I hadn't told anyone about the pregnancy that was no more. After we got back to the hotel Adeel cornered me, making me talk. He promised that it didn't effect us, and that he was here whenever I needed. At the airport, he went to Chicago and I went to Detroit. I didn't do much when I got back, I mostly sat on the couch watching reality tv shows whilst cuddling Teddy.
I still hadn't processed that I was pregnant, or that I had a miscarriage. Adeel and I had a baby. If I had known I would have kept it, whether Adeel was in its life or not. I rubbed my stomach without releasing, waiting to see if a bump would grow. But I had to pretend like nothing happened, I had a match this week and soon there would be a number one contenders match for the championship.
I packed my bags for the week and realised I love him. I love Adeel. I had packed some of his shirts that he left, I plan on wearing them. I used to love living in Detroit, but it doesn't feel like home. I stared out the window, watching the cars drive past, maybe I had to move.
I seemed to get into the routine of leaving for the airport Monday morning pretty easy. I said goodbye to Teddy then loaded my bags into my car before driving to the airport. I felt alone. This was something I had done so much with Adeel, I needed him here. He was giving me space to cope with the loss, but I hadn't felt that yet. I was actually looking forward to this weeks raw, it was in New York. I always had this weird love for it when I was a child. Maybe this could be my new home.
My ribs were still painful after only breaking them a week ago, but I was still getting in the ring. People recognised me at the airport, which was weird. They mostly recognised me when Adeel was with me. People asked me for photos and I tried to smile. I was focusing on my match tonight. I was going to destroy Nikki Bella. But I had to get in the ring first. My ribs weren't healed, and Adeel didn't want me in the ring. I needed to prove something, prove that I needed that title shot.
I was happy when I landed in New York, I had people to talk to apart from my own thoughts. Today Adeel and I had a segment. It was happening before my match and after Adeel's. I was meeting Nattie at the airport since I hadn't driven around New York before. I spotted her at my flights baggage claim, holding her own bags.
"CJ!" She yelled as I walked over to her. "I haven't spoken to you for ages."
I had been spending a lot of time with Adeel lately.
"I know, I've been so busy with the mixed match lately" I said, looking away from her.
"I know, I'm going to kick your ass" she laughed. Our next mixed match was against Nattie and Kevin Ownes.
"We'll see" I smirked, grabbing my bag off the belt.
"How are your ribs?" She asked as we walked towards the car.
"They're good." I didn't want her to know it was my weak spot.
"Taking on Bella" she said, putting her bags in the boot. "It's going to be a good match."
"Oh it is" I smirked, putting my bag in. "When I beat her."
It was funny how everything had become about a championship. I didn't care if I didn't become number one contender right away, I just didn't want to lose the match when I got it.
"Have you thought about joining?" She asked me as she drove. I was about to ask her what she meant when I saw the camera. I was always on total divas when I was with Nattie.
"Maybe" I shrugged. "I'm on it now aren't I?"
I laughed.
We talked about previous nights out on the way to the arena, Nattie telling me the times the Bellas were drunk. I still think she's fake. We pulled up at the arena just as everyone else was. All of us were walking around and into each other. Normally, we all arrive at different times but today we arrived at the same time. I was looking for Adeel as we walked to the women's locker room.
I read the script as I got changed, looking over the suggested things to talk about. There wasn't a lot of talking, just Adeel having me up against a wall and his face close to mine. I wore my new ring gear, which was exactly the same as my black one but pink. The rips in the pants were the same, with pink fishnet behind them.
I walked through the halls, trying to find Adeel. I stopped when I saw Roman Reigns, Dean Ambrose and Seth Rollins outside the mens locker room.
"Have you guys seen Adeel?" I asked as I approached them. They all looked at me with smirks.
"Who?" Seth smirked, winking at me. He knew.
"Mustafa" I said, taking a step back.
"Think he went to catering" Roman said, eyeing me. I nodded and walked away.
I was walking towards catering when an arm pulled me into someone and pulled me a corner. I moved to elbow them but they dodged me.
"Roo" Adeel whispered, making me stop.
"What are you doing?" I asked, spinning around.
"Looking for you" he smirked, "I want a good luck kiss."
I rolled my eyes before kissing him. "I'll see you after my match" he winked.
I waited around, sitting on a crate whilst Adeel's matched finished. I was nervous for our segment. I thought about how people would respond.
"All alone?" I looked up to see ziggler standing in front of me.
"For now" I said, looking down.
"She's spoken for ziggler" Seth said as he walked past, ziggler leaving in the other direction.
"Thanks!" I called out to Seth who stopped and turned around.
"Lover boys coming" he winked before he continued walking.
Adeel walked down, looking tired. "Hey you" he smirked, wrapping his arms around me.
"Hey" I whispered as he pulled me off the crate.
"Ready for our moment?" The cameras appeared and someone behind them gave us a signal. I nodded and leant against the wall like I was suppose too.
"Nervous for your match?" Adeel smirked as the camera came closer.
I shook my head as his face came closer to mine. "No" I whispered.
The camera came closer as Adeel's forehead was nearly touching mine.
"Well" he said, putting a hand on my waist, "how about you and I celebrate with dinner?" He suggested. His other hand rested near my head on the wall.
"Only if you're paying" I winked, leaning closer. Adeel smirked at me and leant closer before the camera cut off and they walked away.
"Good luck with your match" he whispered, holding my waist. "Make me proud" he said before kissing me.
I heard and gasp and pulled away to see the shield and a female wrestler whose name I didn't know standing in the hall. The three men held a smirk as they already knew.
"I'll see you later"'Adeel whispered before walking away as I was called to the gorilla.
I waited for Nikki to do her stupid entrance before I simply walked down the ramp, hi fiving a few fans. Charlotte sat ringside watching the match for whatever reason. As the bell rung all I knew was I had to protect my midsection.
I treated this match like it was a championship match. I kicked out of a pin for what felt like the sixth time. I couldn't decide if it wanted to win by pin or submission. She aimed a kick towards my midsection, but I grabbed her leg. She panicked as I held onto to it, making her nearly loose her balance. I could see Adeel smirking that I finally countered.
I wasn't sure what I did next but I knocked her to the ground and twisted her leg making her scream. Did I created a submission hold? She reached for the rope but I had her in the middle of the ring. I looked up and saw Charlotte smirking. I laughed as she tapped and the bell rung. The referee held my hand and I smirked down at the whiny fake laying on the mat.
Adeel was waiting for me as soon as I walked backstage. "Told you" he whispered as he hugged me. "And that counter" he said, pulling away. "I'm proud" he said with a smirk.
We walked to the locker room, my hand in his. He had already changed. "I'll get my bag and meet you here" he said before heading to the men's locker room.
I walked in with a smile, opening my bag to pull out clothes.
"You're seeing Mustafa?"
I stopped and turned to see Nattie behind me. Should I say no? "I knew it" she mumbled. "You look at him with love" she said before waking away.
People knew.
I changed and walked out of the locker room, to see Adeel. He took my bag and my hand as we walked out of the arena.
"How long have the shield known?" I asked a we got to his rental.
"Since our second mixed match" he said as he out our bags in the boot. "How about dinner and then we sleep?" He asked with a laugh.
I nodded my head, getting in the car. His hand held mine as he drove. I won one of the best matches of my career and had the man next to me that means so much.
"You know Roo," he said, making me look at him. "We need to talk about it."
"I know" I whispered.