Authors Note:
Song of the chapter is 'Fallout' by Marianas Trench
very deep chapter guys :/ lets get started .......
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Chapter 21
Running through the woods my paws hitting the ground hard and my fur blowing against the wind. My legs carried me all the way to the end of the border, looking out beyond me I sighed and fell to the ground. Anger pulsing through me I let my wolf cry and howl to the sky. Twilight sank above us and all I wanted was to spend the night with Jay, holding me, comforting me, kissing me til the sun came up
"He doesn't want us" I said miserably to my wolf
"He was protecting his pack" she howled
"But he needed to help me, protect me not her" I spat angrily
"Just give him time"
"How much time Malise?" I said frowning
"I don't know" she sighed
I left Malise with her thoughts after that. Shifting back into human form, I stood in the forest naked and alone. Covering myself with my arms I walked slowly back to civilization. The dampness of the ground on my bare feet had me shivering as well as the cold autumn breeze blowing in the wind. I reached a footpath in no longer than four hours and let me tell you I cannot feel my feet, actually make that every part of my body
"Abby?" I spun quickly on my heel to see Riley standing at the end of the street
"Riley" I choked out my voice hoarse and raspy from crying and the cold
He ran to me and stood a few feet away before scanning my body. His eyes travelled to the top of my head to my feet slowly. I covered myself instantly with my hands
"Here" he said taking his shirt off
I grabbed it gratefully letting the warmth of the fabric heat me up, I cradled myself closer and saw a sorrowful Riley staring at me
"I heard what happened" he said his voice barely heard
I looked at him with regret and shame. Turning away I let my tears roll down my cheek, clenching my fists I began to walk away. I hate Candace.
I didn't mean to hurt her as much as I did but I couldn't go another day with people talking like that to me. I had to stand up for myself and when I do I still have no respect. Maybe I wasn't cut out to be a wolf let alone a Mist wolf, I suppressed my urge to kill Candace and right now I'm too confused to try
"Abby!" Riley shouted
"Don't touch me" I whispered broken inside
"Abby" he said softly
"Riley please, you don't want to see me like this" I felt the tears prick my eyes and I turned away shaking
"I've always wanted you Abby" he sighed
I stopped mid-tracks when I started to turn slowly, Riley was looking directly at me a look Jay always gives me, Love. I sighed.
"Riley I'm sorry, you know I can't" I said stepping away from the only person willing to help me
"I know but I want to help" he smiled offering his hand
I hesitated but slid my hands onto his, his fingers interlocking with my own. He was so warm I just needed to capture all that warmth
"Come here" he sighed
He picked me up from behind my knees so I was nestled against his chest. I instantly sunk closer to him cupping my hands together over his chest. I envyed his warmth and I needed every last bit of it
"Thanks" I said my teeth chattering
"Anything for you" he said bringing me closer
I had no idea why Aiden is blaming me, I mean sure I may have cause havock but it's not like I chose too and Candace. She and everyone else is done mocking me and I proved that earlier. Of course Jay was disappointed, I nearly beat the daylights out of a pack member. A luna's main priority is to protect and all I did was destroy. Crying to myself I hugged Riley my face buried in his shirt
"It's ok Abby, we'll figure this out"
"Not this time" I sniffed wiping my tears
"Want me to stay with you tonight?" he asked
I nodded not saying a single word, if Jay doesn't want to help me who am I to deny the comfort of another. Riley walked effortlessly to the pack house. I stiffened at the view, it seemed..... lonely?
