I blinked a couple of times for my vision to adjust; I couldn't quite get round it all. Drugs? Nathan? None of it made sense. I would never do a thing like that yet here I am being accused, I didn't know what to do. Tell him I didn't do it? Although he wouldn't believe me, I had to do something. Slowly, I started walking backwards as he got closer to me, his nostrils flaring and him screwing me at the same time. I knew I wasn't getting out of here without a fight. I picked up the nearest thing, which was a steel ruler and threw it straight at him, causing him to duck. I sprinted as though my life depended on it, I sprinted out of the classroom, down the corridor, out of the playground and half way through the woods were I stopped and searched through my bag for my asthma pump. My chest felt tight, and I was taking small and quick breaths. I emptied out the contents of my bag onto the floor and searched for the pump and it wasn't there. I tried to tell myself not to panic and everything would be okay, maybe I misplaced it and it was in my blazer, I searched through all my pockets and still nothing was there.
Me: Argh, shit!
I gathered all my stuff and I heard sticks crack behind me, I turned around and no-one was there. I squinted my eyes as I thought I saw something; nevertheless I turned back around and continued packing my bag still trying to breathe.
Voice: Missing something?
I turned around to see Wayne standing there throwing my asthma pump up and down in the air and smirking,
Me: P-Please, give me... my pump.
I tried to make the sentence as short as I could as I felt as though I was going to pass out any second, I was barely breathing. His smile grew even wider as he saw how much I was struggling.
Me: Please... I can't breathe.
He shook his head and continued laughing, he started walking towards me and pushed me against the tree,
Wayne: So you tried to hit me yeah?
I shook my head unable to reply to him,
Wayne: Why you lying to me Shay?
I screwed him in disgust,
Me: It's Shayna.
Wayne: I can call you what ever the fuck I like.
Without a second thought I picked up the nearest object and knocked him unconscious, i picked up my pump and took several breaths until my breathing went back to normal. I was still panting as the blood tricked down his head onto his shirt. Checking no-one was near I dragged his unconscious body into a bush and left him there, picking up my bag I sprinted all the way home. Not bothering to stop because I couldn't breathe. Not bothering to take a second look back and feel some regret and remorse, I felt nothing. Infact I felt empty.
I unlocked my front door and threw my bag on the floor I pushed my hair out of my face and sunk to the floor crying.
Tears wouldn't stop falling from my eyes as I hyperventilated. I done what I thought was best, it went all so quickly I couldn't get my head round it all, my phone kept ringing and I wouldn't answer it after a while I blocked it out and the only sound I could hear was my cries and screams. No-one could help me, there was no-one left. I had no-one. I wanted Joel and yet he wasn't here and that was my fault, I could have changed things it could have been me and him together right now yet I chose Wayne knowing what he would still do to me, I could have escaped all of this if I only I had made the right choice.
I looked up at the clock and saw the time was 2pm, I rested my head against the wall and before I knew it I drifted off...
?: SHAYNA?! SHAY WAKE UP!
I opened my eyes to see Aisha standing over me looking worried,
Aisha: Oh my god, I thought you were dead!
I shook my head and rubbed my eyes once more,
Me: No, I'm fine leave me.
Aisha: Have you heard? They found Wayne's body in the woods.
My mouth became dry and my words stuttered as they came out my mouth,
Me: R-Really?
Aisha: Yeah, wait why aren't you at school?
Me: No reason. I thought you were still mad at me for sleeping with your boyfriend.
She kissed her teeth and went into the kitchen, I followed behind her and leaned against the island,
Aisha: Piss off Shayna, shouldn't you be at the hospital with your abusive boyfriend?
Me: No, I'm ill.
Aisha: Whatever, look yeah I still haven't forgotten what you've done so don't try beg frie-
I started laughing holding onto the side,
Me: You are joking init? Please tell me your joking. What don't you understand, I haven't done anything!
