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If This Is Love: 8 | Haircuts
| Laura Renae |
| A Few Weeks Later (February 9th, 2017) |
From Big Bean😋💛:
Yo, where r u?
To Big Bean😋💛:
At home with Rydel. Why? Where are you?
From Big Bean😋💛:
It's a night out. Be ready in 15 and we'll come pick
the 2 of u up. Ry's with his friends so it's just us
6 2night. U me and Riker in a car and Rocky E and
Rydel in the other
To Big Bean😋💛:
Okay cool. You boys get your haircut?
From Big Bean😋💛:
Yo, check Ra6 insta
From Big Bean😋💛:
See ya in 15
"Uh, check the band Instagram." I say to Rydel. I scoot my butt over on the couch to be right beside Rydel as she goes onto Instagram, and to our account.
@officialr6: Rydel & Renae where you at? #NightOut
"Ross looks hot with his hair cut." I say, zooming in on his hair. "Damn." I whisper. Rydel chuckles and now zooms in on E. "My brother looks like a sloth." I breathe out.
"What? No he doesn't. He looks hotter than Ross." I roll my eyes at her. Like that's possible. "I'm guess him and Brianna aren't hanging out tonight?" She asks me. I roll my eyes at her name. As much as I love Brianna, because I really do, I just hate the thought of her and Ross together. Rydel and I have come pretty close with Brianna lately, so close that Rydel invited her to a girls night with us and Alexa and Vanni. Sav couldn't make it, but it was still fun.
"Nah, he said she needed to write a paper." I tell her. "I also need to write a paper, like, I really need to, but I can write it tomorrow morning. It's due in two weeks." I tell her.
"Why do you do it so early? You literally have two weeks to write it." I shrug my shoulders a little.
"I like to make multiple drafts and edit them." I murmur as Rydel rolls her eyes.
"Let's post one back." Rydel says, logging out of her own account so she could log into our band one. Both Rydel and I get close to the camera.
@officialr6: COME PICK US UP!
"Ross texted me and said they'd be here in fifteen minutes." I tell her. "And I'm gonna step up my flirting game tonight." I say, a smirk on my face. My new thing is to flirt with Ross whenever we're together without Brianna. He and I still hangout daily alone, literally nothings changed since we've been best friends since we were twelve, except for the fact I sleep alone and he's gone for longer than I'd like, but I'm use to it now. Sleeping is a breeze now, I sleep pretty well on my own.
"You said that least week when we went to that karaoke bar." She says.
"Well Brianna showed up fifteen minutes in so I couldn't work it up." Rydel forms an oh with her mouth and I nod, a frown taking over my face. "You know, it's been a month since I realized I loved him." I say, sadness taking over my body. "Have I told you the number of times I've seen them kiss?" 32. "Have I told you how many times I've cried over him?" 13. "Have I told you how many times I've stalked his Instagram or his twitter or just random pictures of him this past month?" Instagram: 14. Twitter: 5. Camera roll photos: 50+.
"No." Rydel whispers. "But I have a feeling it's been a lot." She quietly adds. I just suck in a breath and nod my head, not wanting to talk about it anymore. "How are you gonna step up the flirting game with him?" She asks me.
"I don't even know." I breathe out. "I've never flirted with someone before." Rydel snorts. "What?" I ask.
"You two flirt daily, Laura." She tells me. "Even if he's with Brianna, you two flirt constantly." I frown.
"Yet he hasn't noticed me." Rydel's eyes soften. "It's whatever. I'm going to go pee real quick and put on some heels." I say.
"Why heels?" She asks me. "I'm wearing converse." I raise my eyebrows at her scrunched uo nose.
"Because I can complain about my feet hurting and Ross will gladly offer to give me a piggyback ride." I tell her, a giant smile on my face.
"You're a smart lady, Renae." I smirk at her and head to the bathroom Ross and I share. Not even ten minutes later, Rydel and I were locking up the front door and waiting in the driveway for the boys to come pick us up.
From Big Bean😋💛:
Change of plans, I'm picking up Brianna so ur
riding in the car with the rest of the guys and
Rydel
"Ross is picking up Brianna." I mumble, not bothering to reply.
"Seriously?" She asks me. I sigh and nod my head. "Are you still gonna hang out with us tonight?" She asks. I shrug my shoulders.
"I don't know." I whisper, taking my heels off. "So much for these bad boys." Rydel chuckles and gently pats my back. "Do I really want to be freezing my ass off while walking the streets of downtown L.A. and watch the person I love canoodle with his girlfriend?" I ask myself quietly. "I think I'm just gonna stay in and write my paper." I tell Rydel.
