Keith Kogane, he's 21, young and dumb but rich. The most famous singer there is. He's handsome, nice, kind-hearted just overall a good person. But there's one thing that's always in the back of his mind or behind the smile that he shows when he greets his fans.
Anxiety•
He walks off stage after a concert of two hours. He was shaking and needed some relief, some drugs or nicotine to calm him. He grabbed his pack of cigarettes from his dressing room and rushed out back to smoke. His husband of two years but lover of 5, saw him and sighed. They started dating when they were both 16, high school sweethearts.
Shiro followed Keith to the back of the building. "You said you stopped.." Shiro Said disappointment laced in his voice. Keith's eyes widened in shock, thinking that he was alone. "I'm sorry but I needed relief, baby it's just one" he said. Shiro wasn't happy, he walked over to keith and smacked the cigarette out of his hand and put it out. "What the hell?!" Keith exclaimed. "I am trying to help you Keith" Shiro said "tomorrow you have a meet greet don't forget oh and I'm burning your cigarettes"Shiro said than walked back inside and helped the crew pack up and get the tour bus ready for another state. Keith sighed and went ahead and got on the bus, he was very rich so Shiro and him had their own room on the bus.
Soon everything was packed on the bus and the crew was in their vehicles following behind the bus. Shiro and Keith were in their room, talking. "Keith..we've talked about this baby..you can't wear leopard print pants with a leather jacket, it's tacky!" Shiro Said as he looked over keiths design for future outfits for concerts. "Ughhhh Takashi your killing me here.." he groaned back than scooter over to his husband and laid his head down in his lap. Shiro sighed and put the magazine down and started playing with keiths hair, soothing him. "Can I have some alcohol?" Keith asked. Shiro thumped him on his forehead "not of you want to go to rehab again and get knocked down from your high horse..if you start drinking again paparazzi will figure out and you'll be below the ranks" Shiro said. "But just one glass of wine..please? We can drink together" he whined. Shiro sighed "fine..only ONE Keith, I'm watching your drinking" Shiro said Than got up and walked to the kitchen area of the bus and grabbed two nice wine glassses and poured some strawberry wine into it. He walked back to the bedroom and handed Keith's glass to him. Keith took a sip and hummed at the taste of it, "your only having one glass" Shiro said as he sipped on his glass of wine and continued looking through the outfit designs. "Babeee!!" Keith whined after he soon finished his whole glass "hm?" Hummed, not looking up at his husband. "M'hungry.."he huffed. "go tell the bus driver before we get on the interstate, we're running low on snacks here" he said. Keith shook his head "n-no.." he said, scared of talking to the crew not because he hated them but because he was just scared of crowds and people in general. "Keith Kogane, get your ass out there and just say hey can we stop to get some food" Shiro Said. "No." Keith argued and Shiro sighed. He kissed Keith's head and walked out of the room "hey can we stop to get some fast food before we go?" Shiro asked the driver. He nodded and they pulled into a chick-fil-a and Keith hopped out happily without his bodyguards than realized a bunch of fans staring at him. His heart sped up and they started running towards him, causing him to run back into the bus and lock the door. His breathing sped up as his heart pounded, he got to his feet though his whole body felt like a trembling temple. He looked pale and sick "hey hey baby, what's wrong?" Shiro asked as he led him to the bedroom and sat him down then leaned down in front of him. "C-can you go get it for me? Or call my body guards..please Shiro.."he managed to say. He kept his head down and his gaze away from shiros. "Yea, I'll get the body guards" he said as he grabbed his phone and dialed the number "I should not haft to call you every single fucking time we stop to get food! This is your job. Get your ass down here and get me in!" Shiro yelled angrily at the slacking body guards. Keith flinched a little from Shiros tone. Shiro hung up and kissed Keith's head than walked out, the body guards guiding Shiro to the door. Ever since he's been with Keith he's gained some fame as well. He walked in and grabbed the food and walked out to the bus. He got in and they were off again, driving to the second state. Shiro walked into the room and handed Keith his food. Keith ate happily and smiled as he watched videos on his tv. They both soon finished eating and Shiro bit his lip. He rubbed Keith's waist and kissed his neck. "Mm~ hey sexy" he said as he laid on his back and pulled Shiro into a passionate kiss.
