*This is the only sexual content warning I shall be giving for this story*
"Beginnings, huh..?" Eld turned a little more, though his eyes didn't stray lower than my chin. "Then...tell me...how would you say we would begin..?" I knew I was straying into dangerous territory, but that was the story of my life. There was no way this could be more traumatic than facing a creature over fifteen feet tall, right?
"W..well...we would probably start by turning around...to face each other..?" It sounded like I was questioning myself, but I knew that was what I wanted. I guess I was just testing to see if he was on the same page as me.
He uttered a small chuckle, then I felt him begin to turn himself around. I hurried to do the same, and in seconds we were facing each other; toe to toe, and staring into each other's faces.
"Then what?" The bastard was smirking now, and my confidence was being sucked dry. Fumbling with my hands beneath the water, I chewed on the inside of my cheek.
"Then...uh...I'd probably move c..closer..." I murmured as I slid myself towards him. He parted his knees to give me room, and I could have sworn the water was about to start boiling with how hot I felt inside.
Despite having a cherry-dusted face, Eld didn't seem all that nervous. He watched me closely with a half smile until I was almost in his lap.
"What about now..?" He tilted his head a little on purpose, and that's when my hands flew up to cover my face.
"I..I didn't think this far ahead!" I admitted in an embarrassed cry, and he laughed softly before I felt his hands caress my upper arms. That feeling alone was enough to stop me from freaking out externally, but there was still an entire zoo in my stomach.
"I'm...just gonna throw this out there...but...what if the next step was me kissing you..?" My head snapped up immediately as he murmured that question, and it was like I was under some kind of spell. I wasn't sure if it was because I liked him so much, or just genuine curiosity, but I wanted him to kiss me more than anything.
"Th..that could work..." I swallowed as one of his hands found its way to my chin, where he coaxed my face towards his slowly. He had me in some kind of trance as I stared into his glossy oak eyes, and once his coarse lips met mine, I was done for.
I..I'm in a bath...with Eld...and he's fucking kissing me...WHAT THE FU-
Even though I was in an internal panic, I melted into the kiss; allowing Eld to pull me in closer until I was leaning against his chest. It was slow, gentle and had my head in a spin, but it was over all too quickly. Pulling back, the blond kept the tip of his nose pressed against mine, and his eyes were closed.
"This is a really bad idea..." He murmured before capturing my breath again. Oh, I knew it was. If Levi found out, god knows what he would do, but he wasn't there. It was just the two of us, and I was wanting everything.
Eld's tongue slid gently against my bottom lip, and I obediently parted it from the top so that he could deepen the kiss. Not once did I ever believe feeling someone else's tongue in my mouth could feel pleasant, but there I was, craving more and giving him complete and utter control over the situation. My arms found their way around his neck; thin trickles of water racing down over his toned chest as I crawled just a fraction closer; basically in his lap, now.
"Am I...doing it okay..?" I questioned, kind of self conscious about my performance. He obviously had experience, and I didn't want to mess it up.
"Flawlessly..." He mumbled before pulling me into a damp embrace. "...but...we shouldn't go any further.." It was a given that he felt me deflate in his arms, but he still held me close. His heartbeat was fast, as was mine, and I wasn't giving up.
"P..please..? Just...a bit more..?" Acting so sweet and urgent was a foul play, but it wasn't far from the truth. I wasn't ready to stop, and I knew he wanted things to escalate, despite what he had said earlier. I could tell by the speed of his pulse, and how his fingers twitched against my bare, wet skin.
"You really are stubborn...aren't you..?" He half laughed and half sighed; meeting me half way for another passionate, albeit restricted kiss. I took the opportunity to get as close as I could and climbed upon his lap, where I felt a whole new fire awaken below the waistband of my underpants. There was definitely nothing soft about where I was sitting, and the deep, quivering release of breath that came through Eld's nose told me that he was enjoying every second of our closeness. That was, until, I made the bold decision to grind myself up against him.
It was purely instinctual, but Eld immediately pulled back; his hands splashing down into the water to pull my hips up so we were no longer making lower contact.
"O..okay...that's enough..." He daren't look me in the eye as he gently pushed me back into the lone space of the bath before standing up and climbing out; making sure to keep his back to me at all times. "M..make sure to dry yourself well when you're finished..." He was gone before I even had the chance to speak. It hurt, but I didn't really hold it against him. He was trying to be respectful, I supposed. Either that or he just wasn't that interested.
Shit...I just had to go and make an idiot out of myself..!
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I had gotten out of the bath and redressed about an hour before, and I ended up seating myself on the bed by one of the windows upstairs; watching the storm terrorise the world outside from the darkness of the pitch room. Powerful raindrops crashed against the glass, and I could see my dismal face light up in my reflection with each violent flash of lightning.
Eld was somewhere downstairs, most likely. I hadn't seen him since he had left the bathroom, but I was sure he was going to just start avoiding me from then on. I got too bold, and I messed it all up. That's exactly what was going through my mind before I felt two warm, familiar arms curl around my waist.
