Disjointed Heart

By BennodasKittens

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Chester Bennington, 21, is finally out of the institution where he stayed most of his life. The outside world... More

Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty One
Chapter Twenty Two
Chapter Twenty Three
Chapter Twenty Four
Chapter Twenty Five
Chapter Twenty Six
Chapter Twenty Seven
Chapter Twenty Eight
Chapter Twenty Nine
Chapter Thirty
Epilogue

Chapter Twelve

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Mike didn't have time to prepare for the date like he had done yesterday, as he was still in his clothes he had worn for his work day. He would take a shower once he would get home, for now, he was just happy that he had managed to buy groceries to cook dinner for Chester, and that the bags weren't taking much space on his bike since he could put them after the handles.

He had seen the young man this morning and they had both been overly happy to see each other again.

"Still on for tonight?" Mike had asked after Chester had kissed him.

This was a new feeling for the both of them and Mike felt like he wasn't the only one with a racing heart right now.

"Of course! I can't wait... Are we going to go out again?" the blonde man asked with a small voice and Mike knew that it would be too much for Chester to go out two days in a row.

"No, we'll go to my place tonight, if that's okay with you?"

Chester smiled so brightly, Mike was sure his heart was about to combust.

He finally arrived at Chester's place and took his grocery bags with him as he took the elevator since it was faster than running the stairs to the blonde's floor.

Before he could even knock at the door, it swung open and Chester jumped in his arms, kissing his whole face until he kissed his lips slowly, taking his time to taste the other's mouth.

"Wow, what a reception!" Mike chuckled as he kissed his lover's nose. "How did you know I was here?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.

"I heard the elevator and I knew it was you!" Chester beamed, not bothering to hide his excitement through his voice or shiny eyes.

Mike took a minute to just admire the beauty in front of him and got out of breath by the stunning looks of the blonde. He was wearing gray jeans and a white shirt with a black leather jacket, in his feet he wore combat boots. Mike had to hold on the door frame to not fall on his ass.

"Ches... you look-"

"Is it bad? I mean, I tried to look good for you because you're so nice and beautiful and I wanted to look good too so you could have a good looking boyfriend and-" Chester started to babble but Mike kissed him to interrupt his ramble.

"You look stunning, I've never seen anyone more beautiful." Mike assured him with a smile and just then he realized that Chester had called him his boyfriend and therefore asked, "did you call me your... boyfriend?"

"I... y-yes, s-sorry." The blonde looked down with a pout on his lips, waiting for a complaint from his lover, but instead, he received a hug. A tight, warm hug.

"Don't be sorry, I would love to be your boyfriend." He smiled and held Chester's hand in his. "Shall we get going, mister?" He wiggled his brows playfully and Chester giggled, grabbing his keys and locking the door before going with the half Asian.

"What are we going to do tonight?" asked the blonde man as he put on the helmet that Mike was handing to him.

"That's a surprise, Ches, you're gonna have to wait and see." The older man pouted, which produced a loud laugh out the half Asian's lips. "You are way too cute when you do that."

Chester blushed at the compliment before he sat on the bike, waiting for Mike to hop on. Even if he had been scared the first time he had gotten on the motorcycle with Mike, he couldn't deny that he had been waiting for the chance to ride with the other again. The wind blowing in his face and the fact that he could hold on tightly to the half Asian really made him feel more free.

A part of him couldn't help but think that dating Mike wasn't going to change anything to his life and that he'd forever be unable to connect with other people after all, but another part of him wanted to trust that maybe Mike would help him to heal.

Not that he dared to hope that far.

"We're here."

Chester frowned, cursing himself, as he had been so lost in his thoughts that he hadn't even enjoy the ride. He reluctantly let go of Mike before he took off the helmet and followed his boyfriend to his place. His heart started beating faster while his eyes widened as he realized that he would visit Mike's apartment without actually panicking this time.

"Are you okay?" Mike asked softly as he noticed Chester's wide eyes and the blonde nodded furiously before smiling brightly.

The half Asian got the groceries and put away their helmets before holding Chester's hand on his own and entering his building. In the elevator he could feel the happiness and excitement radiating from the blonde and his heart warmed as he held his boyfriend with his free hand by the cheek and stole a quick kiss, not even caring about the newly installed camera on the elevator.

