For a little bit, the story will continue in Third Person POV. Don't worry, it'll switch back to first person soon enough.
"How are you holding up (Y/N)?" Armin asked softly, watching the girl sit on the chair of her study desk lazily.
"I don't know," she mumbled, eyes half-lidded.
Armin looked at Eren, his wide eyes glistening with worry.
"(Y/N)," the brunette called out.
(Y/N)'s eyes looked slight to the direction of his voice, signalling that she was listening.
"I wish to tell them. For... for your and theirs sake."
Eren expected the person to flinch, or even bring her head up to face him, but she didn't. She sighed and turned to face the opened window, staring into the darkness of night. "I told you the information. It's up to you to do whatever you want with it. I don't care. Let the whole school know to see if I care."
"(Y/N), its not like that," Eren started to protest, before he realised the girl did not want to hear anything anymore. Armin gave him a nudge and pointed to the door.
"See you later (Y/N)," Armin said quietly, dragging Eren out of the room with him.
The two walked away and took the lift, not sharing a word. Eren took out his phone and began tapping away.
"What are you doing?" Armin asked, trying to get a peak.
"I'm texting Hanji to let all the others that were there to meet up tomorrow after breakfast at the park behind the school. You're coming too, Armin."
"Are you sure this is the right thing to do?"
Eren sighed after he clicked send, and stuffed his phone into his pocket. "We're not at some isolated place Armin. You know the worst that can happen if she.... goes back in that state?"
"Yeah... I know."
"This is why they need to know. (Y/N), isn't going to be herself for a while, and since they've witnessed one her worst moments, its better they know the truth before it turns into something even worse."
Armin nodded in understanding. This was for (Y/N)'s sake. If things go well, there will be more than just Eren and Armin protecting (Y/N).
"Let's just hope it works our way," Armin said gravely, as they both stepped out of the lift and headed to their own dorms.
***
As expected of Armin, (Y/N) wasn't present at breakfast. He was surprised how calm and normal Hanji and others were, like nothing ever happened.
The group finished breakfast quietly, each leaving to their own business. Most went back to the community room, and Eren and Armin stood, not knowing where they had gone.
All of a sudden, Eren felt a soft tap on his shoulder. As he turned around, he was greeted by Hanji, who wasn't as jumpy as usual. Her words were quick and meaningful, "Let's go. The others have gone ahead."
As they got ready to leave, Petra came running to them frantically. "Eren! Armin!"
The two boys turned around, confused to why someone had called them. "W-what's happened to (Y/N)?" Petra panted, leaning on her knees for support.
Hanji stayed quiet and simply observed as Eren and Armin tried to think of an answer.
"She's just a bit emotional," Armin finally answered, "Just try to not bother her and give her some space."
Eren glanced warily at Armin as Petra nodded. "Okay. Thank you."
The strawberry-blonde walked away, back to the community room, and Eren immediately asked Armin questions. "Why didn't you take her as well to the park?"
Armin's blue eyes glowed with wisdom as he thought of all the possibilities that could happen. "She seems like one who would get scared of such information. I can't risk it. People do horrible things when they drown in fear."
Hanji's expression became unreadable as she pushed her glasses up the bridge of her nose. "Let's go. The others are waiting."
The two boys gave a quick nod nefore following Hanji as she led the two of them to the small park.
Hanji ignored the actual park, and headed for the border fence that led into a small forest. She led them confidently, weaving through the trees and bushes like she had walked through this path hundreds of time.
Armin's eyes darted from side to side, his eyes glittering nervously. Eren kept glancing warily, uncomfortable in the unknown surrounding.
Hanji kept on walking until the thick bushes came to a stop and the path widened, opening up to a clearing. A gasp left Armin as he looked around, and Eren mouth was left hanging.
"Where are we?" Eren asked in wonder.
"Tada!!~ This is our secret hideout!" Hanji giggled, spreading her arms wide.
''This is amazing!" Armin gasped.
The soft grass tickled Eren's hand as he leaned down to touch it. A soft breeze blew in the air, bringing a scent of fresh, unpolluted air. The clearing was wide, a perfect place for a picnic. At the middle, the rest of the group was sitting down in a circle, quietly talking to each other.
Hanji led Armin and Eren to them, disturbing their conversation. Pairs of eyes stared at the newcomers, then they all began shuffling so the three of them can join in the circle.
After they were all comfortable, Erwin spoke up, "Shall we begin?"
***
(Y/N) POV, yes back to first person
My mouth was dry. Very dry. I searched around the room for some water, but there was only water from the bathroom I will most definitely not drink.
This is what I get for staying in my room from dawn till dusk, no eating, no drinking, no sleeping. Actually, I can't exactly remember what I've been doing.
No, scratch that, I don't know what happened since last night. I just remembered everything blacked out. Then I snapped back conscious just now.
It must've happened again.
I wonder what did I do this time. At the very least, I hope I won't be expelled.