"Sorry about before...I didn't mean to upset you...it's just...y'know...it felt kind of wrong to keep going when you've never done anything like that before..." Eld explained gently as he nuzzled into my damp (H/C) hair.
So, he might be interested after all..?
I focused on his reflection instead of turning around, and I tried to keep my heart from beating so hard against my chest. It honestly felt like it was about to burst clean out.
"H..how am I supposed to learn if I don't get a chance to try it..?" I questioned as another streak of lightning lit up the morbid sky. Eld didn't answer for a while, but his hold on me lowered until his hands were flat against the tops of my thighs.
"Trying is one thing...Jumping into stuff is another...Just like a battle, you can't be so brash with your decisions when it comes to stuff like...sex..." He was trying to keep his voice steady, but he wasn't doing such a great job, and I could see him trying to hide his face, even though I wasn't directly looking at him.
I totally haven't...but...
"What if I'm not being brash..? What if I've given this a lot of thought?" I lied through my teeth as I peered down into the yard; watching the leaves the harsh winds had stolen from the trees dance and tumble across the earth. Again, there was a fair while before Eld answered, but it wasn't only with words. He pressed a light kiss to the side of my neck, and met my (E/C) eyes in the glass pane.
"If...you keep saying stuff like that...I'm not gonna be able to hold myself back, (Y/N)...I don't wanna be responsible for hurting you in any way, so...don't say it's what you want if you're not completely sure..." He ended with another kiss to the side of my throat, and I didn't even hesitate.
"It's what I want." No stammer, no pause or falter in my voice. For the time being, I was sure, and that's what I had always gone with. Instinct over a thought process when it came to important things. Eld's warm, uneven breath fanned across my exposed skin as he began to kiss at my neck again, but this time his lips were firmer and more adventurous. Allowing him to turn me around to face him, I gasped as he trailed lower, towards my clavicle, which was barely exposed over the top of my calico shirt.
"Can I take it off..?" He questioned as he paused at the hem; his oak eyes flickering up to meet mine. Nodding slowly with a heated face, I lifted my arms so that he could remove it, and once the chill air hit my skin, he began to warm it right back up again with his affections. My mind was a whirl as I watched his actions closely, and my fingers travelled up to twine in his loose, golden hair. I wasn't regretting a thing as of yet. When he reached the barrier of my brasier, I became far more nervous, but not to the point of panic.
This is happening...I trust him...I want to be close like this with him...
Undoing the front clasp, I let it fall into my lap before I brushed it away and waited for his reaction. I had never been confident in my body, but the way he bit his lip and leaned forward to kiss at the rise of my left breast had me reeling. The first sound came crawling out of my throat when he pulled my nipple into his mouth; his tongue carefully caressing the bud as he watched my face closely.
This kind of intimacy was overwhelming, but in the best way, and I didn't even blink when he pulled me down onto the canvas bedding; his mouth still hard at work as his hand slithered up from my calf towards my thigh.
"Just relax and fall into the feeling...If you tell me to stop, I'll stop, okay..?" Eld's voice was so kind and comforting, though it was laced with such an eager undertone. It was impossible to miss the excitement in his eyes, and it made me want what he was giving me even more.
"I t..trust you..." I whispered as I guided his head up from my chest for another round of passionate kisses. Up and up, his hand was almost teasing me with how slow he was moving, and it wasn't until the tips of his fingers brushed against my sex that I realised just how much I needed it.
My meek whimpers were muffled as he stroked the length of my lips; up and down, before toying with my clit, which caused me to squirm beneath him. He paused, but only for a moment, as I lifted my hips to recreate that friction.
"You really need to learn how to slow down, darlin'..." Eld whispered with a slight chuckle, but his restraint was obviously dwindling. His jaw was clenched, and the pace of his breath was just as bad as my own.
His fingertip pushed lightly against my opening, and I spread my legs just a touch wider for him; recalling something that Petra said to me during her frightfully detailed 'lesson'.
"When you're about to be penetrated, you have to relax. It'll hurt a bit more if you tense yourself up!"
God, Petra...why'd you have to go into so much...detail..?
I shook her peppy face from my mind and focused back on Eld, who was peppering kisses to my closed lips as he began to push that one finger between my crease. The intrusion was extremely uncomfortable at first, and it definitely held a sharp sting to it, but it didn't last long. In fact, in mere moments it felt kind of good. Fulfilling, dare I describe it as such.
"Let me know if anything hurts..." Eld whispered against my mouth as he began to curl his finger; the sudden movements making me squeak out and grab hold of his shirt, which was still present. He was slow, and he kept such a close watch of my face, as though he didn't exactly trust me to speak up if I was, in fact, in pain.
It was quite the opposite. I never knew that one finger could cause such a feeling, and the more I mewled for him, the more Eld moved it. Faster, deeper; knowing exactly what to do to receive such sweet praise from me. He repeated the entire process when he decided it was time to add a second finger, then a third, just whispering gentle nothings between his delectable kisses.