He walked up the path and pushed the door open with his foot, closing it softly behind him I heard the gasps of pack members but I was too tired to defend what little pride I had left, ignoring the faces Riley stood at the entrance to my room pushing the foot of the door open
Laying me softly on the bed he ran to the bathroom and ran the shower, emerging seconds later he sat beside me a sad smile on his pale face
"You'll feel better"
"Thanks, for everything Riley" I gave a forced smile and made my way to the bathroom
Stripping off his shirt I stepped into the shower letting the water run all the dirt and blood that stained me. I washed my hair feeling bits of grass and dirt between my fingers. I sighed watching everything run down the drain. What happened to me. Once I was dirt free and had a vanilla scent basking around the room I wrapped a towel around my body
Opening the door my body froze on instinct, there sitting on the edge of my bed stood Jay. He looked almost pained to see me his eyes were filled with disappointment
"You were out of hand today" he said getting off the bed
What? he's going to believe what ever sob story Candace gave him and not hear why I did what I did. This is not the man I know he would have fought for me not against me
"Do you even realize why I did that?" I practically screamed
"Yes but you went too far Abby, you nearly killed a pack member over a snide remark" he growled using his alpha tone
"I was dying slowly everyday with the pain each and every single one of them caused me. Every day I'd get death threats from them and every day it killed me slowly" I yelled marching up to him with teary eyes
"Ignore them" he yelled
I stumbled back outraged and shocked. Out of all people he was telling me to just ignore the threats and bruises they caused me. I was tortured and humiliated ever since day one and it still hasn't died down. Its worse
"You have no right to tell me what to do" I said through gritted teeth my body shaking
"I am your alpha Abby" he growled stepping closer to me, he gripped my arms and shook me
"Get off me" I growled shoving him away
I stood there shocked when he stumbled back hitting the wall, I heard a low growl and instantly went into a defensive position
"You're way out of line" he shouted
"Well you're treating me like I'm the bad guy!" I retorted
"Because I have a pack to protect!" he growled
"And a mate to love!" I choked on the last part
He just stood there defeated and when he reached out to grab my hand I flicked him off and walked to my dresser finding some clothing
I'm not staying here if I'm not wanted especially if my mate doesn't want me. My eyes started to water and I refused to let Jay see he's broken me
"What are you doing" he yelled
"Leaving" I said dead panned
My voice was raspy and cracked, I don't want to leave but I have to, it'll be better for everyone and I'll be out of people's way
"No you're not" he grabbed my arm tugging it away from my bag
"Let me go!" I cried hitting his chest
"You're not leaving"
"Why, why not!" I screeched "No one wants me here, NO ONE!, Look at what happened today Jay. That's what happens when someone finally breaks you!" I cried harder hitting him with the little strength I had left
His hands were gripped tightly on my wrists and I just broke. All these years of pain finally hit me like a ton of bricks, all the tears I never let fall came crashing down on me. Never had I intended on any of this to happen to me and I hate every single moment
"Just let me go" I sobbed hitting the floor, my legs finally giving out
I heard the soothing words of Jay but nothing was working for me today, realizing the position we held I shoved him away dry tears staining my cheeks. Jay's face was pure shock, he stood up and brushed himself off. He can't attack me and suddenly care, that's twisted
"That's why people don't like you" he snapped "Because you push away anyone who tries to give you comfort"
And with that he walked out of the door, slamming it on the way out I huddled into the corner of the room bawling my eyes out. I rocked back and fourth crying, letting every tear escape.
He's gone and he's not coming back. He's gone. I stood up and changed, Since he doesn't want me here there's only one thing to do..... leave and never come back. I heard footsteps approaching the door and I slid under my bed
"Abby?" Riley said quietly
I crawled out from the bed and ran up to Riley hugging him like he was life itself, he was the only person to show me kindness and sympathy. He stumbled back when I jumped on him but he wrapped his arms around me comfortingly
"We heard yelling" he cooed sitting on the bed
"We?" I sniffed confusedly
"The pack" he smiled sadly brushing a piece of hair away from my face
"He has the house surrounded you know, you can't escape" he said defeated
"What" I cried
"He doesn't want you gone and I barely made it in here to talk to you"
I zoned out briefly before turning my attention back to Riley, I don't want to be alone anymore
"Can you stay with me" I pleaded
He hesitated for a second before nodding
"Where's the extra blankets?" he asked
"Can you sleep with me" I said rocking bad and fourth on my bed, dry tears staining my red face
I didn't want to move, all my energy has been drained and mentally I was broken. Hearing the bathroom door open and close. Riley walked out in a pair of boxers before sitting next to me
"Abby you need to change" he sighed
I heard him but I didn't move, I'm done talking and I'm done moving. Jay has broken me bit by bit and it's all thanks to the day I set foot in this god forsaken house. I can never actually forgive him with what happened today but I need a peace of mind
I felt Riley rise from beside me, he stood in front of me and slowly rested his hands on the hem of my shirt. Slowly raising it over my head he threw it on the floor next to us. I could feel his movements.but my body was numb with pain, kneeling in front of me he positioned his hands at the top of my jeans and carefully undid my top button. Pulling the fabric down my legs he threw it with my shirt and then left the room before appearing seconds later. He held a shirt in one hand and slipped it over my head, the cotton of the fabric resting mid thigh
He picked me up and layed me down softly, bringing me closer to him he wrapped his arm over my waist and tucked my head under his chin
"Time to rest"
My eyes fluttered closed and the last thing I heard was the voice of Jay in my head
"I'm so sorry"
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Authors Note:
Sad chapter for Abby :( Lucky she has Riley right ??
laptop is still broken so this chapter maybe short again sorry. But the next one is going to be longer promise
-Missy