Chester giggled and pecked Mike's lips once more before the doors opened and the half Asian led the way to his door, letting go of Chester's hand for just one second so he could grab his keys and open his door.

As soon as they got in, Mike dropped his bags on the kitchen's counter and Chester took in the view of the other's apartment, since last time he had been way too panicked to do anything. It was incredible how things changed. The last time he had been here was when he first started to feel things for Mike and now he was his boyfriend. The blonde couldn't help but smile to himself.

"What are you thinking about?" The deliverer asked as he hugged his boyfriend from behind. The latter one flinched but soon relaxed and leaned into the touch.

"Nothing." He blushed looking down.

"You can tell me." Mike chuckled and kissed his cheek, inhaling his scent.

"It's just... how things have changed. The last time I was here was when... when I first started f-feeling things for you." He blurted out and closed his eyes tightly as his entire face became red and he waited for a reaction of Mike.

"Really?" The half Asian asked as he squeezed Chester's middle. "Well, we started having feelings for each other around the same time, then, that's wonderful."

The older man turned around before he kissed Mike passionately on the lips, and the delivery man couldn't help but moan into Chester's mouth as he was surprised about his boyfriend's reaction. It slowly become tender, before Mike smiled and pushed the blonde man gently away.

"As much as I'd like to kiss you forever, you must be getting hungry, right?" As if on cue, the stomach of Chester's growled and Mike laughed as the other man blushed again. "I thought that I could cook us something tonight. You can watch TV or read a book while I do that and I'll warn you when it will be ready."

"But I want to help-"

"Not tonight, Ches. Tonight, you relax. I promise next time we can cook together if you want."

The blonde man smiled widely at Mike as his heart couldn't helped but be warmed by the fact that Mike was already looking forward to their next date. He went to the library and grabbed a random book before he sat at the table while the half Asian heated the burner on the stove. As he was moving around the kitchen, he noticed that Chester's eyes were following him as the blonde man only made it look like he was reading so he could stare at Mike, and the delivery man couldn't help but chuckle at that.

He decided on not commenting anything about that since he knew Chester would be embarrassed, so instead he just cut the fish he had bought and hoped that his sushi would be good and that Chester would like it.

His thoughts wandered around the blonde man and he sighed satisfied. He had really become as close as he could get to him and he finally felt like Chester was letting him in. Even if it would take some time, he was willing to wait for them to get intimate and to know more about his dark past.

He remembered when he had fainted and started to scream a name: Mark. He frowned but shook his head. He just hoped this guy would never come back to Chester's or his life.

He let his thoughts wander to his work and his boss. What would Talinda do if she found out about them? Would she fire him? Chester was more important than his job anyway, so he didn't mind that much, even though he didn't think she'd do that.

When he came back to reality, he noticed that everything was already set and he smiled proudly to see that it looked yummy. Chester carefully walked to him with a curious look on his face and smiled at the sight of his favorite dish.

"How did you know Japanese was my favorite?" He beamed and gasped.

"Really? Well, I have superpowers I hadn't told you about." Mike joked and smiled again, grabbing the soy sauce and two pairs of chopsticks for them. "We have yakisoba as a side dish too."

Chester's eyes started to twinkle at that, not only did he have the privilege to taste Mike's food, but he would also enjoy a night of Japanese food. "This looks sooo good, thank you, Mike."

The other man brought the last dish over before he sat down at the table. "I hope you'll like it."

The blonde man nodded as he took some food and put it on his plate, before he took his chopsticks in his hand. Mike started eating a piece of sushi before he noticed that Chester was staring at his food, biting on his lower lip, without actually moving.

"Ches?"

The older man looked up and when his eyes landed on Mike, he suddenly blushed even more than before as he shifted uncomfortably in his chair, staring at his hand.

"I ... I ... I don't know how to use chopsticks." He whispered.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I thought... Here, I'll show you." said the half Asian as he got up from his chair before he sat down next to Chester and took his hand in his. "You put the first chopstick between your thumb and your middle finger." Mike said, as he put his fingers on the blonde man's fingers to show him how to hold the first chopstick. "And then, you put the second one between your thumb and your index finger." He placed the other man's fingers accordingly, as Chester kept blushing at their proximity. "And, you only have to grab your piece of sushi and squeezed it between the two chopsticks."

Chester did as he was told as Mike let go of his hand, and to his surprise, he actually managed to grab the food without any incident as he chewed on it happily.