"No, Laura! Please come out with us!" She whines. "Go put on converse or vans and come out with us. You'll have fun!" She begs, shaking my shoulders. Just as that happens, a car pulls into the driveway and a head pops out of the wined.
"Get in losers!" Rocker shouts. I look at Rydel.
"Laura needs shoes!" Rydel yells back. Groaning, I walk up to the front door, unlock it, and head for my shoes. I pick out regular high top black converse and head back outside, lock the front door, and pile into the car squished between the door and my lovely brother. Rocky was driving, like always, and somehow Riker got the joy of sitting shotgun because of his stupid oldest gets shotgun rule.
"So... what exactly are we doing?" Rydel asks the guys.
"We're just walking around and hitting up some clubs and whatnot. That's the main reason why Ry isn't with us." Ellington tells us. I sigh and look down at my phone, seeing a text from Ross pop up.
"Wait, Brianna's nineteen." I say, not understanding why the hell Ry couldn't come.
"Oh. Well then... I don't know what we're doing then." I roll my eyes and open up the text from Ross.
From Big Bean😋💛:
We'll meet u by the Ripleys believe it or not thingy
To Big Bean😋💛:
I thought we were doing downtown L.A.?
From Big Bean😋💛:
Change of plans. Tell the guys
"Ross said we're going to Hollywood and that they'd meet us by the Ripley's Believe it or Not building." I tell them. Rocky groans and immediately pulls a u-turn, a completely illegal u-turn may I add, and starts his way towards Hollywood.
"Tell him to get off his phone." Rocky mumbles.
To Big Bean😋💛:
Rocky says get off your phone
From Big Bean😋💛:
Haha it's Brianna texting you 😜 I wouldn't let
him text and drive
To Big Bean😋💛:
Good!
I frown and lock up my phone. Tonight is gonna be hell. We made it to our meeting spot in under twenty minutes, and parking wasn't hard considering it was nearly ten o'clock at night. All of us piled out and I lazily walked behind everyone as we walked to Ripley's, only to become nauseated when Ross and Brianna were holding hands and laughing. I shove my hands in my jeans pockets and keep my head down as I follow the boys and Rydel.
"Where we walking to?" Riker asks. I didn't bother paying attention to the conversation, I just followed in their footsteps. It wasn't until we walked past some gift shop that I started to shiver. I was wearing a dark maroon long sleeved shirt with the shoulder section gone, and I'm freezing my fucking ass off. Looking at the boys, I couldn't help but frown. E was wearing a button up with most likely nothing underneath, same with Rocky. Riker had a jacket on, but I have no idea if he'd be willing to give me it, and I know for a fact Ross wouldn't give me his jacket, but I guess it was worth a shot.
"Hey Ross?" I ask, catching up to him and Brianna who were still hand in hand. "Can I wear your jacket? I'm freezing." I say, slightly embarrassed.
"Yeah, of course." He says, starting to take it off.
"Aw, babe, I was about to ask you for your jacket." Brianna says. Back off, I asked first. Plus, she was wearing a crewneck already. She should be pretty warm. I have a thin long sleeved shirt, bitch. Ross looked at Brianna. Are you serious? "I'm freezing my ass off and I'm pretty sure my crewneck-" I couldn't even listen anymore.
"It's fine, it's whatever, I'll just go ask Riker or something." I mutter, walking away from Ross and Brianna. So much for being the most important girl in his life.
"Hey Riker?" I ask, walking beside him. "Can I wear your jacket?" I ask, looking up at him.
"Are you cold?" He asks me, frowning a bit.
"Yeah. I asked Ross but I guess Brianna needed it too." I say, my voice a little weak.
"It's a little thin." Riker says, starting to take it off. "But you can wear it, yeah." I give him a smile.
"Thank you!" I say, taking it out of his hands. I shove my arms through the sleeves and put it on, immediately zipping it up and not caring that it went almost to my knees. "You're the better Lynch brother. Ross is kinda going down the scale lately." I admit, not really thinking much of it.
"Wait, what?" Riker asks me.
"Don't worry about it." I mumble, falling back behind him so I could be behind everybody again. I grab my phone out from my pocket and scroll through Instagram, seeing as E posted another photo on the bands Instagram.
@officialr6: got em. renae's just somewhere behind us
I smile the slightest and like the picture before shoving my phone back into my pocket right as a breeze goes by. I hate being all bones and no skin, because I'm always freezing my ass off. Riker's jacket did almost nothing, and in all honesty, I was ready to go home.