Aisha: So you happen to have an identical twin yeah? Sket.
Me: Grow up. Your 13, and you've got a man who's nearly 18 it doesn't make you big.
Aisha: Yeah well I don't get fucked about and treated like shit, I can actually stand up for myself yanoe.
She pushed past me and went up to her room slamming the door shut, stupid bitch. I couldn't waste my time and energy on her she was one stubborn person who NEVER listened to anything I said. A few moments later the front door opened and my mum walked in with Mia.
Mum: You okay Shay?
I nodded and hugged both her and Mia taking my stuff up to my room I collapsed onto my bed staring at the ceiling. I closed my eyes and thought about anything that could just take me to a happier place for at least a few minutes of my life, anything. At home it was depressing, my mum was still crying over my dad. Aisha wasn't talking to me and Mia? I felt distant from her.
I tied my hair into a ponytail and took my towel with me to the bathroom.
A while later I came out and changed into some grey nike tracksuit bottoms and a white vest top. I wasn't impressing anybody so there was no need for me to dress up.
I lay back on my bed and closed my eyes, just hoping everything would go away.
I woke up to banging on my bedroom door and my mum storming in looking worried,
Mum: Shay? Love, the police are here to speak to you.
I rubbed my eyes and blinked hard so everything could sink in again, police? Why would they want to speak to me?
Me: Um, what's it about?
Mum: It's about Joel.
I jumped up from my bed and walked towards my bedroom door, shocked.
Me: Is he okay?
Mum: That's what they'd like to talk to you about.
She looked as though she was trying to hold back crying, tears started blurring my vision and I quickly wiped them away so they wouldn't fall. It could be good news, I was just worried. Something didn't seem quite right, nothing did. I used all the strength I had to take myself downstairs and into the living room, I sat down opposite the two police officers and they smiled warmly at me.
Police Man: Shayna, we have news about Joel's disappearance.
I started blankly at him waiting for him to carry on,
Police Man: Well, we'd like you to erm...
He coughed and looked back up at me sympathetically,
Me: What? You'd like me to what?
Police: Identify a body.
My eyes widened and my mum left the room, the tears I held back started spilling down my cheeks quickly. I kept blinking and telling myself I didn?t hear well. Surely he didn't mean there was chance Joel could be dead. Now I thought of it the more I wanted to vomit, I got up and ran to the toilet and emptied the contents of my stomach in the toilet bowl, the tears wouldn't stop falling as I continued to sob silently.
There was a knock on the bathroom door, I ignored it and sunk back against the wall. Aisha walked in and sat down next to me, with her arm round me.
Aisha: Shay, it will be okay I promise.
I screwed her and wiped my mouth with the tissue she gave me,
Me: You don't care Aisha, so don't pretend you do.
Aisha: I do, I'm still pissed at you though.
Me: For doing what? Nothing? Kmt.
Aisha: Shayna, there's enough proof you done it so don't lie.
Me: Shut the fuck up.
She looked shocked, but she did so anyway. I stood up and washed my mouth out, brushed my teeth and cleaned around the toilet; Aisha sat in the bathroom watching me,
Me: Haven't you got something else to do?
She cleared her throat and stood next to me,
Aisha: Shay... why did you pick Wayne?
My throat went dry and my mouth opened slightly. I didn?t know exactly why I chose Wayne over Joel, surely some-one else could have helped him, but no I decided to stay with him like a prick. I pushed past Aisha and went straight into my bedroom; I locked the door and stayed in there, sinking down to the floor with my head in my hands, crying silently. For hours on end the banging on my door wouldn't stop, no-one would leave me be but I didn't know what to do. I couldn't go and see if the body was Joel's it was killing me inside.
I was screaming out for help that no-one could hear or understand, it sounded like another language to them and me too a language only Joel would understand, in between sniffs words which sounded like a whisper escaped my mouth,
Me: Please, come back.
Before I knew it my eyes shut and I fell asleep in the same position.
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