I push myself away from August and look down at the pale pavement. I take a deep breath and look up at the dark starry night. A tear roll down my hazel eyes, Nehemiah soft little hand come across my face. I can’t help but to smile, so I kiss his little hand and put him down. I feel his eyes looking up at me. I turn away and tears after tears begin to roll down like a river. There is so much I can take right now. August comes out of nowhere liking the fucking shadow man. Trey ass trying to console me, what the fuck! Is going on? They both fucking fuck me and they think this shit cool. My child is about to be in the midst of this drama. Why couldn’t we have found a better place for this mediocre, if all this was going down?
“Talyah, baby, I was wrong for kicking you out like that. You know I love you”. I turn around and see August coming towards me. My eyes are puffy and my vision is blurry. My hair starting to look like shit and I don’t care attitude is starting to come back, that cut throat bitch I was,coming back.
“Ms. Althea, you and Nehemiah catch a taxi back home, please”. I go through my purse and give her some money. I watch as Althea and Nehemiah get into the car. I wipe the tears from my face, sniff, and bite my lip.
“Baby, do you hear me talking you. Come back home, I’ll make it up”. August getting close to me.
“Back all the way the fuck up! Who was calling your phone?” August look down at his phone and wipe his mouth. He begins to scratch his head and smile. Why is he smiling? I want to fucking smile.
“Is my English not clear? Who the FUCK was calling your phone? Agitation in my voice. I swear I’m a fucking crybaby more tears just roll down my face. “If you can’t be honest with me August and our fucking marriage mines as well should have just fucked and left the first night, write a song now!” I turn around and start to walk to I don’t know where the fuck I’m going.
“This how you gone do me Talyah, I dick you down real good and you gone let some female get between us. Man… I swear I ain’t the only you fucking!” August yells.
He done did it now. I turn around quick as fuck like I was Allyson Felix in the got damn 200. “Yes! Because we made a promise to God, that it’s only going to be the one body, not the fucking peanut gallery! I ain’t gone lie. You dick me down real goot! But you ain’t got anything on Trey. I swear I ain’t fucking him either. You THE only nigga I’ve been with because we fucking MARRIED. I guess I ain’t the only one kissing on your tattoos”. I turn around and throw my hair back. Aww fuck, the old Talyah back, I hear Trey yelling my name. I make my way down somebody street. I lean against the brick wall and pull out the black I been craving for. I light the bitch and begin to blow easy. I still hear Trey yelling my name. I see him come around the corner and he walk up to me.
“The fucks just happen? Y’all couldn’t work that out somewhere else?” Trey arm against the wall looking me dead eye. “But that’s none of my business”.
“Then why the hell you asking then? August, all honest to God, I love that man, but for him to admit to infidelity right there and then. Crushed my heart and for him to say I’m still messing around with you. Let’s me know he’s insecure”. I take in a long poof and ease it out my nose.
“You still love me don’t you? I know you do. I saved you once Talyah and here I am saving you again”. Trey grabs the black out my hand and throws it on the ground. He leans on me and grabs my soft face. He brings those big juicy pink lips to mine and fireworks begin to explode. A waterfall begins to fall down my leg. My legs get weak and I begin to slowly slide down, but I remember I’m still a married woman. I break our kiss up and I look to the side. My chest begins to go in heavily up and down.
Trey forces my head towards his. I hear his pants unzip, so I look down and bite me lip. He pulls my dress up and thrushes he fingers up my girl. I moan loudly against the grimy dirty brick wall. I start to cry and think about my children. I feel Trey go in and somehow my arms go around his neck. My head falls back and I start to remember why I miss Trey. I can feel him again putting his all like he always does. My eyes roll to the back of my head. Then I look down at Trey, who is with passion sucking at my breast. Why can’t August just love me like this? Trey grabs my face and we begin to kiss like the first time we kissed. Nut sliding down my leg, nails dug in his back, my head on his shoulder.
Trey slowly pulls out and looks up at me like he did the worse thing in life. We both did because I feel like shit right now. It was the best sex I had since the last time. I fuck him. Oh my lord! Please forgive me, not too long ago I preached to August. I bite my lip and silently say fuck to myself. Trey grabs my hand and looks me in the eye.
“Tay words can’t explain how good that just felt and how bad it was. I still love you and what we just did brought memories, but please go back to August.” Trey caresses my face. I bite my lip.
