Chapter 7.5
Thane's P.O.V
Terrified. The great alpha of the blood moon pack was terrified. Never in my life have I felt like this. Like a wuss if I was being honest.
She terrified the shit out of me and yet made me feel so powerful all at once. The tales I grew up hearing of what a mate's bond felt like had no comparison to what I felt when I first saw her.
Emery. The name of my beautiful mate sent a sweet chill down my spine. My emotions were all over the place when I was around her. I was scared, in love, confused and filled with desire. She was different. She defied me and threw curses and tantrums my way but that's what made her special.
I mean she annoyed the life out of me but in the most precious way.
No matter how anyone described the bond of a mate it was profound experiencing it for myself. It was indescribable, it was powerful.
It was this moment that I realized the saying was true, love made a person do stupid things, and a fool I was.
Instead of revealing to her what and who I am, I chickened out.
She looked so vulnerable and tortured that I couldn't have told her the vital information she wanted.
My father, grandfather and each other great grand before me, each told their mate who they were a few hours after the ritual.
But me?
No. Nope. I couldn't do it and I still can't. The moment I knew Emery was my mate I knew I couldn't let her go. And leaving will be the first thing she does when she finds out what I am.
I was the beast that haunted her in her the night. The vile creature that over took her dreams and filled her mind with nightmares. I was the demon that she hated with a blazing passion.
It didn't help that she hated the human side of me as well.
The adoration and impetuous love I felt for this girl had me on my toes. The hatred she expressed to me about the 'beast' is what made me petrified of telling her.
How can you tell someone you feel this gleaming emotion for that you're the crazy beast that gives her goose bumps in the night?
I fear that I'm not doing the right thing by not telling her right now. I feel guilty each time I look at her lost eyes. My chest hurts knowing that she feels like an outlander in my home. Most of all I'm petrified of losing her.
What I feel most guilty for is what happened to her not hours ago. The attack from the rouges.
Those were the real monsters. Those iniquitous, so called wolves were the creatures she should fear. They defied everything that stood for wolves. Wolves are majestic, loyal creatures and rouges were those that held no importance for rules and regulations. With that being said there are wolves who were made rouge because of attacks, wars and incompetent alphas but the majority were runaways that didn't see fit following rules and staying in packs.
Those were the creatures that almost took Emery away from me in a blink of an eye.
I let her wander out there give her a few moments to herself and the rogues just had to attack.
I had my pack devour them into shreds of nothingness. All that was left was wolves' fur and flesh lying on the forested floor.
But I had them inmate one. I couldn't kill him in front of Emery's eyes because she would come to know what I am.
The rouge that tried to lunge for my mate is the one whose blood I craved.
After ensuring Emery was safe and had someone to watch over her I left to complete my job. I left Bailey, my beta Lucas's mate, keep my mate company. Lucas is my beta as well as my best friend. We grew up together since our days in diapers and playing with rattles.
I demolished the beast that dared to lay his fitly paws on my mate.
After the gruesome scene I avoided Emery to change my clothing because it was splattered with blood.
She acted very distant and cold with me and I wondered if Bailey told her anything about our kind. Then I remembered that Emery naturally hated my guts.
I watched as she moved the comforter on the bed to settle in.
"If you think you're sleeping in here with me I would castrate you." She turned to faced me. She really could emasculate a man.
Her eyes had a glimmer of fear in them and I could tell what she was thinking but I could never hurt her. Not physically or emotionally, it would cause me pain as well.
I laughed and replied, "Sweetheart this is our room. Ours, meaning yours and mine, together." I slowly explained to get my point across.
"I understand what you're saying Thane, I'm not a child." she said offended.
I quickly rejected that before she thought of me differently "I didn't mean it like that."
"Then how did you?" She asked. "You can take the room because I don't want it you ass."
She pushed past me as she walked to the first floor. I was a few steps behind her giving her some space to get her anger out but not enough to lose visual on her.
Everyone was having dinner in the dining room so she walked carefree out of the front door.
When I went outside she was sitting under a tree looking as if she was trying to get comfortable enough to sleep.
I approached her, "You know if you liked my ass that much you should have just said so."
She tried to make me jealous by saying, "I've seen better, sorry to disappoint."
I was obviously bothered by what she said, "So you're sleeping out here then are you?" I decided to change the subject.
"Yeah it's way nicer than you are. Quieter for one and with a lower criminal record." She said testing my patience.
Of course she thought I was a criminal, she believed I was a kidnapper. This girl is going to be the death of me I swear.
"Fine you want to sleep out here? Then by all means go right ahead sweetheart." I angrily turned around and went to the house.
I kept my eyes glued to her from the window. I had border patrol around the territory tight tonight after the attack and I sent a few pack members a few feet into the woods behind Emery so she wouldn't notice.
If she wanted a fight that's exactly what she was going to get but I had to ensure her safety above all else.
A/N
Special update!
How much did you enjoy Thane's POV?
I just thought it would be fun to see his side of things for a change since we all know what he is. But the story is still going to follow Emery's side so there isn't going to be much Thane's POV.
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