Lights.
Bright lights.
Silence.
Dusty, funky smelling air.
It was hard to breathe.
Where was I?
Hell?
No..
Heaven?
Don't think that there is funky air in heaven..
Yes, I did believe in heaven.
I didn't fully believe in god but I trusted him.
I trusted him, that we'd go to a better place when he decided that it was time.
I believed in that.
And I believed in 'Everything Happens For A Reason'.
You know, I thought about that life seems as so, it is like a movie.
The good- and the bad things were arranged together, so that in the end..
Everything was perfectly in place.
I sat up in my bed at the hospital, white lights beaming straight into my face.
Well that was good... not..
"Ray", Matty sprinted over to me.
"What the actual hell?!", I said with tired eyes.
"You're at a hospital, love. You're save", he smiled and tucked a streek of hair behind my right ear.
"What happened?", I whispered.
Did I fall?
Was I ingured?
Oh god, I actually thought, this is it.
The end.
But no, it wasn't.
Fortunately..
"You had a break down, love", he said concerned with a half-smile.
"Oh", I said "well, could be worse", I smiled and put my head back onto my rather not so soft pillow.
I mean seriously!
Why not invest in some nice, compfy pillows instead of extra carpets on the floor.
Like, who needs carpets on the floors if you just lay in bed, anyways, where as a soft pillow.. YOU ACTUALLY LIE ON FOR 24/7!!!!!!!
"Sleep, love, sleep", he said and sat back in his chair.
After about thirty minutes of compfortable silence I spoke up quietly.
"You know what?", I said shyly.
"What's that?", he said looking up at me.
"I thought I was dead", I had a sad impression on my face and I saw him tear up a little.
"You thought what?", he said and a tear rolled down his left cheek and fell to the floor.
"I accepted the fact, that I was dead", I said playing with my hands.
"Don't do that", he said quietly.
"If you die, I die", he said just loud enough for me to hear.
I started sobbing and was just tearing up.
The fact that he would die if I'd die made me love him double and tripple as much as I did before, which was to McDonald's and back.
Then I fell asleep again.
Deep sleep.
I loved him.
Endlessly.