Shiro smiled and pinned Keith down as he kissed him deeply. Keith spreads his legs and Shiro moved in between them and grinds agsisnt Keith, earning a small soft moan from his lover. Shiro smirked and slid off keiths pants and flipped him to his stomach and started eating him out hungrily. Keith's eyes closed and he let out soft moans as his head laid down against the pillows. Shiro licked around Keith's hole then slowly and gently entered his finger. Keith whined a little at the little stretch. "Baby..I gotta prep you or your going to be really sore in the morning and we can't have you limping around on stage" he said softly as he worked his finger and pumped it in and out of Keiths hole slowly and gently. "Mm~" Keith moaned and bit his lip. Shiro thought Keith was loose enough so he slid down his pants and slid the tip into Keith very gently, earning a little moan in return. He pushed in more and suddenly started ramming into Keith fast, Keith cried out in pure bliss as his body rocked with shiros rough strong thrust, he gripped the bedsheets as he was pounded into by his lover. "C-close!!~" he moaned, Shiro smirked and didn't stop "already?~ but we just started~ what a cute slut.."he degraded causing Keith to whimper out of pleasure. Shiro continued to ram into Keith fast, soon keiths body tensed up and he squirmed and came hard onto the sheets with a cry of pleasure. Shiro bit his lip hard and soon came into Keith with a grunt as he gripped his hips tight. Keith moaned softly and sighed in content. Shiro pulled out and kissed his back goin up his spine then kissed his neck. "Better?" He asked. "Mhm~ Thank you baby.."Keith said as he laid down and got comfortable in bed "Ah Ah Ah no sir get up and go clean yourself up" he said "okay okay I'm going" he chuckled and got up, walking to the small shower and got a quick shower and walked back to bed and got in with a heavy yawn. Shiro cleaned himself up after Keith and laid down beside him, pulling his sleepy husband close. Keith snuggled into shiros chest and was soon asleep. Shiro followed not long after Keith, both in a deep sleep.
Keith soon woke up to one of his band mates knocking on the door and he got up and opened the door "yes?" He asked "it's time, we're at the venue so get dressed" she said. Keith nodded and closed the door and sighed. Shiro was awake but he was just chilling out in bed. Keith walked to his suit case and put it on the bed "Aren't you going to eat before you go out there?" Shiro asked "I will after" Keith said as he grabbed his go to punk black outfit. It was black ripped skinny jeans with combats that had small red paintings on them and a black t-shirt with a leather jacket and he put on a chain necklace then his usual lip and ear piercings. He grabbed his makeup pallet and started doing a pretty damn good Smokey eye with dark dark eyeshadows then he put on some highlight and some chapstick. He walked out of the bathroom and kissed Shiro deeply "I'll see you before my show baby" he said then left to go help set up and practice.
Keith felt anxious like really anxious and he walked into his dressing room, his breathing a little fast. He locked the door and reached for his bottle of pills with his shakey hand and he popped two of them and swallowed them dry. His mind was at war with everything. He took a deep breath and felt at peace.
~30 minutes before show time~
Shiro was watching the current band entertain the wild crowd. Keith walked out and he peaked out at the completely crammed stuffed arena. Fans were singing along and cheering among themselves and he felt that familiar tightness in his chest and he felt horrified again. Shiro saw and he grabbed Keiths hand and lead him to the dressing room. Keith started breathing hard and fast as he clutched shiros hand tight. Shiro frowned "baby? Breathe okay? You need to try and take deep slow breaths" he said. Keith was lost. His mind felt like a permanent swirl or a endless dark tunnel that he just kept spiraling out of control with each and every gig and show. He took deep fast breaths as he tried to calm his breathing. Shiro rubbed Keith's back and he held him close "you're doing good..just keep breathing.."he said softly. Shiro was called to help out with the quick set change. He kissed Keith's forehead "I love you. You'll do great and maybe if you're feeling up to it we can go to wherever you want baby okay?" He said then kissed Keith and left, closing the door behind. Keith still didn't feel grounded..Shiro left so soon and he didn't feel secure or even safe in that matter. The voices going at war got louder and louder "shut up!" He yelled out. He opened the bottle of pills and poured out 5 and he grabbed a beer he had hidden and chugged them down quickly. "Kogane! You're on in 5 so hurry up." A stage hand yelled and Keith chugged the rest of the beer and popped one more pill dry and he wiped his mouth and walked out of his dressing room, closing the door behind him. Shiro saw him and he pulled him into a kiss then caught the smell of alcohol "Keith you are not to drink before a show!" He whined. Keith gave a slight smile "M'kay.." he said then grabbed his guitar and walked out onto the stage and the crowd yelled and cheered happily. Shiro noticed something was wrong. Keith felt deathly cold when he held his hand and it felt sweaty. His eyes widened and he walked into Keith's dressing room to find the bottle gone. "Oh no.."he said then he heard Keith strum his guitar and he started singing his top hit. Shiro ran out to the manager "call 911!" He urged. "What? Why? He looks perfectly okay" the stage manager argued.
The lights got really blurry and his hearing went numb as he suddenly stopped singing and his eyes rolled back into his skull and he dropped to the floor cold. The crowd gasped in shock. "Close the curtains now and call an ambulance immediately!" He yelled angrily and the curtains dropped and he ran to Keith and picked him up. The ambulance arrived really quickly and Keith was rushed into it and rushed to the hospital.~
I promise there will be a second part!🌻