we want a reset button,
a fresh start,
a clean slate,
especially when we're done with our current one,
or we fucked it up far enough.
so we try to start fresh,
getting rid of old clutter,
blocking off the past,
never going to once acknowledge what happened,
and get on with our lives.
i desire this every once and a while,
but it's not like i'm gonna get one.
clean slates,
they come with prices,
resulting in debt,
more clutter,
more frustration,
more fits,
more breakdowns,
when all we wanted was a redo.
you can't redo what's been done.
but you can always change what's about to come.
but for now,
my slate,
it's dull,
cracked,
stained,
not one piece of it left clean,
and cleaner is too much,
the price and the regret and the affects of it,
thought i don't know what they'll be, i know they all won't be good.
so is it good to really get what i want?
or do i even know what i want?
and regardless,
i'll stick with my slate
because it's the one i was born with.