It's Wednesday, 7 p.m. almost 3 weeks have passed since I first met Shawn. 18 days to be accurate. So much has happened in the last couple of weeks.
I studied. Spent some time with my friends. I talked on the phone with Shawn. I studied some more. And now Alex, Rachel and I are sitting on the couch watching TVD, one of our favorite shows.
But I can't help and think about Shawn. He was supposed to come about 2 weeks ago (10 days ) but he couldn't make it he had interviews and whatnot. And then last week he had another few shows but now I don't know how but he has another week off. And he decided to not go to his family, I don't get it. He said he'll come in tomorrow night. He has only 1 week with me. And then he goes back on tour. Is it weird I feel that I want him to be with his parents and family for this week? Instead of with me? I feel like I'm stealing him away. We don't know each other that well and not for long enough for him to choose me over his family. And with those thoughts in mind, I can't help my excitement that he will be here tomorrow night.
I wish I could go with him on tour. I laugh to myself. That's just not realistic. I'm in college. I can't just stop my life for him. Let's say I went on tour with him. What if we won't work out? I dropped out of college to be with him, and now I'm not with him and not in college. I laugh to myself again. We know each other for a month more or less. I'm thinking about going on tour with him? I shake my head at that thought. Why am I even thinking about this?
"Why are you laughing and acting like a crazy person?" Rachel asks. I laugh again.
"it's nothing, I just thought about something funny," I tell her.
She rolls her eyes at me. "Ok... so are we going out tonight? I heard there is this bar like 10 minutes away... Marco something..." she says.
"Can't. I have planes with Dylan." Alex is fast to say no. I can't say I'm surprised when Dylan's involved.
It looks like they are getting really serious. Again.
I'm happy for her. But I know he is not the one for her. Last time it was just... not right. He treated us, her friends like we were nothing and she always chose him over us... I hope this is a one-time thing and if they'll actually get back together she won't choose him over us all the time.
"I'm down," I say. "I'll call Jeremy and Ben" I add.
"What about Maya?" Rachel asks. Rachel doesn't know about Maya and Darren. I think I don't remember if I told her or not. It just... I still don't feel so comfortable around her, I know I forgave her. But still, it's weird. I'm not sure how to act around her. We are cool now but it will take me some more time to trust him again.
Shawn and I are just two different people I guess. I just need more time.
"Yeah her too," I say.
I call Jeremy: "nope. Can't tonight. Sorry. Maybe tomorrow." Super suspicious.
I call Ben: "Sorry I have planes tonight." I pout.
I call Maya: "Hell yeah. Be there in 30 minutes."
"So I guess it's a girls night," I say as I hang up with Maya. "without me," Alex says. "it still is a girls' night" Rachel points out. I laugh at the face Alex does.
I put my phone down so we can continue watching our show but before I do so, I get a text and just as I hoped, it's from Shawn.
- "babe?" -
Did he just call me babe? That's new. I kind of like it.
- "yes...?" –
I feel my cheeks reddening.
- "I just landed. On my way to the hotel. I ordered an Uber to come and pick you up in half an hour." –
I freeze. WAIT! WHAT?
I reread the text to make sure my eyes aren't betraying me. So soon? I thought he was supposed to come tomorrow. I squeak.
- "Is this a joke? I thought you were supposed to come tomorrow night." –
If he is messing with me I'll be pissed.
- "It's not a joke. I can't wait to see you" –
His text makes me smile wider. Oh my god.
I squeak again shaking my phone close to my heart out of happiness. I can't believe he is coming back to me. Oh my god!
"What? What happened?" Rachel asks. Oh. I stop shaking my phone and I try to hide my enormous smile.
"Nothing. I forgot I have plans. I can't come tonight." I say quickly.
"What?!" Rachel laughs. "Sorry I have planes." Please let met me go.
"What fucking plans? You didn't any plans 3 seconds ago." She says.
"I forgot" I lie. "I'm sorry. If this wasn't really important, you know I would come with you guys." I say. "I mean, girls" I smile.
"are you serious?" she asks.
"Sorry," I say walking to the shower. Before I get in I put a timer for 20 minutes. I'm out of the shower in no time. The timer says 7 more minutes. I need something to wear, I want to ask Alex for help on what I should wear.. I want something sexy. But if I'll ask her to help me out she will be very suspicious and she'll start asking questions I don't have time to answer.
I eventually pick myself an outfit. I'm wearing an eggplant purple bra with the same color underwear and a really nice sort of summery dress. It's a hot day. It's a baby blue dress... It's so pretty and elegant... It's also a bit sexy. It's the perfect dress. I'm so excited! I'm also very proud of my choice. I put some perfume and high heels. The timer beeps and it's 20 minutes...
"Bye," I say quickly as I'm already out of the door. I walk outside to wait for the Uber. I feel the excitement rushing through me. I can't believe this is actually happening, I was expecting him to come only tomorrow and also than I wasn't sure if this was all real.
It's been 5 more minutes and finally, the Uber comes, and I hope in.
All the way to the hotel I feel ecstatic. I want to see him already!
As I look out the window, I feel like we missed the turn... weren't we supposed to turn here? Odd. Maybe I remember it wrong. It's been a while since I came to this hotel. Or maybe it's a different hotel. I exhale. It's probably a different hotel.
My phone pings and there is another text from Shawn. I smile before I even open it.
- "Uber is a bit late. I'm sorry. I know." -
My smile fades away. WAIT. What does he mean by 'the Uber is a bit late'!? So I'm driving with a guy who isn't the Uber driver?
I want to say something to Shawn but I just don't know what. Am I being kidnapped? What? That's outrageous. Who would want to kidnap me? Why? I have no idea what is happening.
I can't tell Shawn about this. Right? I am terrified right now. Maybe I should call him?
"You can stop here, thank you," I say as we get closer to a bus stop. I just have to get off this car!!
"NO!" The driver yells.
"Excuse me?" I swallow. I'm trying to sound like I am completely under control. "This is where I need. Can you please stop the car?"
He isn't answering. Fuck. That's it I'm going to die. I open my phone and I'm about to call The police when he finally stops the car in the middle of nowhere.. a bit far from the bus stop.
As soon as the car is fully stopped I get the fuck out of the car and I start walking away when I turn around I see he is out of the car just standing there watching me.
I turn around not looking back at him again and I start walking faster. Wait for a second...
I stop. And I glance over once more. His figure looks familiar. His injured stare looks familiar.
"Darren?" I yell. And he takes his hat off to show me that it is him. What the fuck?
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I yell. He walks towards me and I take a few steps backward even though I'm pretty far away from him. "I almost called the cops you fucking idiot! I thought I was being kidnapped" I stare at him. his face completely blank. I feel so violated. I was so scared. Terrified.
"Why did you-" I stop. "How did you know I was waiting for a ride?" I ask.
He's just standing there. Watching me. Not saying a word.