Jahseh's Pov
"Fuck...LIAH WAIT"I yelled running after her
Once I reached downstairs I saw her running out the door.I hurried up and caught the door before it closed and ran outside catching up with her.
It was still raining and thundering outside so I was get wet all over again.Before Liah could grab her key and unlock the door I called her name and she slowly turned around as tears poured down her face.
" I-I shouldn't have kissed you I'm s-"
"It's not you Jahseh...(sighs) look once we're finished this project I c-Can't be friends with you anymore..matter of fact just lose my number after we're done"She said.
Her words actually stung,but I didn't want her to think I actually cared or that it hurt me a little when she said that.
I swallowed hard "Okay"I said before turning around and walking back over to my house.
I walked back in the house and slowly closed the door.I walked up my room and started writing...
Liah pov
30 minuets later
After a 20 minuet shower I found myself on the phone FaceTiming with Jay and the gang!
Jay was the homie! Back at home in Chicago it was a gang Nahmir,Jay,Manny,Glizzy and Cordae.I was never in a gang but I always hung out with them...they were like brothers to me and they always seem to get me in a good mood.
"Yo I miss you Liah on da real"Jay said
"For real,its so boring here without you"Glizzy added
"Awe I miss y'all too"I squealed
"And this Nigga Nahmir been in his feelings lately listening to 2000's love songs and shit"Manny joked
"Nigga shut up! No the fuck I wasn't"Nahmir defended himself
I smirked a little.I was still mad his ass left me on Read..
Jay shook his head laughing "When you think you gon Come back and visit"
"I don't know I just started school...SPEAKING of school.."I said,Jay rolled his eyes and huffed
"Jay come on this is your last year you can do it"I told him
"I just don't see the point of it like...I'm not gonna need to know all that shit...Especially History cause them niggas dead!"Jay argued
"Ain't it tho!"Cordae agreed
I shook my head and laughed
Jay got up and left the room so he was by his self
"So uh..wassup with you and Nahmir?"
"Whatchu mean?"
"Well I been on FaceTime with you for 10 minuets y'all haven't said a word to each other and y'all close as fuck"
I bit inside my cheeks "It's complicated"
I called Jay to get mind off Jahseh and what I said to him but now he got me stressing about both Mir and Jah.
Jay huffed "What this nigga do now?"
"He didn't do nothing"I sighed rubbing my forehead because he really didn't do anything.He was tryin to be a good friend.
Jay sucked his teeth "Liah,What you do to that man?"
"I...let's just say he was tryin to look out for me and I was being a-"
"Bitch"Jay finished my sentence
"Yeah"
"Well you gotta understand why he's so overprotective...When Kentrell almost raped you it made him like that and-"
"I know,I know Jay"I sighed
"I don't mean to bring it up again but...from now on let him be your best friend and worry about you"
"He acts like he's my boyfriend"I mumbled
"Whatchu Say?"Jay asked
"Nothing um...I gotta do some homework I'll call you tomorrow Jay Jay"
"Aight L"He hung up
I tossed my phone on my bed and placed my hand on my forehead thinking about Jahseh....I couldn't help but think about him.His eyes,His Voice,His Smile,His Weird ass personality,His Music....Damn I'm talking about being a bitch to Nahmir...I definitely was one with Jahseh
I felt bad for what I said to him...I really didn't think that through,I was just having a horrible flashback and threw all my frustration on him.
Which was wrong
Jahseh pov
You been up all night
You don't wanna Wait on me
I'm about to catch my flight
So you gotta Wait on me
No more,
You don't wanna (7x)
I been up a very longtime
Wonder why they hate on me
I don't wanna love myself
I'm praying that they all love me
Cause you don't wanna
You don't wanna (7x)
I should've let you know that your my only one
I know your feeling numb
I'll fuck you till you cum
Said I don't understand how you don't gotta man
You want me in you bed,cause I been in your head
No,No,No (6x)
I sat my pen down and looked over my lyrics.Wait...What the fuck am I doing?
I grabbed the paper and bawled it up throwing it in my room trash can.
A girl I barely fucking know had me writing a damn song about her!
What the hell is she doing to me?
"Jahseh? You home?!"I heard my mom yelled from downstairs.She must've just came from Aiden's appointment.
"Yeah!"I yelled back
I sat at my desk and wrote my thoughts in my journal...even my feelings.I wouldn't call it a Diary but if you ever wanted to know any secret of mine it's in this Journal.I wrote about my past and how I'm struggling to overcome it.I wrote about Geneva and how she lied on me about abusing her.She was everything to me,I'd NEVER hurt her and she knew that
but she hurt me...she hurt me bad.Not only did she lie on me but she cheated on me several times with niggas I thought were her 'Homies'
Before Geneva there was Cinthia...the inspiration of my Elephant Tattoo.We broke up because she always lied to about the simplest things.She really didn't hurt me too much but she was my first love.
I even wrote about Liah and how she randomly doesn't want anything else to do with me.
Maybe it's how treat her...maybe I should be more nicer?
No no no...she already said to loose her number after we're finished with the project so that's exactly what I'm gonna do.
Fuck it and Fuck her