"she's back" Chaeyoung tilts her head.
"who's back?"
"Jisoo, she's back." i said frustratingly.
Rose choked on her coffee, and I pat her back.
"Have you seen each other yet?" I shook my head.
"tomorrow, I'm hiring her as my New Secretary."
"She applied? Woah, her face is thick as hell."
"I think she doesn't even know I'm the CEO, and I've read that they're having financial problems"
"So what Now? you pity her huh? are you still inlove with her?" that question got me speechless.
am I still inlove with her?
"Oh, so you are still inlove with her. That's why you're hiring her, you want her back in your life don't you?" I glared at her.
"You're talking nonsense! I'm hiring her not because I want to be with her again I'm hiring because I believe in her potential okay? I'm trying to be professional here Chaeng" I defended.
Besides, she's married right? I don't wanna bother her.
I sighed.
"Defensive much, still inlove eh? you know it's okay if you haven't move on, I'm here to support your enlasting love"
"I said I'm not inlove, and she's married and I'm already contented with Jieun, enough is enough. I'm happy with my daughter, I don't need a partner".
"sometimes you do need someone do be there for you, Unnie You can't lie to me, I mean 14 years! Why didn't you look for someone or even tried dating? it's because you can't move on right?"
I sighed.
"she was my greatest love" I blurted out. that is true, I was with her since we were Just highschool students.
since we were just 14? around Jieun's age. we became official then we got married when I turned 19 and got pregnant with her when I was 21.
then she left..
I can see Rose was tearing up, aish. Jinjja? I'm the love victim here, hello?
"I knew it. Unnie, what if you still have a chance? will you make a move?"
"Aish! What are you talking about! I told you she's married" I scoffed and sipped on my Americano.
"Unnie, think of it. she left you when you were pregnant, do you think Jisoo will do that without Any reason? I'm pretty sure there's something
going on, and you said she married a man she 'loves' just after a few months she left you, do you think it's so random? to do that?"
she has a point. I've known Jisoo for years, and she does things always with a reason.
only if it's reasonable.
but when she left me, she told me 'I don't love you anymore'.
Aish, or maybe she really doesn't love me anymore?
I'm just being delusional am I?
"There must be something going on, you should probably ask her why she did that."
Does she think it's that easy?
"I don't want to talk about it anymore, okay? sometimes we should move on, and it's been 14 years." I let out a heavy sigh.
I just hope she didn't leave me, that day.
we could've been a happy family.
•••••
"Eomma!"
"Aunt Jennie!"
When I got home, these girls instantly hugged me.
You know that feeling, you're excited to go home because someone's waiting for you.
"Hey baby girl" I chuckled.
"Yah! Eomma, don't call me that when my friends are around!" Jieun whined.
I scrunched my nose, Aish.
she only became a teen, she doesn't want her mother to call her baby girl. :(
"But you're my only child!"
"Eomma"
"Pft, fine. well, hello there Sunny. you're Jieun's best friend right?"
"Yes I am." she smiled, Aw this child is cute.
"thank you for being her friend, please take care of my baby girl okay?" she chuckled.
"Yah!"
"What? you're still my baby, you even like it when I kiss your belly button"
"whatever Eomma, Sunny let's go" she huffed pulling her friend with her.
I love teasing my daughter, she has the best reactions.
I'm such a bad mother.
I went inside and went to my room to change into comfortable clothes.
after changing, I went downstairs to eat.
"Girls! Dinner time!" I called and sat on the chair.
after eating, my maids washed the dishes. I suggested we watch a movie since it's still early.
"Let's watch this, Aunt Chae said this Movie made her cry a lot"
"Disney Movie? Okay sure".
While watching I suddenly remembered something.
"Jisoo! Don't cry! you're making me cry!"
"but this movie is so sad"
"Aish, I told you to never hang out with Rose!"
"Yah! I'm trying to be peaceful here!"
I chuckled when I remember that, it would start with Rose then Jisoo would cry and if I see her cry, I'll cry too. we're like dominos.
"Eomma, you crazy? why you laughin' by yourself?" I shook my head.
"I just remembered something"
I said.
"Oh, speaking of. I remember we have an event coming up next week, it's like a Father and Daughter event. I don't think I have to attend"
"Huh? We should. it'll be fun"
"but it's a Father & Daughter Event, besides I dont even have an Appa" Jieun says in a sad tone.
I sighed, its been 14 years and I haven't still told her about Jisoo and that she doesn't have an Appa.
she would ask me sometimes, 'then who got you preggy?' and I would be speechless.
I just don't know what to tell her.
"Jieun, It's not important. I can be your Appa, dont you think?" I playfully said, stroking my hair like a guy.
"I wish my Appa's here." is she not happy with just a mother?
How can I tell her that she doesn't have a Father?
I looked at her, she have this sad face on.
"Are you not happy with me?"
"i am but all my classmates have one, why don't I have one?"
"Ji-eun, let's not talk about this okay? You don't have an Appa and that's that." I instantly regret being mad at her, it's just that it makes mad that Jisoo left us, if she was here Jieun won't be looking for a Father.
"Whatever" I sighed.
"Sunny, let's go. I'm sleepy"
"Huh? but the movie just started!"
"then fine. I'll be in my room"
"okay I'm coming geez! goodnight Ms.Kim" I smiled and watched them go up the stairs.
I sighed and turned of the TV.
Jieun, I hope you understand me. I hope I can tell you about your other mother, I just hope you didn't left us Jisoo.
•••••
A/N: this story makes me sad. :(