You gotta listen up, listen up
"Maiyu..." I silently called her name.
But she still keeps walking away.
From me.
"Maiyu!!!"
I ran after her and grabbed her hands.
She halted,
and looked back at me tears falling from her eyes.
It hurts.
Her tears are like acids burning through my skin.
There's not a thing that I can't get from you
I just looked at her, completely lost at her expression.
Why did I do that in the first place?
Hanyu Yuzuru stop acting like an idiot.
But,
I know that I cannot do something to help her.
There's nothing.
Or so I thought.
Boy I don't need that much need that much
I stared at his face, completely lost. Not knowing what to do.
I saw it.
The fear in his eyes.
Scared to say something.
Scared to do something.
I looked down, avoiding his gaze.
"Why?" I mumbled.
I can feel his grip tightening around at my hand.
His tight grip as if he is scared.
Scared to let me go.
How can I tell you what I wanna do?
She looked down, avoiding my gaze.
" Why?"
I just tighten my grip at her her hands.
I just don't want to lose you.
I wish you trust me enough.
I wish you can tell me anything.
I wish I could say that.
It's full of "I wish".
I never needed you to give me things
"Yuzu..." I said.
I grabbed his hands, trying to let my hand go.
Trying to get it loose.
I don't want it. I don't want this.
I can hear my cries.
I can feel my tears.
Tears that I don't want to show.
To somebody.
Especially to you.
I never needed gifts or diamond rings
I stopped trying to his hand go and looked directly at his eyes.
"Let go..." I pleaded. "Stop this..."
Please...
Don't make this harder.
For the both of us.
A sudden motion.
A sudden movement of his.
I can feel his warmth, comforting me.
"Yuzuru..." I cried.
All I ever need I, need I
Her cries.
Her tears.
I wish I could wipe them away.
She suddenly stop.
Her action surprised me.
She finally looked up, then her black eyes stared at me.
Her tears still falling.
"Let go..." She pleaded. "Stop this..."
All I ever need is here with you
Stop crying...
Please...
I don't know what I'm doing.
I just hugged her.
I held her in my arms.
The girl I love the most.
Kurosawa Maiyu...
Silently, I can hear her voice saying my name between her cries.
"Yuzuru..."
Baby there's a place where we can go
I know that you are frustrated at yourself.
Do you know that back then, I'm jealous of you.
Being called as a Next Generation Ace
I knew that you're always ahead of me.
My only goal was to caught up to you.
But I didn't know that I'm being oblivious about you.
The constant pressure that people putting on you.
where it's always shining like the snow
World Champion
Grand Prix Champion
Olympic Champion
World Record Holder
Now I know that feeling.
Now I know the place you've been standing,
defending the whole time.
Maiyu.
You are the only one I love.
It hurts to see you like this.
Suffering.
Please share it with me.
I whispered at her ear.
"Be with me."
Listen to your heart beat don't you know
"Be with me." I heard his voice at my ear.
Once the he said that, I don't know anymore.
My heart beating so fast.
What is that?
A request, or demand?
I can't seem to think, to breathe.
"I don't know..."
I said to him as I tried to let go of the hug.
But he kept me in place.
Hanyu Yuzuru,
Why?
He just put his head on my shoulders as he held me tightly than before.
"Standing on the top once again is impossible for me."
that I just wanna be with you?
"I don't know..."
She said as she tried to let go of the hug.
But I didn't let her, instead I kept her in place.
I put my head on her shoulders and held her tightly.
"Standing on the top once again is impossible for me."
"You're not alone." I said to her. "It will be possible."
"Will it be?"
I let go of the hug and looked at her.
I wiped the tears that still falling.
"It will be."
Smile slowly appearing at her face.
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April 23, 2017
We will both stand on the top.
I want to see the view from the top with you.
.
Once again, Maiyu.
.
For the last time, Yuzuru.