Thomas's POV
sitting next to a sob is the most agravating feeling, his words try to provoke me, clearly he doesn't know the way Vera likes it, vera sits on my lap while Sam's eyes bore into me looking puzzled while he places his cold glass to his face.
"darling, why does it say William .T.Shebly?" she strokes my name tag giving it a confused glare "my birth name was William it sounds more serious but anyways their was a higher ranking officer that had the nameThomas Shelby so i had to change it" i push my head into the back of the couch "what? and they can do that" Lilly comes and sits on Sam's lap fixing his naval hat "ya but William was my birth name, my father named me after my mother's father just to take the piss" i say drinking on rum "she did hate him" vera gives me a weak smile and pops off my lap walking to the music box, i can never remember what it's called
"i miss your voice" we say to the music, her dark eyes always makes my heart stop, i can't see a life without her pouty lips and her anger and stubbornness "so William when have you been posted?"Sam says, Lilly jumps on his back and he sways them still on his back, "October 29" my eyes still caught in her eyes but they start getting watery "but thats next week To-William"she corrects herself "i know that, thats why we must make what time we have left count" i whisper brushing my head onto her hair "No you can't go! you just can't!" she steps away "Vera he has to, its for his country, for you" Lilly gives her a sympathetic look , she sits her down as i just watch
"it's fine, Lilly acted the same, i'm shipped off the day you are" sam rests his arm around my shoulder, my eyes looking deep onto the floor "Tommy come help me with dinner" Lilly takes me out of the room taking me into my kitchen "just give her time, she loves you but she's holding the words and dragging you along so... you wont give up"Lilly resting her body weight on the counter "give up on what"i look up from the floor "on life while your gone in war..."she bites her lip with sorrow
vera's POV
"Samuel" i look up at him as our chairs are facing each other i feel a light drip of water on my cheek "yes, mother" he raises an eyebrow taking in his whiskey "how bad is it on the front..."i lean in in desperation "sweat or savoury answer" he leans back in his chair drinking once more "savoury" i fiddle with my ring "it's really bad, if he doesn't die then he will come back with a face blow, blind, deaf, without a limb or worse..." he presses his lips into a thin line "whats worse"my breath gets caught in my throat "shell shock" he finishes his drink "he will be a whole new man, worse than ever" he looks at me with long disappear "but hey thats ok when it's certain death i mean drowning in sea how shit that is, none of us are safe"he rests his head on his arm "you know a lot of people say that you wont be faithful while your gone probably have an affair with a fire fighter"he shrugs as i scoff "your too pretty but this chat, it made me think maybe you will be faithful but when he comes back will his fear, anger and jealousy overshadow this. love" he points at me up and down with glass in his hand "but hey what do i know, i'm married"he twiddles his fingers
"ANNNDDD he loves it"Lilly drops onto his lap "quiet right"he hugs her
"vera come with me"tommy holds my hand walking me up to our room "i've thought of it and if i don't liv-" he looks down "no! you will." i cross my arms "but if i don't, i want you to marry a good man and have children and live, even if you must forget me but know this" he pulls me into his chest "i will never stop fighting for your love, you will be in the protection of the peaky blinders if i die and if you no longer need it then go to the last living heads of the company and forget all abou-"i smash my lips into his "i will never forget you William Thomas Shelby, i will be in forever morning if you die"i hug him not letting go "i just want the best fo-" i cut him off "if you want what's best for me then live."