And changing is not a bad thing, it never was
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P.O.V Maddie
'can I come, please' Dylan folded his hands together
'is he always like this' Rose asked me
'yup' I sighted
'thank the lord your still alive' she rolled her eyes
'can I come' Dylan sked again.
It was Thursday and after school I'm going with Rose to her parents store to get a makeover. Very excited (note the sarcasm)
'no' Rose tried to ignore him when he asked again and again.
'just say yes, he's annoying me like hell' I said while looking very annoyed at Dylan
'okay you can come, but you can only sit and look. No judging, no suggesting' Rose pointed with a warning finger
'of course' Dylan rested his hand on my hand
'you can be so annoying' I narrowed my eyes while studying his very messy hair. We were late this morning so he didn't have time to do his hair, to be honest I like it better like this.
'I know' he smirked
'geez' I shook my head
'but you still love me' I kissed my cheek
'no I hate you, you know that' I looked at Rose who was watching us with a very amused look.
'no you don't' he kept giving me kisses on my cheek
'yes I do'
'no you don't'
'okay I don't' I smiled small
'I knew it' he puts his hand in the air like had won something.
'you are such a cheeseball' I sighted again
'I know' was his answer again
'guys, I have to go. See you after school at the car' Rose said when the bell rang
'see you in a bit' I waved at her
'see you' she winked at me and started walking. We got good friend quickly. She's really amazing and we've practically talked about everything.
Okay not everything, I didn't tell her I tried to commit suicide but I did tell her about the cutting. And about my mom and John, because she had heard the fight of me and Denise and I had to.
Talking about Denise, I think she is scared of me now. Every time I look at her she looks away and when I see her in the hallway she walks the other way. To be honest I really like that she was scared of me, not the part that she was scared but the part that I won and now I don't have to look at her as much as I had to.
'we need to get to class' Dylan broke my thoughts
'since when do you care about class' I ask while I go up
'I don't' he simply said 'but I know you do so'. That was actually really cute.
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'there it is' rose pointed at a hipster looking store
'cool' I knotted
'hey baby' a Spanish looking woman said when we walked in
'hi mom' was that her mom? But she looked nothing like her?
'hi sweetie' another woman with red hair walked in
'hi mom' Rose said again. Wait she had 2 moms?
'so I should probably tell you that I have 2 moms. They're lesbian' Rose said nervously
'oh that explains the surname' Dylan said slowly.
'yes, Adelina and I are married so Rose has her last name but I was pregnant of her so she doesn't look Spanish' the red haired woman explained
'ah' is the only thing I could explain
'I hope it is not like weird or anything' Rose asked
'oh no, it's just, I like didn't think of it so yeah it's, I have never seen it like this' I stumbled
'it's okay, I know it is a lot to take in' she let out a relieved sight
'my name is Dylan' Dylan gave them a hand
'my name is ginger, yes I have crazy parents' Dylan laughed
'hi I'm Adelina' the Spanish woman gave Dylan a hand While I gave Ginger a hand
'hi I'm Maddie' I said and I also gave Adelina a hand
'so Maddie desperately needs a makeover' Rosa puts her hand on my shoulder
'no not desperately, I'm only doing this because you want it and I'm a good friend' I correct her
'okay' Ginger laughed
'so you are going to have to tell us what you usually wear, you sizes and what you want to wear' we sat down on the 5 chairs
'okay, so I usually wear like a sweater and jeans, my sizes are like a 4 and jeans I really don't know. I usually just grab what looks like my size and what I want to wear is like what's the most comfortable' I said and both Adelina as Ginger's eyes narrowed
'so one thing you need to know is that we are going to pull you out of you comfort zone' Rose said
'yes' Adelina stood up and started to walk around the store. So did ginger.
'just let them do their job' Rosa also stood up and walked around the room.
After half an hour they all came back with a pile of clothes
'I like it already' I looked over at Dylan who was smirking very big
'I hate you' I stood up and followed them to the changing room.
'so this is kind of in your comfort zone' Ginger gave me a outfit that I changed into.
It was a white shirt and striped pants.
'is this the way to wear it' I yell over the door
'can I come in' I hear rose ask
'yeah' I wasn't naked so, yes she could
'you need to tuck it in' she said
'but then you can see my figure' I said and she laughed
'that's the purpose' Adelina yelled
'oh' I tucked it in, this was not something I would wear but it wasn't that bad.