"Babe, you should stay at my place tonight." And somehow I ended up next to Ross and Brianna again. Brianna was all cozied up in his thick jean jacket and cuddled into Ross' side as they walked side by side down the street.
"Would we sleep or would we do something else?" He asks. I could fucking hear the smirk in his voice. "Because I'd be up for something else." I suck in a breath. I think I'm gonna be sick.
"I'm gonna head home." I say, stopping dead in my tracks. Everybody else stops dead in there tracks as swell, all staring at me.
"What? We literally just got here." Rocky says, frowning.
"I have a paper I need to write." I say.
"Ooo, me too." Brianna says. Fan-fucking-tastic for you, Brianna. "Mines due tomorrow night at midnight."
"And Laura's is due in two weeks. Therefore you can stay out with us." Rydel says, giving me a weird look.
"I'm freezing and I'm tired." I interject. "I appreciate Riker being nice and giving me his jacket, but I'm still freezing my ass off and I'm just not in the mood to be walking around right now." I couldn't help but let my eyes water up. Don't cry. The last thing you want is to cry, Laura.
"Laura, how'd you sleep last night?" E asks me. Fuuuck, not this again.
"Ellington, I slept." Truth is I didn't. I slept the night before for ten hours and last night I slept for no hours because I was busy brainstorming for my essay.
"Laura Renae." He warns.
"Ellington Lee." I warn back.
"Do you want Ross' jacket?" Brianna says, her voice quiet. "I grew up in Michigan, I can take a little wind." Fuck. You.
"No, it's fine." But really it's not fine. She just nods her head with a small smile. "Can I please go home?" I ask.
"Nope." Rydel says, walking over to me and linking arms with me. "You just gotta learn to suck it up, buttercup." I knew she was addressing not only the coldness, but the Ross and Brianna thing.
"I can't." I mumble. Rydel sighs and everybody starts to walk again. "I ask for his jacket, and then she swoops in and said she wanted it. He chose her after I asked. I asked him first." I whisper to Rydel.
"Well... she is his girlfriend." I roll my eyes. "Keep a smile on your face and act like they don't bother you, okay?" I frown and look down at our feet.
"I feel like I'm gonna be sick, Rydel." I whisper, looking at her. "They make me sick." Rydel sighs again and tugs me to a stop, letting everybody else keep walking.
"Laura, I'm very well aware that this sucks ass right now, but there's seriously nothing you can do. They're happy together, Renae. You don't want to ruin his happiness. You need to learn to ignore them and move on with your fucking life. You've been hella depressed lately and honestly, it's for a stupid reason. So what if you love him? He obviously doesn't deserve you if he's doing this in front of you. So let it go. You're too good for him and he'll never be as good to you." I furrow my eyebrows.
"I thought you wanted us to be together?" Rydel groans and stomps her door.
"I do!" She whines. "But I just... he's happy and he's my little brother and I just don't want him to not be happy." She quietly says, her voice dying off in the end.
"I'm being so selfish." I whisper, sitting down on the curb. I didn't care that the guys were so far out of sight, I didn't care that I had my ass on a dirty curb by the dirty famous stars. "You're looking out for your little brother, and I'm trying to destroy his happiness. I'm a bitch." I mumble.
"No, Laura... that's not exactly... yes, he's my little brother and of course I'm gonna do everything I can to make him happy, but you're my sister too. I want you to be happy and believe me, I'm trying to. It's just... he comes first." She mumbles, sitting down beside me. "I love you both so much, and I want the both of you to be happy, okay?" I nod my head slowly, feeling the tears well up in my eyes.
"I wanna go home." I whisper.
"Okay." She whispers back, pulling out her phone.
"Hey, why'd you guys stop?" The second I heard my big brothers voice was the exact second I stood up and let a sob escape my mouth. I couldn't take it. I walk into my big brothers arms, my protectors arms, and cried into him. "Laura, what's wrong?" He asks, squeezing me to him.
"Honey, I think you should take her home." I heard Rydel say. "I can go fetch the keys from Rocky and Ross can drive us back instead.
"I have the keys." Ellington murmurs. "Why is she crying?" He asks, rubbing my back as I just sob harder.
"It's not my story to tell." With that said, I heard footsteps slowly get quieter.
"Sis, I can't help you if I don't know what's wrong." He says, gently patting my back.
"Ca-can you take me home ple-please?" I ask, pulling away from him. Nothing but worry was on his face.
"Yeah, of course." He whispers. He keeps a hand on my back as we walk back to the car in complete silence, the only noise from the noisy cars and my sniffles.
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