I want to start a day with peace of mind.
No worries.
No pains.
No fears.
I want a normal life. Or maybe this is what normal now a days.
But I want a life I have before. When I was first in love with Jesus.
The feeling is very different. The feeling is so comfortable. I don't have fears and I can live a happy life that Jesus has brought to me.
I miss those days.
Not like who I am today. I have overcomed by so many worries. I have feared so much about everything in my life. And Insomia attack me every night.
Maybe they are right. I should stop pity myself. I shouldn't be affected by things that I already experienced in the past.
I should believe in the new life that Jesus gave me.
I should stop being blinded by the unfair treatment of people. By unjustices and unprofessional living of people around me. Because everybody has flows. Everybody commit mistakes.
I should not listen to people who says I am a failure. I shouln't believe those who says I can't. I should trust myself more. Especially God. He is the only One who will not fail us.
I should count my blessings. I should treasure people who loves me through my imperfections. I should listen to people who believes I can be a person I wanted to be.
I should stop comparing myself to others. I shouldn't absorb new wounds because I already had enough. But pray for God to heal them.
Maybe, my life is so dramatic. I am only the one who think I should live this way. And don't know how to advise myself to live in another way. In God's way.
I want freedom. I want to free!! I want to live joyfully. I want to color my life. I want to wake up in God's presence and love. I want to feel only God's love. I want to be concern only on God's will. I want to devote my life to Him.
Please, help me Lord.