'see this way you accentuate your waist' Ginger said and I looked at myself in the mirror.
'it's not that bad, I just don't see myself in that pants'
'okay well we have a next outfit, you will like the jeans but the top' she raised her shoulders
'okay' I said some what scared
'this is weird' I mumbled to myself when I looked at myself in the mirror. I was wearing a black bodysuit that was very tight and jeans.
'so you do have a figure' Dylan said when I got out of the changing room
'shut up' I rolled my eyes making Rose scoff amusingly
'you look good' Ginger said
'well I don't know, I don't really like tight things' I crossed my arms over my belly. I was really uncomfortable and insecure right now.
'I know, but you have a beautiful figure' Rose complimented
'you do really look stunning mads' he stood next to the mirror and gave me a smile
After that I tried on a few more outfits. I liked pieces but I mostly loved the tips. Like tuck you shirt in somewhere or wear something tight but with a jacket so that you still show figure but I won't feel that insecure. The biggest tip was to slowly start to wear something, I don't have to change by night but a little change would give me some difference in my closet.
'okay, so this is really out of you comfort zone but you don't have to be ashamed' rose gave me 1 piece.
Shit this was a dress
I took the dress without saying anything and changed into it. It was a yellow maxi dress with flowers all over it.
I was out of my comfort zone and I could feel it. But if I had to get out of my comfort zone this would maybe be an option.
I got out of dressing room and heard a little gasp from Dylan. His eyes flowed over my body, making me very uncomfortable
'you look fantastic' ginger said making me smile
'thank you'
'someone is surprised' Rose laughed
'yeah' I mumbled
'but how do you feel' Adelina sked
'uncomfortable' a nervous laugh left my lips 'but if had to wear a dress this would be an option'
'yes' Rose smiled 'mission accomplished'
'well not completely, we have 2 dresses left for you that are even further out of your comfort zone but we just want you to see that you are beautiful, even with dresses on' Ginger said giving me a black dress with wooden buttons.
I changed into it. It was slimmer on the top which made my boobs viable. I didn't have that much but what I had was visible right now.
'so how is it' Adelina asked and I opened the door
'oh wow' Dylan gasped again. Why is he so surprised, I don't look that pretty.
'I like this dress' I said making all 4 people smile 'but id don't know if I like me in it'
'well you look great' Adelina said
'thank you, I think it is just that I have never seen myself in a dress and I just need to get used to it' I told myself more then them
'I think that too' Rosa stood behind me and looked at me through the mirror
'so the next dress, you probably won't like it but you just need to see yourself in it' Ginger said
'okay' I grabbed the little dress.
shit this thing was small.
I changed into it and was not comfortable. It was short, tight and had gingham all over it.
'why is it so short' I pulled it down
'so that it shows your legs' I got out of the dressing room
'Jesus fucking Christ' Dylan sighted while looking at me
'don't be so dramatic' I rolled my yes while pulling my dress down
'I'm not, you just look' he stopped and bit on hi slip which was really hot 'I have no words'
'you do look stunning but you are uncomfortable which is visible' Adelina said
'yes so you shouldn't start wearing this right now but you have seen yourself in it and that you look beautiful' ginger added
I looked at myself again in the mirror and started to tear up. It's not that I hated the way I looked but is just the fact that I hated myself and kind of still do. Never in a million years will I wear this and fully love myself and that is just really frustrating me
'baby' Dylan pulled my in a hug
'I love you' he hummed to me
'It's just, a lot to take in'
'I know' he stoke me back
'See, this is how I feel when you two are all in love and shit' I heard Rose say
'Oh sorry' I let Dylan loose and wiped away a few tears
'It's okay, Rose told me your story' Ginger also gave me a hug
'Oh' i looked a ginger
'Well they had to know if they where going to see your' she pointed at my wrists
'Cuts, it's not a bad word' I comforted her
'Okay' she gave me a hug
'But I'm going to change now' I said after giving Adelina also a hug
'Okay' Ginger laughed with the others.
I changed into my own clothes and decided to take some clothes home, including the yellow dress.
'On one condition' Rosa said
'And what is that' I raised my eyebrow
'You have to post a photo on insta' she narrowed her eyes
'Okay' i laughed