"Neeche sab aapke aur mere talaq ki baat kar rahe hai. Mujhe pata hai ke maine aapke saath theek nahi kiya aur meri wajah se aap bahut takleef mein hai, par iska matlab ye nahi hai ke sab humara talaq karane par amaada ho jaaye. Main kuch bhi karne ko taiyaar hu lekin, main aapko talaq nahi de sakta."
(Downstairs everyone is discussing to get us divorced. I know what I did was very wrong and you are in so much of pain because of me but that doesn't mean everyone will try to get us separated. I am ready to do anything but I will not divorce you.)
I was shocked hearing him. How dare they decide about my life without involving me in it. They have no right to impose their decision on us. First, they got us married without our consent and now they want us to get separated like we were never married. Is our life a joke to everyone?
I will not divorce him. I never thought of divorce. Yes, we are currently having problems in our marriage and I am hurt beyond repair but that doesn't mean I will divorce him. I know, it will take to forgive him and it might not happen soon cause now even if I see him, I get angry at him but never in my craziest dreams I can think of divorcing him, one because Allah doesn't like divorce, two because I love him.
I pushed my thoughts aside and thought to see his reaction on me accepting our divorce. I want to see how much our relation matters to him and how far he can go to save our relation. So I replied him
"Aur agar main kahu ke mujhe is rishte se nijaat chahiye. Agar main kahu ke mujhe aapse dur rehna hai, aur kabhi aapki taraf mudke nahi dekhna ? Aap kya karenge? Bataiye?"
(What if I say I want divorce ? What if I say I want to be away from you and never want to look at you again? What will you do? Tell me?)
He looked at me with sadness in his eyes but then smiled painfully looking at me and his next words stopped my heart and chilled me to my bones
"To main Allah se dua karunga ke wo mujhe maut de dein, taaki aapki mujhse juda hone ki, aur meri shakal doobara na dekhne ki dua qubool ho jaaye, kyuki jabtak main zinda hu main aapko nahi choddh sakta."
(Then I will pray to Allah to grant me death so that your wish to get away from me and never see my face again will come true because I can't leave you till I am alive.)
He said while smiling sadly and left me after kissing my forehead.
Flashback ends......
Maria Mustafa Ahwaan's POV
I was stunned hearing dado, so that means he was right. They are really planning to get us divorced. But I will not let that happen. So I answered her sternly
"Dado mujhe pata hai jo kuch bhi Mustafa ne kaha wo galat tha, lekin iska matlab ye nahi hai ke sab humari talaq karwane ke baare mein sochne lage. Pehle to humari shaadi humari marzi ke bina karwadi ab talaq ki baat aise kar rahe hai jaise ye bahut mamuli baat ho. Humaari Zindagi ko mazak samajh rakha hai sabne. Ye hum dono shauhar aur biwi ka masla hai aur main nahi chahti isme koi bhi bole."
(I know whatever Mustafa said was wrong but that does not mean everyone will start thinking to get us divorced. First you all got us married without our consent and now you all are talking about divorce as if it is the most simple thing in this world. Is our life joke to you all. This matter is ours and I don't want anyone interfering in our matters.)
Dado looked shocked hearing me, I think she never thought I will deny divorce but then quickly composed herself and was about to say something when Baseer came towards my room crying hysterically.
"Baseer Kya hua, tum ro kyu rahe ho ?"
(Baseer what happened, why are you crying?)
I asked him getting tensed seeing him. Something is wrong, I can feel it.
Ya Allah, rehem Kar...
Oh Allah, have mercy..
Baseer hiccuped looking at me and then he spoke
"Aa-aapi, Mu-Mustafaa bhaai ka accident ho gaya hai aur unki halat bahut serious hai."
(Aa-aapi, Mu-Mustafaa bhaai met with an accident and his condition is very critical.)
My whole world came crashing down when he said that.
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