“I was until you started to fuck me”. I push pass Trey and catch the trolley. I ring the bell and run into the garage and unlock the truck. I get in and close my eyes. I begin to hit the steering wheel and yell. I grab my mirror from my purse and begin to fix my hair a little and make up. Fuck it! Pull this shit up into a bun. I grab my feminine napkins and wipe until I can’t fucking wipe no more. I sit up and release some pressure. I grab my phone and see damn near 20 messages and voicemails from August. He not too long called and texted me, I start to shake. So I decide to read the last voicemail. I begin to cry because he’s singing Share My Life. I crank the truck up and head down the highway back home.
I park the truck in front of the water fountain. I pull my dress from off of me and throw it on the truck. I can hear Kem blasting from the studio. Nehemiah can’t be here. So, I open my phone and go through my messages.
August: I sent Nehemiah to Bria house
I start to run into the house. I grab my sheer rob from around the chair and sprint down to the studio almost falling. I slung the glass door open almost shattering it and started to breathe heavily. I stare at August who writing, smoking, drinking, and blasting music with no shirt on slowly turn around. He stands up slowly. Oh my God, those succulent lips. I run to August and he picks me up and places me on the beat mixing table. He pulls himself in between my legs. I grab his face and start to kiss and bite on his lips. A tear falls from my eye. August wrap his right around my waist holding me tighter. He starts to bite on my neck and my fingers start to run through his hair. My toes curl and I can just feel his loving all over me.
“I’m sorry August for fucking Trey”. I moan. August stops kissing me and look me deep into my hazel eyes. I can see the hurt in his eyes. Omg, I done broke his heart.
“And I’m sorry for fucking Mimi Redd”. August pull me in deeper into his face. We both did wrong to each other, only I just did mine. Honestly, I don’t know what kind of shit us on. The only thing that matters is that nothing can break us apart. August run his fingers through my hair and pick me up. He heads down the hallway, up the stairs; he walks into the bedroom and throws me on the bed…
I begin to feel the sun against my skin. I get out the bed ignoring the fact that I’m naked. I open the balcony window and let the air hit against my skin. I pull the ponytail holder from hair and let the rest of my hair fall down. I get back into the bed and sit up. August wraps his around across my stomach. I lean over to the night stand and take my phone off charger. I see an unread message from an unknown person text me. So, I decide to open the message and read it.
225-356-0044: Hey, I hope I’m not bothering you, but my name is Salone Riche. You don’t know me because I barely know you. So this is my chance right? I hope you’re reading this. I am 17 and I’m from Ridgewood like you. I am kind short, curly long black hair, and light brown hazel eyes, thick in the right areas. I got caught up in some shit with my brother TJ, who’s now the head nigga in charge on the East. I know you from Blue Light projects, but listen you have a dad name Terrence who fucked around with your mom and got her pregnant had you or whatever. Your dad wasn’t in your life because of your mom. He wanted to be in your life, take care of you, and treat you like the princess you could have been. He tells me, you queen now with a bad pass. He loves you or whatever, but listen. I’m your baby sis, got a little baby bro also Terrence Jr, but he older than me. Since, I fucked around and got caught up come get me at the Airport at 2:00 pm. We got some shit to catch up on.
My heart drops, and all I can do is throw the covers off me. I look at the time and its 1:45 PM. I hear August moan and open he red blood shout eyes. I grab a dress from out my closet not putting on a damn bra or panties. I free balling out this bitch!
“Baby, where you going?” August sleepy.
“Going to pick up my baby sis from the airport” Hurrying. I quickly open the door up sliding into my shoes.
“Wait, you don’t have fam”
“I thought I didn’t” I ran down the stairs to the truck. I hurriedly got in and crank the motherfucker up. I speed out the driveway down the highway onto the busy freeway. I fly to airport. I pray to God that I find a parking spot. I pull into the airport and go through the fucking security and speed off. I find a good a parking spot. I hop out the car nearly busting my ass into the busy airport. I don’t care but some hoes and bitches bout to get knocked over. I start to read the departure and arrival. I look at the time on my phone and its 2:15 PM. I sprint to where her terminal is and see nobody there. I almost fall to me knees. I fucking missed her.
“Talyah?” I turn around and it’s like I see myself when I was 17.