Dear Jimin
Okay okay, I admit it.
I drank something yesterday.
And yes, today as well.
But hey, who.the.fuck.cares?
I thought you were the someone who cared about me the most so I thought I had somebody who truly loved me. Well, I guess I was fucking wrong.
I'm angry at you, Park Jimin.
I'm fucking pissed at you!
You think I'm joking?!
You think I'm fucking joking?!
I'm so pissed, I slammed a plate across the apartment.
I'm so pissed, I screamed your cursed name.
I'm so pissed, I tossed a beer bottle against your favorite picture.
How can you be so ignorant?!
How can you be so selfish?!
I did so much bullshit for you, Park Jimin!
Can't you remember the time I bought you so much ice cream so we could make a movie weekend?
Can't you remember how I bought us tickets to go to Japan?
Can't you remember when I took a whole week off so I could take care of you because you were sick?
Can't you remember how many times I cooked for you?
Can't you remember how much love I gave you?
I hugged you whenever you needed it.
I kissed you whenever you wanted me to.
Heck, I fucking kissed, hugged and loved you without you telling me you wanted it.
And you know why?!
Because I fucking loved you!!
I would have never killed myself just like that.
I would have never pulled the trigger.
I would have never dragged you into such a dark, lonely hole like you did to me!!
Is it because you didn't love me?
Was this whole fucking relationship onesided love?!
If it was, why did you end it like that?
Why would you end it like that?
Why would you want me to hate on the whole world?
Why would you want the whole world to hate on me?
Fuck this shit.
I'm going to sleep.
This crap is useless.
You won't come back from my letters.
Yours fucking
Yoongi