After Trevor left after dinner, I go up to my room and blast music that isn't Christmas related. Not that I don't love Christmas songs, but they just play them so often this time of year I need a break.
My dad blocks my path, however. "Your grades are dropping again. Is this going to be a problem?" I look him dead in the eyes. "Dad, it's A.P, of course it's going to be a little more fast paced especially when I entered in closer to the second semester than the first." He huffs and I can tell he's making a quick decision in his head. "Adam, I'm going to have to ground you."
I should've known that was coming. Oh well, all I wanted to do was go to my room anyways. And listen to music. So I do.
My mistake was putting Pandora on shuffle. I always do that, but this time I regretted deeply.
Love song after love song plays. Normally, the specific songs don't bother me. But after talking about Peyton for a couple hours, they tear me apart.
The first one is Say something.
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all
And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl.
I quickly skip the song then lay on my bed. The next song - Hey there Delilah - isn't any better.
Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true
Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side
I jump up from my bed and press skip again. I stay in my computer chair to be prepared to skip the song again. I'm not sure if "I won't give up" will be bad.
When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?
Well, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Why am I even letting it get to the second or third verses? I have to stop it if I know it's a love song.
The next song is one I don't think I've heard, though, so I can't be sure.
Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies
At this point, I try to skip the song. I've skipped too much, though, and it won't let me skip anymore.
But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep
Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
Will you let her go?
'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
My hands are faster than my brain and before I know it, I'm turning off my laptop completely and when I stand up from the computer chair, I send it flying into the bookshelf behind me, creating an avalanche of hard back books.
Before I even think about picking them up, my body scurries around the room. It's too much anxiety all at once. Okay, I know I messed up with Peyton! I know I let her go! This is too much torture!
Grabbing my pocket knife off the dresser, I chunk it at the window. Glass shatters onto the floor and my bed and, while avoiding shards of glass, I jump out the window to my car. Dad said I was grounded but I had to get out of my room.
But I should've known that everybody in the house would hear the shaddering glass of my window and come running. They all see that I'm at my car and mom runs out to me before anyone else. To add to the effect, I have to wait for her while it's freezing rain.
"What are you doing?!" she screams. I shiver. "I...I messed up. I have to fix it."
She looks at the window. "No, not the window, I meant Peyton. Gosh, even saying her name messes with me!"
Mom embraces me. "Oh, honey, you've got it bad."
I don't know if that was supposed to be sympathetic or not.
"I have to go." I say aloud, knowing it sounds ridiculous. But mom just smiles. "I told you not to let this one go." I grin, and get in my car. She waves to me as I back out of the driveway.
The first thing I do is call Trevor. "I'm gonna need to know what dorm room Peyton's in."
There's a brief silence. "Whyyyy?" he draws out. I huff, "I'm not gonna let her go. Now, give me LeAnna's number so I can get the dorm number."
He gives me her number willingly when he finds out why I'm going to see Peyton. When I call up LeAnna, though, she seems a little more hesitant.
"She's in New Jersey, Adam. You plan on driving from Maryland to New Jersey?" I shrug over the phone. "Why not? LeAnna, I'm desperate. I let her go and I'm dying because of it."
She contemplates this, then she chuckles. "Adam Greene, I would say whatever you do, treat her good, but I think that is the sweetest thing and you can't get any better."
I smile. "That's not even the half of it."
She gives me the building name and floor level and dorm number. "Thanks."
*****
Let me just clearly state, the drive better be worth it. I'm trying my hardest to stay awake. It's currently 2 A.M and 3 days until Christmas. And no one wants to be heartbroken on Christmas.
When I turn on the radio, and expect to hear Christmas music, I hear a song by Parachute instead. When it gets past the intro, that's when I recognize the song.
I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together
Forever and always
The rest of the song is sweet until it gets to the end. I know, as a guy, we shouldn't cry and we don't. Usually. But this song is an exception. I cry so hard at the end. Such a sweet song.
And that's when I figure out what I will be saying to Peyton. Or singing, rather.
******
Finally, at 8 A.M I reach Rowan University. It's not like Maryland where it was freezing rain. No, instead, it's snowing. Heavily.
I put on my winter coat and pull the hood over my head. Though, eventually, walking through the wind and snow makes it fly off and I can't keep it on my head. So the snow gathers up in my hair.
When I walk into the right building, I take the elevator to the floor LeAnna told me to. I travel down the empty hall and watch the snow outside through the window at the end of the hall. And then I come across the room number, smiling.
I knock on the door and wait maybe 10 seconds before I hear someone walk to the door. Within that 10 seconds I take off my jacket and toss it to the floor.
Peyton opens the door. Before I can even smile she closes the door in my face. Though I know if I just stand there, she'll lock the door on me. In the next second I push my weight against the door and Peyton turns around, not expecting me to do that. She goes to protest, but I take her face in my hands and kiss her. Not a cheek kiss, either. Something I've been dying to do since she left and maybe further back then that. She doesn't pull away, either.
When she does back away, that's when I decide to say something. "Peyton, I'm so sorry that I didn't tell you how I felt earlier than this. Things got really complicated and I got really confused and it's no excuse but I just want you to know that I know now that I want you forever."
She looks at me, awestruck. That, my friends, is when I start the song. I grab her hands and whisper that one verse that played on my radio earlier.
She tears up, and I try not to. "Adam, what am I supposed to do? I...I feel the same way but... I'm in college now."
"And? I wasn't going to stop you before. Just a year and a half and I'll be joining you here and we can be together forever and always."
She wipes away a tear. "You'd come here just to be with me?" I look around. "Why else?" She laughs and I grin.
"What about football?" I let out a huge laugh, "Not my thing anymore."
We stare at each other for a few seconds and then she kisses me for a few seconds until her roommate comes through the door.
"Oh, snap! Sorry! I'll just go forget something real fast!" She closes the door behind her and I smile at Peyton while laughing. "I think you're going to like my roommate." she says.
I plant a kiss on her lips. "I think I'm going to like doing that more than anything."
A/N
THEY'RE FINALLY TOGETHER!!
THEY FINALLY KISSED!
ADAM FINALLY ADMITTED HE LIKED HER!
Crazy chapter, I know. What with the love songs and window breaking and snow and kissing. It was a long chapter to write, too. Though, it took just a day to write because I had to get this chapter down. It's been in my head too long.
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