I couldn't help but want for more, though. The hand that had once been timidly playing with his hair was now gripping it desperately, and I could feel something pulsing and bubbling in my core. Something hot and completely out of control.
"E..Eld...I..I want more..!" I pleaded with him as I searched for his lips; finding them as he shook his head quickly.
"Cum for me first...then we'll talk..." He insisted as he quickened his pace; my body rocking back and forth with the motions of his fingers. "Yeah, come on, (Y/N)...cum all over my hand, sweetheart..." The way he was talking was rougher than before, and that's when I noticed that, even when he kissed me, his tongue was trapped between his teeth.
He's really trying to hold back from pushing me too far...but...he doesn't ha-
My thoughts became a blur as that dangerous feeling breached the wall; his name being squealed and whined from my lips as I lost all control of my body to his ministrations. My heels dug into the sheets, and I could feel my underwear; which had been slipped to the side, being drenched by my orgasm.
Eld smothered me with kisses and rode me through it; easing me down from cloud nine until he finally stopped and slowly slid his fingers from my pulsing nether.
"Fuck, that's a good girl..." He almost hissed in delight as he lifted his dripping hand to his mouth and licked at my release.
Oh. My. Fucking. God...
Panting and barely able to think, I stared with wide (E/C) eyes as he palmed himself through his pants; his dry fingers hooking into his waistband.
"The reason I waited...was because I don't think you'd be able to finish during your first time...From what I know, most girls don't...and if I'm honest...I doubt I'll last very long..." His tone had softened a bit now, but there was still that carnal bite to it.
Yeah...Petra said it will hurt...but...it barely did just then...so...
I gulped down the lump in my dry throat as he removed his pants, and I had no idea what to think when I saw his cock spring forth from its confines. I had no idea about average sizes for men, but even if it wasn't ginormous, it was still damn intimidating.
"I...dont care about finishing..." I murmured as I followed suit and slipped my soaked underwear off. "...I ju..just want to do this with you..." That was all he needed to hear, as the moment I finished speaking he pinned me down against the mattress and began to kiss me like his days were numbered.
His member was pressing hard against my pussy, now, and I spread my legs wider, either side of his hips, to urge him onward. It was freakishly hot, and I tried to just focus on the loving his lips were providing once he began to sheath himself. Fingers hadn't prepared me for the fiery sting that accompanied his cock, but I kept my lips locked tight until he had finally managed to sink down to the hilt.
"F..fuck...God dammit..." Eld growled through his teeth as he planted his hands either side of my head; his blond hair veiling his face. "...this is not gonna last long...B..bear with me, okay..?" Even through his tenseness, he still managed to give me a loving, reassuring smile before he began to move.
It was near impossible to keep my body relaxed with such a thick and lengthy presence dragging in and out, and I was overcome with relief when Eld leaned in to seal my lips once more. The pain eased considerably after the first few thrusts, but it was still uncomfortable. It wasn't like how his fingers has played me, but it was worth it all just to hear his pleasured grunts and groans fill the room and completely drown out the elements outside.
"G..god...(Y..Y/N)..!" Eld hissed my name as he picked up his pace; sitting upright and grabbing hold of my sides so he could buck his hips faster and harder. My hands found his and I clung to them tightly; whimpering at the heavy, aching feeling that was just beginning to feel somewhat good. "I..I ain't gonna last..! F..fucking shit..!"
Just like that, it was over. I was almost awestruck when he tore his cock out from between my thighs and spilled his thick, white release across my stomach and chest. It was hot and thick, and it wasn't at all as gross as I had expected it to be. Eld was a panting wreck now, but he still managed to grab his shirt and wipe me clean before collapsing over the top of me; curling his strong arms around under my back.
"I..I didn't hurt...you...did I..?" He asked between heaving breaths, nuzzling into the crook of my neck and giving it gentle, affectionate kisses. He had a little, at the beginning, but I wasn't about to tell him that. As tough as he acted as a solider, I knew he'd likely panic if I told him the truth.
"Not at all..." I murmured as I snuggled up into his chest; skinship quickly becoming one of my new favourite things. I could have stayed in his arms forever.
"Liar..." Eld gave out a short laugh as he rolled off to the side and dragged me in so that my back was flush against his front. "...but...I at least hope you don't regret it...or think any less of me..."
How could I think any less of you..?
"I like you too much to ever regret this, Eldy..." I sighed as my energy seemed to evaporate from my body at an alarming pace. "I really...like you a lot..." I released a yawn, and Eld twisted his legs with my own; barely parting from me to drag the covers up over our bodies.
"I really like you too, (Y/N)...Probably a little too much..." He chuckled somewhat sadly, but I was too close to sleep already to really register that. "Sleep now, you stubborn little shit...We still have to get up early to train..."
Yeah...then maybe...if I really do make it into the scouts...we could let whatever this is escalate even further...
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***OKAY I HATE THIS LEMONS ARE SO HARD FOR ME NOW AND JUST AHHHHHH***