My stomach grumbled, angry at its owner that didn't feed it all day. I patted it, still wondering what I had done in the time lapse.
I should get some food.
There was no food supply in this room, so I had to go out. Then I started feeling it again. The weird feeling tied a knot in my stomach, and I started feeling a wave of emotions flow into me.
I was sad, depressed, angry, scared and lonely. But most of all, I was feeling confused to why I've feeling all those emotions. They all made me feel the same thing.
Just stay in this room.
Don't go anywhere.
Just be alone.
'Why?' I questioned at myself. 'Why did this have to happen again?'
I gritted my teeth. Once again. Once more. These emotions must go. I hated it all. So once again, I'll just erase it all.
*
I walked to the cafeteria, praying there was still food left. I didn't really feel the hunger anymore, but I knew I had to eat so I can live.
Surprisingly, there was still bread, slab of chicken meat and some square cheese left. Shrugging, I whipped myself a chick 'n cheese burger and placed it in my tray. The chef looked at me for a moment, before continuing to cook food for tonight's dinner.
I sat down at an empty desk, looking at the food in distaste. Reluctantly, I took the burger to my mouth, taking a bite of the tasteless thing. I chewed it whilst looking around, desperate to find something to distract me.
The food was hard to swallow. No, literally, it got stuck in my throat since I had forgotten to drink first. I chugged the water down, willing it to push the food.
I continued my pathetic routine, and stopped completely when the food began to make me sick. By the time I had decided to stop eating, the burger was only half-way eaten.
I don't want to eat.
That's the only thing I thought about as I stood up and took the tray, emptying the contents into a bin before returning it.
I don't want to stay here.
I left the cafeteria and walked back to my dorm, my heart longing to be alone once more.
As I made my way back to the dorm, I realised something out of all these feelings. I felt like I don't want to do anything.
I don't even feel like I want to live.
*
"It's getting dark," Erwin said, "Let's leave it here."
Armin and Eren nodded, exhausted from all the explaining and discussing they had done for the whole day. They had lost a whole day of Saturday, they haven't finished unpacking -well, except for Levi- and classes start on Monday.
But they knew today was not wasted. One, Armin and Eren are relieved from the worst of their burden, being the only ones who knows about (Y/N)'s secrets.
Two, Hanji and the others have learnt a lot about (Y/N) and they took it as valuable information.
Three, both parties had gained more trust in each other through this gathering.
All of them were satisfied with the result of this discussion. The group followed Erwin closely as he led them through the complicated twists and turns, now even harder than before since it was pitch black.
But Erwin showed no signs of being lost, and so did everyone else, except Eren and Armin. Once they reached the edge of the forest, Erwin's steps slowed down.
He raised a hand half-way in the air, a signal to stop. Quietly, he leaned outside, and gazed carefully, making sure there was no one around.
"What's Erwin doing?" Armin whispered, his voice quivering with fear.
"Students are not allowed to go past beyond the gates. Even worse, into the forest. The school strictly forbids it, since its a form of assurance to parents who entrusted their kids to this school," Hanji explained, her voice low as she too looked around outside through the branches and leaves.
"So why would we go out?" Eren hissed softly.
"Because Eren," Hanji turned to him, "There's nowhere on school grounds that isn't monitored."
Levi nodded. "There are always people watching what the students are up to."
"This is sounding more like a prison," Eren muttered.
"They have to," Hanji whispered back, "It's for safety reasons since Paradis is...." Hanji voice trailed off, her lips drawing hack to a small frown.
"Its nothing of importance," Levi butted in, sending a glare to Hanji.
"Thugs," Erwin suddenly said, turning to look at us. "Since Paradis is crawling with thugs. It may not be important to you Levi, but for parents it is."
"Creepy allyways and shady woods. That's where the worst of them hang out," Mikasa added, her voice quieter than everyone else's.
"We're going out in groups of two. Levi and Mikasa, your first."
The two people mentioned nodded, and positioned themselves ready. "Eren, Armin, pay attention," Erwin ordered.
They looked around and scanned the clearing quickly, before dashing for it. They reached the closest benches, stopped running amd began walking casually.
"Hanji, Armin, go."
Armin looked around nervously, and glanced at Hanji.
The woman gave a nod, before taking the blonde boy's hand and sprinted to the same bench Levi and Mikasa had gone to. Once they reached it, Hanji stopped running and began walking, whereas Armin clumsily skidded to a halt before he followed the brunette from behind.
"Ready Eren?" Erwin asked, looking down at the boy. Eren nodded, his eyes shining with determination. "3, 2, 1, go!"
The last pair ran across the grassy floor, quickly stopping once they reached the bench. They all began walking seperately with different paces.
Armin examined everything with amazement. These people, had acted, decieved, tricked so smoothly, up to a point where it made his spine shiver.
With these acting skills, who on earth knows what secrets they hold.