06/08
Dear Calum,
The last three days was proof enough that I had no one.
You; you fucking left and after three months I'm still questioning your stupidity and decisions. You never contacted any of us like I'm not even fucking sure if you're still in Japan.
Speaking of us, those two; they can't trust me enough to tell me something was going on between them. Was it because they thought I was too unreliable to hide the secret? Fucking tell me why everyone seems to not trust me anymore. Even my own self.
They never even contacted me to apologize. The only apology I got was when I walked out on them and I'm not even sure Ashton was saying it sincerely because I wasn't looking at him. What is is still sincere even for me?
Sure I have Lucy. But I'm really not that close enough to her to vent my fucking problems. To think of it, I have too much problems to remember and I obviously have no intention to scream out my problems to a stranger I only know because my crush.
Crush. Is it even a fucking crush. Or an obsession. I FUCKING HATE MYSELF WHY AM I SO CLUELESS.
I AM SO FUCKING DONE GOODBYE.
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as you can see, this is all bold bc luke is on his man period and is pissed at everything and is stressed too lol is it bc im pissed at everything too
sorry if it was short idk what else to write gODDAMMIT WRITER'S BLOCK. but yeah as promised im going to make calum return bc dude has been gone for too long like is this still even a cake fanfic or a luke fanfic
aND BTW I HIT 1K OMFG IM CRYING AN OCEAN WHO WANTS TO SWIM IN IT. THANK YOU SO MUCH TO EVERYONE WHO VOTED especially those who have voted for every chapter like woah is it that interesting
BUT GUYS IF I WRITE A MALUM FANFIC WILL YOU READ IT
TELL ME IN THE COMMENTS PLS
ilya baiii
- Sammy