Jisoo's POV
"Chu..."
I turned my back the moment he called for my name. The loud beating of my heart tells me he's not in any sort of apparition nor a product of my imagination.
He's really here, in flesh.
A bitter smile escaped my lips. Chu, my ass. He really has the nerve to call me Chu at this point.
After almost six months, here he was, standing in front of me, calling for my name like nothing ever happened.
And I hate him.
I hate how he treated me these past few months. The last time we saw each other, he told me to wait for him. He even made sure no other idols can get a hold of me. How selfish.
Now, since Chaeyoung is about to give birth and the whole world has known of the two's marriage, I thought that it will be easier for us but that doesn't seem to be the case. For one, I think we have to be extra careful as we don't want fans to think Bangtan and Blackpink are all entangled in a relationship.
He was looking at me intently like he did nothing wrong. Like he didn't make the past few months extra hard for me.
Bastard.
All he does is break my heart. At this point, I don't even know why I kept on trying. I don't even know why I kept on hanging over his words when all of them are lies.
Fucking lies.
Without even bothering to check if our members will notice, I march my way inside my room. I didn't even bother looking back to Yoongi even after I heard him call my name.
I threw my phone on my bed, the sound of the bouncing it made not making me feel any better as well.
"Tss,"
Damn that Min Yoongi.
In the past few months, he'll message me only because he wants to know if something's wrong with Chaeyoung.
My mind wandered to the memory of her getting blood-stained in our bed after that one V-live. it was so scary and I honestly don't know what to do. One thing though, Chaeyoung definitely got her knack in fainting from her Mom.
Jimin's probably going nuts over there that time but Chaeyoung doesn't want her husband to worry.
It was after our Vlive that Chaey got so stressed and a large incident had happened. Jimin can't reach Chaeyoung so I understood why Yoongi was trying to reach out and check for any updates.
It wasn't a problem for me. Actually, I'll be more than happy to tell them about Chaeyoung's current state but it was her decision to let her tell everything to Jimin directly.
What irks me the most is that Yoongi told me he'll figure something out. Now what? He messages me twice a month? Is that it?
The last time he called was two months before that incident with Chaeyoung and I feel so deprived. Now he's tried reaching out all because of his best friend.
I know he cares about Chaeyoung like she was his little sister. I've realized that a few months back already and though I got jealous at first, I know they're like best of friends now. Chaeyoung looks for Yoongi whenever she needs a little pep talk.
But what about me?
And then I heard, the sound of my phone beeping once again.
Out of frustration, I reached for my phone and typed a response to him.
"I don't want to see you,"
I sounded like a brat, I know but he's pissing me off.
When will I be his priority? Not priority-priority but at least show me I am important. I'm not just a friend. Heck, or is that who I am to him right now?
Not a minute has passed when I heard my phone beeping again. This time, it was an incoming call - Yoongi.
I hissed. So now he's being persistent.
I threw my phone back on my bed.
No. Not today Yoongi.
Just then, I heard the sound of knocking outside my door. A long sigh escaped my lips.
I pulled my pillow and hugged it tighter. Why can't they leave me in peace?
I tried closing my eyes but to no avail, the person outside seemed too determined.
Lazily, I dragged my feet to the door's direction, and just right after I opened the door, Yoongi's exhausted expression greeted me. Not letting me utter a word, he walked past me and closed the door before I can even protest.
My shoulders slumped in defeat. As always, all he thinks was himself.
I turned to him and crossed my arms.
"What do you need? I'm sleepy, I need to rest," I told him. I wanted to laugh at myself at how bitter I sounded.
He looked dejected and as much as I want to stop myself from caring, my heart still clenched at the sight of him having a hard time.
He moved forward, his hands landing on my shoulders. I shiver at his touch and I had to remind myself to stop caring. But damn, it was so fucking hard.
I heard him sigh, his eyes closed and I watch as he does a quick breathing exercise. For a moment, I got scared of him. I know Yoongi had anxiety from time to time.
He bit his lower lip and I had to fight the urge to lunge over him and kiss him instead.
Calm your nerves Kim Jisoo. Not the time, okay...
"I give up," he whispered. His words so clear I felt like every piece of me shattered.
Fuck.
I give up.
Three words but I felt like my whole world started crashing in front of me.
He's giving up.
I knew things will be hard but I didn't know I'll actually hear him say those words.
Without a warning, tears started streaming down my cheeks.
Why? Just why can't I be happy?
I lifted my gaze and once he realized I was crying, confusion filled his orbs and his eyes widened.
"Of fuck, Chu. It's not what you think Boo bear... Shit shit shit!" he started cursing before pulling me for a hug. I cried even more.
Is this really the end of us?
I felt his hands cupping my cheeks as he whispered me sweet words that don't even sink in. I was too lost in despair I don't even think any sense that was left in me would function normally.
"Boo bear, that's not what I meant okay? Stop crying..." he pulled me closer and gave me a hug, his other hand behind my back as he tries to calm me down while the other was at the back of my head.
He pulled away from me a little and gave me a quick peck on the lips. My heart skipped a beat and somehow, it got me distracted which he noticed.
"Baby, listen to me first, okay?" he whispered and I found myself nodding.
"I meant giving up on avoiding you - avoiding us. I can't stand the thought of you getting mad at me, of you crying. So I giving up. It's killing me. God knows I tried every possible way I know to make this work but there are things that I can't control. I'm done giving you reasons to hate me. From now on it's just us. We'll try to work this out together. I don't give a fuck if we hide this relationship again or whatever you like as long as we're back together, I don't care. Coz God knows it's starting to kill me too. I love you Boo bear, okay? I will never give you up. Never,"
He pulled me closer once again and hugged me tighter. The words he uttered slowly sinking in.
Slowly, my breathing started getting back to normal and my hands moved on its own and clung over his waist.
He's compromising, I know.
I buried my face on his chest, the sound of his fast heartbeat rings through my ears.
Is this even real? Does this even mean I have my Yoongi-chi back?