"See, it's easy!" Mike said as he smiled, before he leaned toward his boyfriend and swipe his thumb on the corner of the young man's mouth, before he brought it to his own lips, as Chester looked at him, surprised. "Sorry, you had some rice..." The half Asian chuckled before he got up and sat down at his chair.

"O-oh." Chester blushed again. He had lost count of how many times he had blushed that day because of Mike. He hated the fact that he blushed so easily but with Mike it didn't feel uncomfortable, he didn't mind it.
"It's delicious, Mike. I didn't know you could cook." Chester complimented, hoping to see a smile on the other's face. His smile was the most beautiful thing Chester had ever seen and he always wanted to see it again and again.

"Thanks, Ches. I... try my best." He smiled and looked down at his plate, eating another sushi.

After they finished their dishes, Mike put everything away and told Chester to wait for him on the couch as he tidied the kitchen. Of course the blonde insisted to help him but the half Asian had denied everything, saying that it was his house and Chester should just relax today.

When Mike finally got out of the kitchen he was surprised to see Chester softly humming to a Depeche Mode song while playing guitar. It wasn't tuned but his voice still sounded amazing and the deliverer was hypnotized by his boyfriend's movements. Chester was so concentrated that he didn't even notice that Mike had been watching him during the whole song until he finished playing it with a satisfied smile on his face and put the instrument away, looking up and gasping at the sight of his boyfriend.

"H-have you been watching me?"

"I'm sorry. I just... got hypnotized. You're so talented and beautiful." Mike's eyes were glowing as he realized how lucky he was to have Chester in his life and as his boyfriend.

"I'm really not... but thanks." The blonde blushed and looked at his lap as the deliverer sat beside him.

"What song was that?"

"Stripped."

"I didn't know you played."

"I... used to play when I was thirteen... before I got into the clinic. That is one of the only songs I remember how to play." He explained with a small, sad smile. Mike's face fell as he saw how gloomy the mood suddenly was and he decided to do something to change it.

"Do you want me to teach you something?" He offered with a hopeful smile and Chester gazed at him with shiny eyes.

"You would?" He asked, dreamy.

"Of course I would! Whatever you want, Ches. Just choose a song and I'll help you. I have some magazines with chords of some songs. I'll get them." Mike jumped from the couch and went to his room, coming back with at least ten magazines and dropping them on the coffee table. "Take a look and choose something." Mike encouraged and Chester hesitantly started to flip through the pages of a magazine.

After looking through four of the magazines, Chester finally decided on a song. "That's the one! Seven Caged Tigers by Stone Temple Pilots." He said pointing at the page and showing it to Mike, who analyzed it quickly and nodded.

"Okay, I'm gonna tune this and then we can start." He smiled and Chester waited patiently, observing as Mike poked his tongue out of his mouth as he concentrated on hearing the sound of each string. "Done!" The half Asian suddenly said and Chester jumped a little in surprise, making the other chuckle and apologize.

"How do I start? I don't really know many chords..." he admitted embarrassed but Mike only grinned softly.

"The first chord is E minor, you just have to put your index and middle fingers here and here." The deliverer explained as he positioned Chester's fingertips carefully over the strings. "Now try it." He encouraged and Chester successfully made a clean sound. He beamed and looked at Mike, waiting for a reaction from him.

"That was great, Ches! Okay, the next one is D major. You have to-" he started but stopped talking as Chester had already positioned his fingers correctly on the strings.

"I already knew that one." He giggled and succeeded again in making a clean sound. It was easier than Mike thought and when he noticed, Chester had successfully played half of the song, only having some difficulties in changing the B minor chord to the E major at a few parts.

"My fingers hurt." He whined quietly as he looked at his reddened fingertips.

"Let me." Mike said and grabbed his hand, opening his palm and spreading his fingertips before kissing each of them, not once breaking eye contact with his blushing boyfriend.

"T-thanks." Chester mumbled.

"It was easy, wasn't it?" Mike asked, now massaging the blonde's hands.

"Yes, easier than I thought. Since I'm left handed I-"

"Wait, you're left handed?! Ches! Why didn't you warn me? I could've changed the strings for you." Mike said, smiling amused. He was even more shocked now with the other's talent.

"Well... when I was a kid I only had a common guitar and I didn't know how to change the strings so... I had to get used to it." He explained.

