So. Here's a Phanfic. I like Phan. I think that, at the moment, this is my OTP. Yup. I am addicted to Phan. Have you seen the video where Phil jokes about moving in with Mollie and Dan's expression is just utterly horrified? And then Phil sees Dan's face and stops cheering and gets this expression like, "OmigoshI'manidiotandI'msorryandpleaseforgivemebecauseIloveyou!" At least, that's how I interpret it. And then he goes and hints that Pholly is his NOTP and I'm just like, "SQUEEE!" I'll put the video on the side. Anyway, here's a one-shot, En-juh-hoy it, my Rulers. And, I am working on that Pewdie x Mr.Chair one-shot. Seriously, I am. I just need inspiration. :P And, I'm replicating Dan and Phil on the Sims 3, and making Phan happen, and then this random sim named "Romeo" comes over and tries to flirt with Phil and then Dan stops writing the article he was working on and walks in on them, and he's like, "OMG, NO! NO NO NO!" And then he blew up in Phil's face and Phil cried and then I spent like, an hour trying to make them not hate each other. :P Anyway, that's where my inspiration for THIS came from. READ IT NAO.
"Dan, please, I'm sorry!"
"No. Just no."
"But, Dan-"
"No, okay! The answer is no!"
"Please, Dan, just-"
"No!" he said, his voice cracking as his defenses finally broke down. "I can't get hurt again, Phil, I can't! It hurt bad enough when you did it the first time, I can't go through that again, Phil!" He collapsed on the floor, sobbing loudly and regretting half his life.
Phil sighed, feeling beyond guilty, and crouched down by his ex-boyfriend. "I know, Dan. And I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. It was a mistake, a huge mistake, and I'd do anything to take it back, but I can't. I'm so sorry."
Dan hiccuped and then cried harder. "I can't- I can't deal with this, Phil, I can't... I just can't..." He trailed off. Then, a few seconds of silence later, he added in a voice that was barely audible, "And the worst part is, I still love you, even though you don't love me anymore... And it just makes it all that much harder!"
Phil tried desperately to blink away the tears that were forming in his eyes. He really did regret that day.
*Yay, a flashback!*
Phil sighed as plopped down on his bed, not knowing what to do. Dan had been so wrapped up in his work lately, studying law and junk. He hadn't put aside much time for his boyfriend. And Phil was more than sad because of it, not to mention extremely lonely.
So it was that Phil dug around in his pocket a bit before yanking out his phone and dialing the number of one of his friends.
A few minutes later, said friend rang the doorbell. "Could you get that?" Dan called from his bedroom. He never came out of that room anymore. He was always studying, only pausing occasionally to make videos or eat, or occasionally even *gasp* sleep.
"Sure!" Phil replied, though he was tempted to make his negligent boyfriend get it, just so he could get him out of that bedroom. "Hi!" he greeted his friend, who was at the front door, waiting patiently for someone to answer.
"Hi, Phil! So, whaddaya wanna do?"
They ended up playing video games. Somewhere around an hour later, the conversation turned towards Phan. "Well, we're... we're alright," Phil said hesitantly.
"Alright? What does that mean?"
"Well, he's... he's been sort of caught up in studying and working and all that... He doesn't have much time for me..."
"That's stupid. You deserve better than that."
Phil glanced over, shocked, at his friend. "What?"
"You heard me. I would give you all my time."
Phil, still shocked, asked quietly, "You would?" He paused for a second before asking even more quietly, "Why won't he?"
"He's an idiot, that's why."
Phil felt momentary anger towards his friend for insulting Dan, but almost immediately got over it. He just sighed.
And a few seconds later, he was sighing into his friend's lips. He gasped as he felt his lips make contact with his friend's, but he didn't pull away. He missed this, the feeling of being wanted and loved by someone. Still, he normally would have pulled away.
But, pretending the person kissing him, loving him, was Dan, he managed to actually enjoy the kiss.
Suddenly, Dan burst into the room. "Hey, Phil! We haven't really been spending much time together, so I was thinking we could go to the movies, and the that restaurant downtown..." he trailed off when he saw the position Phil and his friend were in. Phil was practically in the other guy's lap, kissing him happily (imagining he was Dan, but Dan didn't know that). "P-Phil?"
Phil gasped and pulled back, scrambling as far away from his friend as possible. "Dan! I-I... I can explain, I can!"
Dan slowly shook his head. "No, it's... it's okay, I... I just... want you to be happy, so..." A choked sob escaped his lips, and he quickly looked down in an attempt to hide the pained expression he wore. "I'll, um... I'll let you... g-get back to what you were, uh... doing... I'm sorry for interrupting." Then he turned and ran towards his bedroom, quickly slamming and locking the door.
Phil's eyes widened. His friend smiled apologetically and left. He just, left. No goodbye. No "sorry for screwing up your relationship with the dude you love." Nothing. He just left.
They both left.
*end flashback :D BACK TO THE PRESENT! (Even though I'm still writing in past tense...)*
"Dan, I... I still love you. I never stopped loving you. I just, he kissed me that day, and I... I was... I missed you so much... You were always too busy to spend time with me, and I just missed the feeling of being loved, and when he kissed me, I tried to pretend it was you, and... I'm just so sorry, Dan!" he rambled.
Dan glanced up at Phil. Of course, he couldn't deny that he loved him with all his heart. But he wasn't sure if he could trust him. Maybe he was telling the truth. Maybe he just missed him. Dan admitted, he had been spending a lot of time studying or working. But, what if Phil was lying? What if he did love that other guy? What he never even loved Dan in the first place, he just wanted him so he wouldn't have to be single?
After a few minutes of silence, Dan decided he didn't really care. Honestly, Phil could sell him into slavery and Dan would still love him to pieces. He knew he would never stop loving Phil. "Phil, I love you," he whispered.
"I love you, too. Do... Do you forgive me?"
Dan nodded slowly. "Just... Just, please don't hurt me again..."
"I won't. I promise. It will never happen again."