You stood there frozen as you watch your boyfriend kissing another girl.
You flew all the way to Texas to surprise the boys during their tour but you got the biggest shock of your life.
You couldn't believe what was happening. Jonah stood there kissing some brunette in the tour bus. Without saying a word you leave and start to run. Corbyn sees you running and chases you.
"Y/N wait!!!"
You stop and turn around to see Corbyn and in front of you.
"It's over Corbyn. It's all over," you say as you cry.
"What do you mean ?"Daniel asks.
"H-He-" you can't even say those words without choking on your own tears.
Corbyn pulls you into an hug and you just cry.
"Y/N?" You hear a familiar voice.
You quickly pull away and look behind them to find Jonah walking towards you'll. Without saying anything you just run away . Right now you were in no state to face him or talk so you just catch a cab and go back to the house.
This afternoon When you came to Texas while the boys were rehearsing in the stadium , Corbyn sent a bodyguard to pick you up and take you to his house were all the boys are staying.
You get inside and just throw yourself on the bed. You hug the pillow as you cry your heart out. A million thoughts run in your head
He doesn't love me
Why did he do this to me?
He cheated.
Am I dreaming?
How could this happen to me?
What do I have to live for?
I'm better off dead.
Well if I can't bare to see him leave me and can't imagine living without him , its better to die peacefully.
Making up your mind, you get off the bed and go to your bag. You take out a book and a pen from it. You sit down and write him a letter.
Dear Jonah,
I love you so much that it hurts so bad knowing you cheated on me. I never thought you'd do such a thing but you did. Today seeing you kiss a girl broke me into pieces. I know you are gonna break up with me soon cuz I saw how much you were loving her. I should leave you but I can't. Cuz I love you way too much that I cant live a second without you. So instead of dying everyday without you I'm gonna end the pain once and for all.
I love you with all my heart,
Goodbye..
All the love. Y/N
You tear the paper and place it on the bed under the open and your phone. You take your razor from your bag before going into the bathroom and sitting down underneath the shower as you cry harder. You lightly run the sharp object on your arm. At once a little blood oozes out but the water washes it.
It was a stupid decision to end your life but you loved Jonah to much and couldn't imagine a life without him. All you can think is that you are better off dead. You cut yourself once more but this time near your nerves. More blood comes out. You feel yourself getting lighten headed already and you smile as you lay on the floor.
"Jesus! Y/N" you hear a gasp.
You look up to see Jonah and all the boys standing in front of you. Jonah holding thr letter in his hand. His eyes is wide and red with tears evident in it. He quickly turns of the shower and squats down by me. The boys give you one last sad apologetic look before walking away.
"Move away from me," you yell just as he is about to touch you.
"B-baby please," He shutters trying to reach out for you
You stop him by putting the blade close to your skin.
"Touch me and I'll slit myself," I threaten.
"Nooooo please let me take you to the hospital. You are loosing so much blood."
"Yes and I'm gonna die."
That's when he let's out an heart breaking sob falling on his knees. He tugs his hair in frustrations. You watch him as you slowly sit up.
"Please Y/N let me help you. Don't do this. I can't lose you. I really love you. I can't live without you," he begs.
"Then why? Why did you cheat on me?" You scream
"I didn't cheat on you. She kissed me I swear. I was crying in the Van and drinking because I messed up the concert. This girl I guess she is a fan walked in and started comforting me. I really missed you baby, I hadn't seen you for a month and all I could think of and hear is you. I started visioning you and hearing your voice everywhere. So while she was talking all I could hear is you and I didn't chase her out which was the stupidest thing I did because the next move she made was pressing her lips on mine. I didn't have control over myself as I started kissing her. But all that while I thought its you. I pulled away the moment I realized it wasn't -"
"No shut up.That's what ever one says. please Jonah let me die. Don't worry you won't go to jail" you say weakly .
You are taken back when he snatches the blade from your hand.
"Fine then. I can't live without you neither. So let's die together" As the words leave his mouth he connects the blade to his hand and slits it.
"Jonah," you gasp as you watch blood flow from his fresh wound.
"Are you crazy?" You try to yell but your words come out faintly. You try to crawl to help him but he moves back.
"I deserve this. Let's die together. If there is another life I wanna be yours again," he says warming your heart.
"Some one help!!" You try screaming but it comes out as a whisper.
"Jonah please let me clean you" you beg unable to see him bleed.
"then let me take you too the hospital."
You nod knowing if you didn't agree he would bleed to death and you can't bare seeing him bleed.
"Corbyn! Jack! Guys! Help!!" He screams.
You both move closer to each other and you throw yourself in his arms.
"I'm so sorry," is the last thing you hear him say before everything goes blank for you.
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You slowly open your eyes and look around. You find yourself in an hospital ward with a IV connected to your hand and blood going through it. Jonah is sitting beside of you with his head buried in his hand.
"Jonah," you whisper.
He lifts his head and looks at you. You slowly take his hand which has a bandage on it.
"I'm so sorry baby," he whispers.
You say nothing. Tears just start to roll down your cheeks as you trace your fingers on the bandage.
"Please baby. I'm sorry. I love you so much. I will never ever leave you. Please say something. Don't do this to me. Look at me. Say something. Please. I'm sorry. I promise this won't happen. Give me another chance. Please. I want to live happily with you. Y/N say something. Please."
You can literally hear the hurt in his but you are even more hurt.
"Don't leave me. I can't live without you. I really love you. I swear you pressed her lips on me. I didn't mean to kiss her. Fuck I'llnever ever drink again. Baby if you want I'll even stop singing and stay home with you. I won't leave you and ever go anywhere. Please say something Y/N," He begs
You look at his eyes when you realize you gave his punishment. He saw the love of his life almost die. He really did love you there was no doubt you saw it in his eyes. The moment he saw you bleeding the fear and pain in his eyes. The words he said all was enough to know the truth. But could you forgive him?
You cup his cheeks in your hand and crashed my lips on his. The kiss was passionate and slow.
"This lips belongs only to me," you say as you bite his bottom lip.
"Yes baby. Only to you. Only to you" He says and you waist no time in putting your tongue in his mouth and deepening the kiss. You pull away when you are out of breath. He grabs your hand and kisses the bandage.
"Never do that again," you tell him.
"Promise."
He takes a sharpie from his pocket and writes on the bandage.
Jonah's only girl.
"I love you Y/N very much. I love only you . not anyone else. Never doubt that. And please forgive me baby,"
"I love you too Jonah and I'll forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight."
"Thank you baby. It's okay. I'll do anything and I will do everything I can to gain your trust again."
You hum and grab the sharpie from his hand. Then you scribble on his bandage.
Belongs only to Y/N
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A/N
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