Tw: um... Depressing thoughts? (I'll put warnings in the chapter and a summary after)
Evan's POV
My heart was a mess. It beat erratically, thumping against the walls. I was extremely flustered and embarrassed.
Connor had kissed me!
I let out a squeal before clamping a hand over my mouth and seeing if anyone heard.
Then I remember that Connor had misunderstood me and was currently upset.
I race down the halls, desperate to find him.
Half an hour passed when I finally find him. He's reading a poster.
"Connor!" I call.
His head whips around and I saw a flash of fear in his eyes before it dissolves to anger.
"What the f*ck do you want, Evan?" He hisses.
My heart pounds. "I... I just- Like, I wanted to.. Um.. Let you know that-"
"I already know you don't f*cking like me!" He seeths.
"That's not-! I didn't mean-"
I hear an impact and my left cheek stings. I bring a hand to my cheek.
Was I.... Slapped?
I look to see Connor standing there with his hand frozen in mid-air.
He seems horrified of what he just did.
"Evan, I'm so sorry- I...," Connor starts, before shaking his head. "Why do I keep messing everything up?" He laughs painfully before taking off running.
"Connor, wait!" I cry, running after him.
He ignores my plea.
He disappears around the corner. When I turn, he is nowhere to be found.
This frightens me, because I know that this isn't a good time for Connor to be alone. He was injured, and upset.
I ask nearby people if they had seen Connor, and they don't know or they haven't. For the next half hour, I keep asking and searching for him.
Defeated, I trudge back to Connors hospital room, only to find that i can't open the door.
It definitely wasn't locked, because I could to turn the handle. Did that mean something was pushing the door closed?
"Connor," I ask, "Are you... Is that you?"
On the side, I hear sniffling.
He's crying.
"Connor, can you open the door, please," I beg.
No answer.
"Connor, just- please!"
"Leave me alone."
I scowl.
Fine! I spent an hour trying to find him, and this is the respect I get?
I turn and stomp away.
Before I'm five feet away, a gutteral scream pierces my heart.
"Don't leave me alone!" He cries.
Any distaste I had for him immediately vanishes as I run into the room.
Connor is curled up into a small ball on the floor. His hair is disheveled and he was hugging his legs, almost protectively.
I instantly rush to his side. "Connor, I'm right here," I soothe, sitting down next to him.
Silent tears race down his face. "I'm sorry," he croaks.
"What- why are you sorry? You don't- you have nothing to be sorry for," I calm.
"I do."
Warning!!!!
"Because I all I do is mess everything up!" With that, tears slip faster.
"Connor, that's not-! please don't say that!"
"All I do is ruin everything!"
"Connor, please don't-"
"And everything's my fault. My family is miserable because of me and that's why they stopped visiting. They don't care, they don't want me anymore and they just want me to go away and dissap-"
End of warning
(So basically Connor says he ruined family's lives and that's why they stopped visiting)
I wrap my arms around him, squeezing him. " You did nothing wrong," I whisper.
"No, I-"
"Shh," I hush him.
His tears start falling slower than before.
"Everything will... Everything is fine, Connor," I soothe, "you didn't ruin anything at all."
He wipes his eyes with his sleeve, his tears coming to a stop.
"Connor?" I ask, still hugging him.
"Hmm?"
I let go of him and take a breath before saying, "I.. I love you too."
He stiffens and blushes. "What?"
I blush. "I said... Umm... That..."
He cups my face a pair of lips smash into mine.
(A/n: btw i have no romantic experience whatsoever so... idk how stuff like this work.... and everything I know about romance is from anime or reading fanfics or bl doujinshi🤣)
I gently cup Connor's face and pull him closer.
We were so distracted that we fail to hear the knocking on the door.
"Oh my bath bombs!" Jared screeches.
Connor and I scramble apart, both of us a blushing mess.
"Dude!" Jared laughs, "I didn't know you guys hooked up!"
I redden. "We aren't da-"
"-Bro, you two just kissed!"
I fall silent, hiding my face with my hands in embarrassment.
Connor laughs. "Aw, Ev, you're so adorable."
"Ooh, pet names," Jared coos, "kinky!"
"Jared!" I groan.
Jared leans over to me. "When's the wedding?" He whispers.
I flush. "Ah...um... i..."
Arms wrap around me from behind, startling me. Connor's face sits on my shoulder.
"What are-Connor!" I squeak.
"Wow, you two are, like, super gay," Jared observes, "I'll just leave so you two can... Enjoy yourselves," he winks. As he goes out the door, he turns back and says, "Use protection!" Before going out.
"Oh my fern," I gasp as Connor wheezes.
An awkward silence passes.
"So," Connor starts, "what now?"
"Um..."
"Should we continue?" He asks, giving me a quick peck on the cheek.
As much as I wanted to continue, I had to pee. Really badly.
I shouldn't have drunk so many cups from that water dispenser.
I don't want to ruin the moment, either...
"Uh...I..."
"Yeah?"
"I have to pee," I blurt.
Connor snorts. "Way to kill the mood, Ev," he teases.
I blush. "Well I, I... I drunk too much water so-"
"-Alright, just go pee already," Connor laughs.
I scurry to the bathroom.
Connors POV
On the bed, I scroll though Instagram, seeing what social people are up to.
My eye catches on a username.
Connor Murphy.
I don't remember making an actual account with my name...
I tap on the username which prompts me to their posts.
I stare at the posts in awe.
He had f*cking abs. Heck, he was ripped.
I raised my shirt up a bit and peered down at my stomach.
I definitely don't have abs.
I tapped on more profiles with my name. One of then was married, another just graduated, one a football player.
Then I closed my phone and set it down.
Man, these Connor Murphys make me look bad.
The bathroom door clicks open.
Evan pops out and takes a seat next to me. "Um, hi."
I raise an eyebrow. "Hi?"
"What's, um, what are you doing?
"Instagram, stalking people with my name," I reply.
"Oh. Does... He has abs?!" Evan exclaims.
"Yes, he does," I confirm, "and I don't."
Evan stares in awe. "Well, actually, It's... I'm glad you don't have abs."
"What? Why?" I ask.
"Its just that... He looks pretty intimidating," Evan admits.
I blink. "How?"
"The abs," Evan states, "It's so... He's just... Too muscular."
"So you don't like abs?"
"Not really, I guess."
"That's good."
"I guess."
Awkward silence.
"Well, what do you want to do now?" I ask, leaning on my arms on the bed and facing the ceiling.
Evan joins me. "What do you want to do?"
"I asked first."
Evan giggles. "Fine, fine... Hmm..."
We turn to face reach other and our faces are 2 inches apart.
We blush.
"Um.." Evan stammers.
"Can I kiss you?" I whisper.
WAIT. NO. HORMONES NO. WHY DID I JUST SAY THAT ASDFHHJLZGMDY-
"I- yes, yes you can," he replies, smiling shyly.
Right as I bring my lips to his, the door swings open.
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A/n: 1275 words (this doesn't count)!! Vote, comment and/or follow if you want, but its completely your choice.
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I have tons of schoolwork to do including three quizzes an a project due tomorrow, so I decided to update today so you guys wouldn't be waiting for like, 5 or 6 more days. (This might mean I won't update until like, Friday or something... sorry)
Btw yesterday was my little brother's birthday so now he's 13.
11-4-18