"You're amazing, Chester." said Mike as he felt his heart swell at knowing how talented his boyfriend was.

The blonde man lowered his head, blushing. "I'm just average-"

"What are you talking about, you learned Japanese and guitar by yourself, I think we know who's the smartest between us two."

"You." Chester said, suddenly looking back at Mike, who shook his head.

"You're underestimating yourself. Seriously, Chester, you have so much talent."

"I..." The blonde man began, trying to find his words. "I don't take compliments well, I've... never really had them before and, I just-"

"It's okay." Mike said. "You don't have to answer anything. But you should get use to being complimented from now on because I won't stop whenever the chance will arise."

Chester put the guitar aside as he was about to get up to try and fight the thoughts from his mind that Mike was lying to him, and soon he would turn on the blonde man, just like the others, but he didn't have time as he felt Mike lifting his small body and positioning him so Chester was now sitting on Mike's legs.

"Mike, what are you-"

"I just wanted to do this." He said as he took the chin of the blonde hand between his fingers to turn the young man's face toward him, before he kissed him tenderly on the lips, hugging his waist with his free hand.

Chester's heart started beating faster as he slowly began to feel safe again, before he smiled against Mike's lips.

Mike looked at his watch and sighed before pecking Chester's lips once again. "It's getting late, I should probably give you a ride home."

"Oh." The half Asian didn't noticed that his boyfriend's face fell as he had close his eyes while kissing Chester's cheek, but the latter only nodded. "Yeah, okay." He didn't want to impose on Mike either.

The blonde man got up from his lover's legs before Mike followed him as they got ready to leave. While the half Asian was locking the front door, Chester quickly took his hand back into his, squeezing it a bit. He truly loved holding the other man's hand and he wished they could have stayed a bit longer together.

"Do you want me to head over earlier to your place tomorrow?" the half Asian asked as they rode down the elevator, and Chester's smile came back.

"Yes! Please. Anytime you're early, really."

Mike chuckled before he leaned a bit toward Chester as he nodded. The elevator stopped and they both got out of the building, as Chester asked what kind of music Mike was into. The ride home was too quick, but Chester made sure to truly enjoy it this time, as he felt the warmth of the delivery man's body against his, while wishing he could rub his nose into the other man's nape.

When Mike finally stopped in front of Chester's place, the other didn't let go immediately and the half Asian took off his helmet.

"Ches..."

"Please, come up with me? Just for a while, I just... I want to be with you again a bit." He said, as he reluctantly let go of Mike to take his own helmet off.

Mike smiled at that before running his hand into the blond man's hair, as they were out of place. "Of course."

Chester smiled brightly as he hoped off the engine and Mike followed him inside.

As soon as they got in, Chester locked the door and sighed tiredly. "Hey, do you mind if I take a quick shower? You can do whatever to wait for me. I promise it won't take more than five minutes."

"Of course. I'll be right here, now go take your shower, Ches." Mike winked and flopped on the couch, turning on the TV.

Chester quickly grabbed some pajamas and went into his bathroom. He could still listen to the tv in the background when he started the water and he made sure to be thorough but quick while washing himself. Not more than five minutes later, he was drying himself off and putting on his grey sweatpants and white, overly sized t-shirt.

With his towel on his shoulder, he made his way to the couch and called Mike's name softly, but got no answer. He frowned and looked at the man to find him sleeping. The blonde chuckled and sat down beside him. Mike looked so beautiful when he was asleep. He observed his lover closely and noticed every single detail on his face, his full lips, his pointy nose, his long black lashes, the beard on his chin. Everything about him just made him even more perfect to Chester.

With his index finger, Chester softly started to trace the half Asian's features, making him scrunch his face up and open his sleepy eyes.

"Hey, come sleep on the bed, you're tired." Chester said with a chuckle.

"No... it's okay, I can go back home-"

"No, Mike. You're tired and... a-and I want to cuddle." He blushed once again and looked at his hands.

"Okay. Let's go then." Mike smiled softly and got up, bringing Chester with him and giving him one last kiss before going to bed.

The deliverer stripped out of his clothes and got into bed, his arms open as Chester laid his head on his chest and nuzzled his neck. Without another word, they both fell into a peaceful sleep, and for the first time in several months, Chester was able to have a good night's sleep.

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